decomposing (switch)

no consideration
no consideration
for ur future
just look at urself
all consideration
all consideration
for ur past
my nails ill bite fast
i wont ever get a bag
its no wonder im sad
i really didnt choose this
i really didnt
stuck in my room screaming till someday
i finally got what i want someway
slow
slow 
slow ur fuckin roll now
ur getting too caught up 
in the paper that u roll now
you can tell me anything
i promise that ill understand
yeah i know life sucks 
but just hang w me
gotta do so much just to get by
its really hard just to be happy
gotta do so much just to get by
its really hard just to be happy

no consideration (sogimura)

gerrrrr on ma level geerrrrrrr on my wav.file

lyrics

feeling like dirk
fading up all of my third
pulling up, not wasting a light night 
got sewer all over my shirt 😈

this aint ur call to make 
like who th fuck u comin wit
take me back to last time out 
coz im so ceebz wit all this shit 😒

its coming back
didnt come back jus to c u, no
i can feel alive, and i can feel it grow🐸

wait, line on th phone
u still wanna play 
no coming back
no coming back, no 😱

i see light and they see gold
i dont give my name, i know my worth and i cant take u home
uh uh
weird taste i know
uh uh
but i aint digging holes😵‍💫

cant tell em that i love em back
i c th score on ur snap
still wanna com for a ride 
how desperate u rlly for that😶‍🌫️

not spending time without th mains
fuck my life up 
and this th worst thing i could do 
coz id jus see u when im in pain😓

mumboest of jumbos

im so stuck, and its pouring uh
gotta wake at 7
but i can take it jus say no to all that flaunting 
they say use yo phone like wait where th fuck we going 
minding our own business, mr big man had me stalling uh🤬

wait uh 
i could stay unti th morning uh
c now what u got nd put those bottles on the floor uh
i cant help u out if u make me show u what im storin up
walking off like clowns but i can tell u we still talk it up🤡

no no no no 😵
 
those 2 right there got me fucked up
ppl watching from th gasstation 
i gave em plenty
cuh ion even need a chorus to make sum gas🥵

bish bish 
gerrrr outta th way
i put my tent down, i put a tarp im here to stay
u wanna move me
not gonna happen not today 
i barely know u, get on my level, get on my wave
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊

wave 🌊🌊🌊(level)

the second single off my upcoming album 'dearly departing' coming out on 9/9
featuring @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @jolst
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin 

or when its half mast
think about what i’ve passed
will i be forgiven?

or when im undone
will i run
or is this a new beginning?

i think i saw your star sign
projected in the night sky
i look out to the ocean
and then im back to your eyes

veins:
I don't give a fuck anymore
I would let her drown me in a low tide
these decisions assault my eyes
I brace for the waves that drag me back into the deep tide

yuh,
it gives a deep high
I guess it feel right
underwater with no sunshine
I heave a deep sigh
I'm filled with sea brine
all of my bones will rest in deep lime

but it's been nice
I hope u feel right
I hope he never leaves ur fucking side
I pray u both live long and happy lives
most of all, importantly, I hope u feel alive

its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin

dearly departing

low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

spotify & apple music!

IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
she had her life in a picture frame
had her future signed away
he had managed to escape a mess
a year with none to blame

take me away from my innocence
i could only dream that we were kids again
once i had fallen i had never left
it was u that once had told me what the sigil meant
now the journey begins
hundreds of souls never to speak again
i could be different but pride is a sin
u couldn’t manage urself let alone a
trip to burden many like yourself
disregard to hundreds and their health
all in search of feelings never felt
you were so selfish u didn’t deserve it

and now the memories come flooding back to me
like a ship at sea we capsized, never recovered the bodies
we went down burning (in a ball of fire)
draw back the curtains (in her funeral attire)

and i can’t wait to find you out
as life goes by i feel my time run out
hey i wouldnt be surprised if you hate me
i been struggling alone on the daily
i know im a lot to handle baby
tell me if you need to breathe, i’ll be waiting

stream everywhere!

I. eulogy for a funeral [jolst x irby]

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

Spotify

myfault. [+metlast & 5head]

ballad of nothin'

lyrics:

another night of drinkin on my own
my battery died so i cant check my phone
doesnt really matter cuz noone ever calls
sittin by myself while these tears just fuckin fall...
and its always been this way, i can never get away
from these problems that i face
its gettin hard to breathe
ion wanna be me
i would give anything just to feel free...

and im never really feelin okay
everybody always goes a different way
ion really know myself
i been searchin but i never fuckin found nothin'
everybody thought i was gonna be somethin'
but it turns out im just nothin'
and im growin so tired ion wanna keep running
steppin on these snakes, yeah these motherfuckers cunning

i was stuck here for a fuckin' minute
ion wnna hear u talk but ima let u finish
cuz i dont like ppl anymore
tryna keep em happy is such a chore
and i know that i dont fit in
i never really have
but i kinda like it this way
all they ever do is rip my heart in half
life like a race and i always finish last...

*chorus*

i cant take it anymore
im so tired of being everybodies fool...
and im tired of bleeding my blood into this pool
and i have no room left for anyone...

*chorus*

everybody thought i was gonna be somethin'
but i turned out to be nothin'
turned out to be nothing...

turned out to be nothing...

nothin. [+irby]

Produced by @pekarot_161 & @xlhc
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
It's a hat I wear these days
It's just one of many
I keep a picture of you in my pocket
I'll commit this to memory
You are the missing piece I never knew I needed
But you fit in so seamlessly
And after all this time I still can't believe it
I found my family

But do I actually deserve it
I feel like a serpent
That slithered in to take
What is not his away
Impostor
I fear I'm an impostor
I shed my skin
I'm a monster
You let me in
Now I'm not sure if I can measure up

I'm not sure If I can be the one
To bear this weight on my shoulders
There's so much expected of me now
And I'm still tryna figure out
How to care for myself
While being there for someone else
It's not so easy
But I know that you'll be there for me as well