decomposing (switch)

and its too late to give up now
im not trying baby even if i let you down
and its too late to be up now
im not tired tho my eyes are tryna sleep now
im not lying but my thoughts are deep now
and id try it but my wrists are getting weak now
i would have met you bro but i can barely speak now
im sick of trying now im sick of being let down

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

do you feel how i feel now ?
i feel weak and my body is let down
from me
if nobody can save you
then why leave ?
you want somebody to love you but not me

so what if the world caves in
(the worlds still burning)
would you leave me in the rubble for him
(no im not worth it)
and thats some bullshit you where never just friends
(you dont fuck friends)
and after everything i know we wont end
(and now i wont mend)

abyss (Slowed)

updated mastering by @ztope

my favourite creation thus far, hope u enjoy <3

lyrics

and when our arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

i wanna take off
the world awaits for me no i can’t stay long  
id fucking freeze death here out in all these cold months
move away from under the clouds before rain falls
oh dont u see oh dont u see 
i gotta take off

its not hard when uve been living in the dirt this whole time
“we should talk about this” but you’ll change my mind
u say the sky falls everytime i see u cry
now here we are, i understand if ur not on my side
 
know in ur arms oh ill be safe
but if i stay inside my comfort zone 
my mind will still escpape
so ill be on my way
no i dont expect u to wait
for me but sorry im off

when its blue its so blue wish i could tell u bout it
but when its dark wish i never was around if
u could see what ive become in climbing all these mountains
id be content with laying here so fucking helpless

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

will it be worth it
well i cant say that for sure
but ill be hurting
yeh i can say that and more
oh ill be surfing
the ups and downs down to the shore
its clear on surface 
but the pain it lays deep in the core

u slip u drown 
u won’t be found
out there there’s no help but yours

i tore my face
explored my taste
i change my ways
to get this far

its hard to leave now
tho its cold out
i wanna make my mark

please belive me when i say i still see ur face in the dark

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
the journey sacrifices everything that u lov

and when are arms touch
i lose a sense of space yeh im so starstruck
ohhh what have i lost 
what have i lost

s p a c e (nevrfall)

prod. me and @xona

hmm~
i'm breaking, my bones
and my head, is filled with these thoughts
oh they kill me
oh they hurt me
oh they make me bleed
oh i feel like im dying
oh i feel like i am lying
to myself
everyday
everynight
i stay awake~

i'm breaking, my bones
and my head, is filled with these thoughts

pain on my chest
i can't fucking breathe
my head is a mess
i don't want to live
put all my emotions
under the sea
wonder why nobody
ever talk to me

a lot of anxiety
feel it deep in my bones
what has gotten into me
pls leave me alone
every single scar u see
tells u a different memory

i'm breaking my bones (xona + casperrr)

clover

gerrrrr on ma level geerrrrrrr on my wav.file

lyrics

feeling like dirk
fading up all of my third
pulling up, not wasting a light night 
got sewer all over my shirt 😈

this aint ur call to make 
like who th fuck u comin wit
take me back to last time out 
coz im so ceebz wit all this shit 😒

its coming back
didnt come back jus to c u, no
i can feel alive, and i can feel it grow🐸

wait, line on th phone
u still wanna play 
no coming back
no coming back, no 😱

i see light and they see gold
i dont give my name, i know my worth and i cant take u home
uh uh
weird taste i know
uh uh
but i aint digging holes😵‍💫

cant tell em that i love em back
i c th score on ur snap
still wanna com for a ride 
how desperate u rlly for that😶‍🌫️

not spending time without th mains
fuck my life up 
and this th worst thing i could do 
coz id jus see u when im in pain😓

mumboest of jumbos

im so stuck, and its pouring uh
gotta wake at 7
but i can take it jus say no to all that flaunting 
they say use yo phone like wait where th fuck we going 
minding our own business, mr big man had me stalling uh🤬

wait uh 
i could stay unti th morning uh
c now what u got nd put those bottles on the floor uh
i cant help u out if u make me show u what im storin up
walking off like clowns but i can tell u we still talk it up🤡

no no no no 😵
 
those 2 right there got me fucked up
ppl watching from th gasstation 
i gave em plenty
cuh ion even need a chorus to make sum gas🥵

bish bish 
gerrrr outta th way
i put my tent down, i put a tarp im here to stay
u wanna move me
not gonna happen not today 
i barely know u, get on my level, get on my wave
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊

wave 🌊🌊🌊(level)

the second single off my upcoming album 'dearly departing' coming out on 9/9
featuring @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @jolst
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin 

or when its half mast
think about what i’ve passed
will i be forgiven?

or when im undone
will i run
or is this a new beginning?

i think i saw your star sign
projected in the night sky
i look out to the ocean
and then im back to your eyes

veins:
I don't give a fuck anymore
I would let her drown me in a low tide
these decisions assault my eyes
I brace for the waves that drag me back into the deep tide

yuh,
it gives a deep high
I guess it feel right
underwater with no sunshine
I heave a deep sigh
I'm filled with sea brine
all of my bones will rest in deep lime

but it's been nice
I hope u feel right
I hope he never leaves ur fucking side
I pray u both live long and happy lives
most of all, importantly, I hope u feel alive

its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin

dearly departing

low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

spotify & apple music!

IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

Spotify

myfault. [+metlast & 5head]

All of the time that i just wasted
Spending all of my days intoxicated
So isolated i need sedation 
Tryna get her out of my head is so brainless

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

I’m lyin when I say im ok 
Cuz You keep Poppin up inside of my brain
And All the shit you said don’t hold any weight
Yeah She tell me that she me love me till she just fuckin didn’t 

With the eyes like diamonds 
Mesemerizin
Youre the one I think of when I close my eyelids
Can I kill the silence I’ve been feelin lifeless
Messin with my head and my heart she a white bitch
All you do is type but the words not vibrant 
She keep pullin me in she hot like a siren
Belive me when I tell you that you help me ease my mind its 
Kinda fuckin crazy that i had you by my side bitch

But now it’s all over 
And I can’t stay sober 
I’m poppin the pain away
And thinkin of better days 

This that drive me to the grave
And our love was just a phase
You treat me like shit most days 
It’s just gonna break me

But now you’re gone 
Every thought feels wrong 
Idk what’s going on 
lately I been so jaded 

She look me in the eyes she could tell that I’m faded
Spreadin nothin but lies you petty and faceless 
I guess Her laugh was a disguise she was plotting my demise 
I can’t tell what’s wrong could you please get me right 
Good sex forgot all the shit that went wrong
I could never speak my thoughts so I put em in a song 

Next thing that I know everyone singin along
And I swear I try my best but I can’t keep holding on 
She knows she was the first that i brought up to my mom 
Try to tell you how I’m feeling but the words are all wrong 

And i miss you even more with the time spent apart 
Said that you need healing coz your thoughts been dark
But she really scared of feeling so she told me let’s part
I hope that you get better cuz youll always have my heart 

Gotta stop scrollin on the feed
Just so I can write on a beat 
But you know he gonna spit some heat
I made 4 racks just last week what you call for
Always on my phone in case it beeps
And your face so pretty in my head repeatin 
I wish i didn’t love her for all the wrong reasons 
She say she gotta go our love was just a season 

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

verse again)

this was a love story (prod. gage oakes)

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/yungrospo

yung rospo's yt: https://www.youtube.com/@yungrospo


/lyrics/

look at me girl you can see my bones
i wanna talk to you but i don't know how
open up my jaws and let out smoke
one day i might just fucking go ghost, I'm

steadily dying I'm on decline
tar in my sheets i don't sleep through the night
eyes in my windows i cling to the light
i beg you please don't let me out your sight
it's killing me slowly this shit on my mind
and if i let you in I'm scared that I'll drag you down

i need you to thaw me out make my heartbeat
I'm sorry if i had made you doubt that i love you
i swear i don't mean to i just tend to drift away
from this realm i still cling to
trying to stay sane

i can be okay if i try to
i can't tell what happened
im scared everytime i come to
this is what it's come to
let me leave
i don't wanna be the one to end you

jag har ingen annan än dig
dig
jag har ingen annan än dig
än dig

look at me girl you can see my bones
i wanna talk to you but i don't know how
open up my jaws and let out smoke
one day i might just fucking go ghost, I'm

skeleton (yung rospo)

Produced by @pekarot_161 & @xlhc
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
It's a hat I wear these days
It's just one of many
I keep a picture of you in my pocket
I'll commit this to memory
You are the missing piece I never knew I needed
But you fit in so seamlessly
And after all this time I still can't believe it
I found my family

But do I actually deserve it
I feel like a serpent
That slithered in to take
What is not his away
Impostor
I fear I'm an impostor
I shed my skin
I'm a monster
You let me in
Now I'm not sure if I can measure up

I'm not sure If I can be the one
To bear this weight on my shoulders
There's so much expected of me now
And I'm still tryna figure out
How to care for myself
While being there for someone else
It's not so easy
But I know that you'll be there for me as well

Listen on Spotify!

Dad Hat (Prod. Pekarot & Extra Large Holiday Card)

with the life i’m given, i’m healing.

@lovelessgroup
@butaneband