conclusion; the end of an era
produced by @idlyblare
<3

lyrics:
sing me a song and tell me everything is normal
its been months since i had felt at all, im tryna keep it formal with the
things that i say to those who don’t quite get the most of me
its harder to find out when
they’re leaving

find me a stone & write my name in tiny letters
if u throw it far enough then you and i are stuck together for the
rest of our years or just as long as you put up with me
i know that it has to end
you’re leaving

so if i go
no complaints
we’ll take it slow
until we break

i shop the windows of this breezy inner city
hoping for some inspiration, maybe i’ll find something pretty in the
regurgitation of my life in front of you
i put myself for sale, just wondering
if you still want me too

i break the habits of my past, im nothin better than a
old pair of shoes that no one wears until they gotta
but its
nothing personal
something terminal

i saw the rain
reflecting off your windowsill
i took the pain i gathered
turned it into chlorophyll
who knows the way
we’ll fall back into open arms
i tried to find it comforting
here i am with battle scars

learning to lose

chlorophyll [idly blare]

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Featuring @hammy
Produced by @noahmadethiss
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
(hamilton)
Wake up repeat 
I wish I could stay asleep 
I know you know 
That you make my heart beat 
Don’t know what’s wrong 
What's wrong with me 
I need some rest 
Feel so empty 

I know you know 
That you drive me crazy 
I’m off two blues 
In a black Mercedes 
Speeding swerving 
I'm not gonna slow down 
Sirens screaming 
Ain’t no turning back now

(Carlby)
There ain't no turning back now
If you lack the passion my suggestion is you tap out
I know that it can be hard to manage
There’s no better way to cope with hopelessness and panic
Damage
I can feel I now as I drive ‘round my hometown
Someone cut the brakes
I can’t slow down
I know I'm so pessimistic
But I'ma really go the distance

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No Turning Back w/ hamilton (Prod. noahmadethiss)

Lyrics:

lights out
i guess im tired
and i been fightin sumthin
im goin silence huntin
i just want a moment, give me a second to hone it
every day that i wake, i gotta sharpen the blade

oh you're takin it back like it was a typo uh
i guess i was never your type then huh
cause you only like em when they love you and then leave but i wasn't that cause i never did mistreat you
you put up your guard, defend
how do we start again
when every conversation we're havin ends in disgust
cause i got insecurities and i know you don't trust
but honestly baby i don't want it to be the end of us

every time that we start to get close you pull away
and i know that i still gotta say it right to your face
but i make time to make sure that i'm around
but you never called, even when i'm not im town
oh i'll stay here even tho i know that it's fake
and i guess that we tried but it's just not aligned to fate
honesty and regret abstained, i think i almost loved you

every body got an opinion, i will just shut down
cause maybe i don't wanna hear you out the picture run mouth
and baby if i'm honest, i think that you should run now
cause ain't it bout that time for us to get close and then bounce out
eyes bled red but i want hazel instead
i'm sorry that i wasn't there when you wished you were dead
axe grind, cut the line, let my neck snap
make sure that it's taut baby won't work if it's slack

overdose license, pure death i siphoned
bro said stick to the tests, don't give a fuck i did the rest
swallowed all dat shit to give my respitory a rest
i was doin shit that'd give a baby hair on chest
and no im not proud, but i escaped from that cloud
shut the fuck up, boy them voices aren't loud
all those numbers on the internet, but you can't pull a crowd
and if we post up on this side then you are not allowed

oh shit i gotta, lie down
im dyin here won't you pipe down
you always said that what goes around comes back
but orbital, that's not how i'd describe my path
cause i just looked ahead and i see distance in my past
and things ain't goin slow your just too used to movin fast
i still got a couple questions i'm afraid to ask
understand i would but right now ima let it pass

a_pattern_of_disaffection_ (secre x splashgvng)

Produced by Carlby
Guitar by @93FEETOFSMOKE
Vocals mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Michael Venia @veniamastering

LYRICS
I've seen my future and it's not looking great
I fear fate's something that can't be escaped
Two options staring me dead in the face
I can no longer afford to look away

If not now
Then it'll be too late
By the time I get around to getting straight
But if I stick to my guns
Put myself first for once
Then maybe I can shed this dead weight

It's deadly
It's weighing heavily on me
But it doesn't have to be this way
In my effort to get better
I've learned a lot about insanity

Stick To My Guns (Prod. w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE)

THE SONG OF THE SUMMER
WITH @ejcarrmusic
EP SOON

lyrics:

up three, down one 
soak in the fun 
couldn't catch it too fast 
something hidden in the grass 
thought i left it in the past 
but don't think that i can shake it 
use me for entertainment 
think i'm falling down the hill 
started fading out the thrill 
needing patience when i'm still

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

no shot you're taking this away

i lost enough, can i get another one?
i think im trying to hard to be the one
you know its hard when i always wanna run
i think i’ve finally had enough
of all the shit i take
my conscience can’t be
under all the weight
of half the people
in my day to day
i try to keep the
things you said
behind a lock and key, ‘cause

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

waving out of this one
save me from everyone
all within me
no shot you’re taking this away

its all the time i wonder
is all of this a blunder?
before the lightning; thunder
you strike me over and over

there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(its all the time i wonder)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(is all of this a blunder?)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(before the lightning; thunder)
there’s no shot, there’s no shot 
(you strike me over and over)

waking up 
guess it was 
plain to see 
through all the positives 
no shot you're taking this away

waving out of this one
save me from everyone
all within me
no shot you’re taking this away

no shot w/ evan carr [immortal x perish]

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approaching depth of 1000 metres.]

its been, it’s been
it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

ima show everybody back home
that i’m not a waste of flesh blood and bones 
ima get some pictures get out n go home
finally safe from the sight of her name on my phone
in this dark blue wasteland cold and alone 
nobody but myself and a radio 
i’ll probably never surface here yeah i know
maybe i shouldn’t have got in this 3x3 coffin

[approaching depth of 3000 metres]

it’s been a rough few months since i was sober
i had everything i wanted now it’s over 
these metal walls keep me safe 
from the slaughter
“home” is what i call her 
i got the guts to run away now i’m cornered

so i finally packed my bags like i told her
now i’m inside this iron lung in this water 
and im sinkin in this ship with my trauma
close my eyes and i ignore her 
at this entrance of this cave i think i saw her 

[approaching depth of 5000 metres]

it’s a long way down (jolst)

song of the summer meet rock bottom
with my main man @ejcarrmusic
ep in two weeks !!!
enjoy <3

lyrics:
blink your eyes and it’s here
the pit of all the years
immune from any ending
think fast your stories changing
so sort through the jumbled mess
of old times and stale regrets
as long as you get
what all this truly meant

take a breath
and walk those steps
as you fear the depths
of whatever comes next

how am i meant to say goodbye
open my mouth with just one try
to let go of a person
that means more than
i could ever describe
no choice here
disappear
into anything that’s left
anything that’s left in your mind

go ahead

sometimes its on your doorstep
sometimes u take the fall
i took it on the shoulder
i lost myself in it all
and it gets hard to recognize the person that i was
i said goodbye a hundred times and never understood

the reasons beneath us
you’ll never forget how it feels
a sequence of treason
could never bend us to my will
its hard to fight the future
past tense would hardly suit us
how did i say goodbye so many times
and finally let go for good?

how am i meant to say goodbye
open my mouth with just one try
to let go of a person
that means more than
i could ever describe
no choice here
disappear
into anything that’s left
anything that’s left in your mind
its hard to fight the future
past tense would hardly suit us
how did i say goodbye so many times
and finally let go for good
bye
bye
bye
bye

go ahead, say goodbye

go ahead, say goodbye w/ evan carr [immortal]

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blink your eyes and it's here

with @ejcarrmusic
executive produced by immortal

enjoy. <3

lyrics:

talk back
nothing short of me
fall back
the life i wanted needs
more than anything at all
something changing when im gone
i can’t tell if i’m just broken
or if all this has a cause
its all in the differential; sub-sequential results
change me like an oil spill in the gulf
my heart isn’t breakable but i know
the mood changes are taking half of the toll
that i pay when im driving past your home
the time frame isnt making sense, no i know
its all fake when i’m grinding down to the bone
i need faith but its hard to believe in ghosts

i tried to see it your way, cuz mine’s much worse
this pessimistic viewpoint just leaves me cursed
i won’t say never, cuz i won’t quit
but nothing ever changes till i’m all in

but when’s that come 
to stop the hurt 
i’m waiting for signs 
that’ll heal this curse 
it’s something that i’ve never seen before 
yet something i know i’ve been bracing for 
and i’ve got this feeling that 
i should just face the facts 
live in reality 
but we both know 
that wouldn’t be me 

i tried to see it your way, cuz mine’s much worse
this pessimistic viewpoint just leaves me cursed
i won’t say never, cuz i won’t quit
but nothing ever changes till i’m all in

i’ll never see it your way, you know it well
i tried to keep the peace here, now i’m in hell
and i can say never, i don’t give a shit
cuz nothing ever changes till im all in

heretic w/ evan carr [immortal x splashgvng]

blink your eyes and it's here

with @ejcarrmusic
executive produced by immortal

enjoy. <3

lyrics:
torture me
what you see
is only make believe
forcibly
tell me things
you only wish you’d think

i’m taking back everything i said i would
everything i said i could do for you
just fell back into my hands
it never mattered what i said
cuz by the time i went to bed
i forgot what you told me
just hold me like you love me again
if only you had known what it meant

if only i’d seen the sunshine 
before it died 
the permanent shadow 
it cast across my mind 

if only 
i hadn’t been so selfish 
ensure me
that you’d had done what i did 
but it’s gone 
with the words that i’ll never say 

if only 
i’d had seen the rock 
what it brought 
knocking in circles 
and laughing in purple 
is trapped in a memory 
left with a lesser me 
leading to countless nights 
hurting and wondering 

what if i had told you 
what if i had told you more 

i’m taking back everything i said i would
(what if i had told you?)
everything i said i could do for you
(what if i had told you more?)
just fell back into my hands
it never mattered what i said
(what if i had told you?)
cuz by the time i went to bed
i forgot what you told me
just hold me like you love me again
(what if i had told you more?)
if only you had known what it meant

everything i said i would
(everything i said i would)
everything i said i could do for you
just fell back into my hands
(its all in my hands)
it never mattered what i said
cuz by the time i went to bed
i forgot what you told me
just hold me like you love me again
if only you had known what it meant

(torture me, what you see is only make believe)

if only w/ evan carr [immortal x aidan han]

blink your eyes and it's here

with @ejcarrmusic
executive produced by immortal

enjoy. <3

lyrics:
out of time 
hear the buzzer sound 
guess i’m out of lifelines 
so i say burn it 

burn it down
no turnaround 
you ruined me 
it’s over now 
tried to see it, the impending threat you burrowed in my head 
had a feeling this was ending that’s exactly how it went 
so finish up the conversation 
i’ll mark the final destination 
cuz i’m not coming 
swear i’m never coming back

i’m losing touch in heat of doubt
the weight of us just brings me down
no longer stable, iron out
all u find ugly
moreover, i can’t bear to shout
my own requirements aloud
i’d rather die than figure out
what makes me ugly

out of time 
with no second chance 
feel my fate unearthed 
so i want this one to hurt 

burn it down
no turnaround 
you ruined me 
it’s over now 
tried to see it, the impending threat you burrowed in my head 
had a feeling this was ending that’s exactly how it went 
so finish up the conversation 
i’ll mark the final destination 
cuz i’m not coming 
swear i’m never coming back

burn it down w/ evan carr [immortal]

prod the goat @unaake

hope it aint obvious cuz its unbearable
i wear it on my fucking sleeve im fucking terrible
im breathing deep cuz i can feel u run the variables
i got a month before u leave this time's invaluable

im sick of holding back thoughts
everyone i know is sick its hard to care if im not
i keep hoping itll stick, bear the waters ill cross
what if its not worth the risk? heaven knows if im lost

this is who i am i'll fight the fire
(this is who i am, fight the fire)
wonder where all my desire's gone
(this is who i am, a fuckin liar ugh)
i try to stay inspired
(this is who i am, fight the fire)
maybe thats why i cant love for long
(this is who i am, a fuckin liar, oh)

who i am [bugboi]

with the life i’m given, i’m healing.

@lovelessgroup
@butaneband

if only w/ evan carr [immortal x aidan han]

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