s12 will be fine

October On Repeat

prada! (w/ lunaking) (prod. safin)

mixed/mastered by @scottysplash

lyrics:

Gift me closure
But how long I gotta wait for an answer
I guess we never change ur a monster now
Be honest u had never put in Effort
And it hurts me

Im at home here
My tears will wash away as I mold here
But if life had stayed the same I would’ve rot here too
So what’s the harm in giving me the closure from u
Im so alone here
Its so cold inside my place with the ghosts near
But Baby please dont be afraid I will hold u
It doesn’t No matter what they say they cant control u
And yet they own u
Fight back
U taught me how to harm try that
I see in my dreams but ur all but my friend
Tell me how the fuck u got in my head
Huh
Velvet
My hands come out my head coated in a bright red
But the pain feel amazing the more that I bled
Painting every time her shoes tread

Im at home here
My tears will wash away as I mold here
But if life had stayed the same I would’ve rot here too
So what’s the harm in giving me the closure from u
Im so alone here
Its so cold inside my place with the ghosts near
But Baby please dont be afraid I will hold u
It doesn’t No matter what they say they cant control u
And yet they own u

Gift me closure
But how long I gotta wait for an answer
I guess we never change ur a monster now
Be honest u had never put in Effort
And it hurts me

CLOSURE (branwen)

lyrics:

With time still
Back in thornhill
I feel my eyes dry
With this wind chill
I could not cry
But I quake still
As I become
Her victim in this first kill
Under streetlights
Down in thornhill
This the first and last time life was too real
As I pass time
In my own filth
On my death bed
In this landfill

And she pulls back
On that black hilt
Just sliding out my heart gripping blue steel
When I fight back
I just fall back
To place my hand upon my chest and feel my palm fill
And paint the walls
I thought we were joking till she said she really mean it
Pulling at my skin I felt the tissue lose feeling
She said its not my problem im tryna help u
Ur killing my love I know u know that I knew
 
With time still
Back in thornhill
I feel my eyes dry
With this wind chill
I could not cry
But I quake still
As I become
Her victim in this first kill
Under streetlights
Down in thornhill
This the first and last time life was too real
As I pass time
In my own filth
On my death bed
In this landfill\

THORNHILL (branwen)

lyrics:

Fate will not favour u dear
Ur lost if u beside me in here
I know its not the news u would here around friends
Because lying just to keep u in here

In time Ull find We try To hurt And hide My brain Is bruised From taking my Hearts advice
In life We have A path Wed hate to find
And that’s The one That’s safer To fearful eyes
The ones that hurt Me make me like them more
They choke me hit me break me all in sport
So push me push me and send me overboard
The more she hurt me the more im stuck to her
And I have come to love it here

Clouds fill quick and fall out the sky
Lately it feels like love is just a temporary high
Plus I need a doctor
Cause Every move my body fills me with pain
Hold me close im so cold and ur so warm
Feel my pain and feel my hands take it back from u
If im sad im not sad im just too drunk
Kinda like right now swear I need you right now
We pay the fee to watch the animal
I talk and scream into this microphone
My body feeds on how they lose control
So talk to me and belt out the words u know

In time Ull find We try To hurt And hide My brain Is bruised From taking my Hearts advice
In life We have A path Wed hate to find
And that’s The one That’s safer To fearful eyes
The ones that hurt Me make me like them more
They choke me hit me break me all in sport
So push me push me and send me overboard
The more she hurt me the more im stuck to her

In time Ull find We try To hurt And hide My brain Is bruised From taking my Hearts advice
In life We have A path Wed hate to find
And that’s The one That’s safer To fearful eyes
The ones that hurt Me make me like them more
They choke me hit me break me all in sport
So push me push me and send me overboard
The more she hurt me the more im stuck to her

56 metres (branwen x birkknut)

lyrics:

U should never have swung my face in that door
Now I just like u more
U should never have taught me how to feel pain
Cause now I just wait for more
Me or myself or my own sick mind who do I talk to more
Shell always lay in the pit of my heart
Though she is not mine no more

Bring that down on my neck u carver
I have been farmed like a lamb to the slaughter
I had drawn pleasure from what they called torture
Tears for the man in the mask oh the horror
Dystopia is not so far away from this place
And I would put my life on it that We were born in wrap up
I cant even look at u right now Cause I might throw up

so bleed me bleed me bleed me bleed me
I just put life on top of the line for some people that never tried or would do the same but im still here
That was one hell of a night I couldve died like 20 times i think my pride would’ve took my life and yet im still here
10 hours a day is unaccounted for I think of what were up to when separated this long I wonder
Hands all on my face pick at my head trying get under this drink start in my cup and end in my thoughts leaving them sundered

Bring that down on my neck u carver
I have been farmed like a lamb to the slaughter
I had drawn pleasure from what they called torture
Tears for the man in the mask oh the horror
Dystopia is not so far away from this place
And I would put my life on it
We were born in wrap up
I cant even look at u right now
Cause I might throw up

to the slaughter (saint tomorrow x taylor morgan x taxpurposes)

lyrics:

As life goes up I feel these new emotions stronger
But feeling shit just bring myself back
I have been blessed right now but in this rut I can escape that for the night
And right now I need that so bad
 I crave to be mortified right now
The moments wasted unless I am scarred some how
It sounds crazy but think about it outside of context
If I were harmed there I promise I wouldn’t forget that
But I won’t recover any time soon
I cant party like I swear I used to
Still I pitch my bottle while I blow on this blue
But I dont date now cause Im broken in body its not u

I shouldve taken her advice
Im up but I been scared of the height lately
Cause it seems ill be brought back to real life
No matter what’s the situation u still my baby
But with how she thinks she blows my mind
Thank tonic and double gins all night
Im honest when I say ur my wife
I regret what I said in that blight now

Look at my tears they’ve ended
That was last month im technical
Shitting on me like toilet bowl
Till I pop in this bitch like pimple
I keep saying its simple
Huh cause all my dawgs on ten toes
And I do not take no risks like that
Man I feel like reyes when I pull up with that baseball bat
Its not even for me its my boy cause I got his back n all that
Were blood now
From different backgrounds
But in my face u could tell its something i would give my pelt for
My body not worth the Dior u were promised
U dont wanna catch bodies boy be honest
Id help u change ur lifestyle from south 
But u been too hard headed to take that now

I shouldve taken her advice
Im up but I been scared of the height lately
Cause it seems ill be brought back to real life
No matter what’s the situation u still my baby
But with how she thinks she blows my mind
Thank tonic and double gins all night
Im honest when I say ur my wife
I regret what I said in that blight now

horrible advice (branwen)

Dream Girl

@lifeofjerm_ - Dream Girl (prod. Saint Mike)

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

the second single off my upcoming album 'dearly departing' coming out on 9/9
featuring @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @jolst
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin 

or when its half mast
think about what i’ve passed
will i be forgiven?

or when im undone
will i run
or is this a new beginning?

i think i saw your star sign
projected in the night sky
i look out to the ocean
and then im back to your eyes

veins:
I don't give a fuck anymore
I would let her drown me in a low tide
these decisions assault my eyes
I brace for the waves that drag me back into the deep tide

yuh,
it gives a deep high
I guess it feel right
underwater with no sunshine
I heave a deep sigh
I'm filled with sea brine
all of my bones will rest in deep lime

but it's been nice
I hope u feel right
I hope he never leaves ur fucking side
I pray u both live long and happy lives
most of all, importantly, I hope u feel alive

its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin

dearly departing

low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

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IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

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