THIS IS NOW MY FAVORITE SONG BY YOU HOLY SHIT

The screaming in the background gives me the same euphoria as a post-nut clarity

shoutout @juzo for the cover art :) give him a follow pls

lyrics:

AUTUMN

(rest my arms)
(where they cannot ever be harmed)
(cold to the touch)

there's certain days where i haven't been better!
but when the sun goes down
i know tomorrow will be bitter
i've lost my head; when the clock struck ten
the blade came crashing down & now i'm back where i had started
could give a fuck if i'm dramatic,
the reward could be prestine
if i take the pills they offer me
my dreams could be serene
but i never wanted that; figmentated lies
to put on a public act, for their brainwashed minds

EPITOME

every day i wake up just to do the same shit over and over again
it gets hard to even stand up when i don’t know who i am
i thought you were a friend
but where were you in the end
i see it’s all just pretend
now my wounds they won’t even mend
th-th-th-they won’t mend
nothing feels real 
am i fucking ghost
cant take time to heal
so i’ll put the knife up to my throat
just to see if i’m alive
and if i’m not than what am i?

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my wounds won’t mend w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

(casperrr)
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

drinking a lot so i don't think bout shit
i ran out of blunts lemme get back at it
my life is a problem and i failed mathematics
fuck the world outside my life is in the attic
17 depression's all around me
mom and dad both are pretty sick
never had any1 to take care of me
i already know everybody is gonna leave

blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

(kanashi)
fucked up, spun out in my bedroom
time moves so slow in this cell without you
can i just rewind? i didnt realize
that we were running out of time
i dont know why im like this
i push everyone away
always give in to the darkness
there is no other way...

bad dreams keep me awake at night
you're so bad for me...
but i still try...

ohhhh...i still try
i still try...

(casperrr)
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

blacking out, passing out in my bedroom w/kanashi (irby)

it's the way that you said w/ keeper

i could never be your hero

Lyrics:

what happened to love 4 the rest of our lives
fucking flipping the puzzle when the pieces fit fine
i always knew it'd be us against the world but
i jus thought it'd be us
n not me then you

is it maybe the lifestyle i chose
could it be 
well we'll never have known
and the reason won't present itself
so i hope he treats you right 
whatever stranger you fuck with
cause somehow i'm not 

someone 
that somebody's daughter 
should see for the rest of her life 
cause i do b4 i think
and i'd travel the world just to do this with you
but i don't
and i write 
every song about you
you
you
you
or who you could've been

kill yourself its not so bad here
the afterlife is cozy
i'm talking from the grave
as a man who lived life lonely
i've learned so much about me from deep in the drift
i jus looked a bit inside and found a spine in me too
found a spine in me too
ay 
i found a spine in me too
ay
babe im built just like you
ay
the dead still clicking their shoes
we took the afterlife
i'm fucking up ur god with my dudes

i'm not
someone 
that somebody's daughter 
should see for the rest of her life 
cause i do b4 i think
and i'd travel the world just to do this with you
but i don't
and i write 
every song about

villain pt. II

i should've told u~


--------------------------

and so, its a tragic, fuckin mess
i been so lost, i cant seem to depend
on ur  attitude, its all i ever meant
all i ever said

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

~autumn~

i let my roots dry
that shit has taken it's toll
so i sit instead consuming these souls
(oh) it's getting old
why'm i even scared of being alone?

i hear tapping on the glass
shadows engulfing my past
my thoughts growing rash
I watch the waves while they crash
let me assess where i'm at
because this shit's getting bad

oh if i tried a little harder, 
then i'll be what i want one day
but every chance that i get, 
all of the memories fade
it's like my lips are sewn shut
i'm playing endless charades
or i'm just stuck in a dream
i must be stuck in a dream
~
i was always on you, in yo messages
i wrote a song to fill the void, yet i created it
and yet we know, we said our sorrys, bitch i meant that shit
I WANNA PACK UP ALL MY SHIT AND TAKE A TRIP

BUT IMA TAKE A SHIT
think about my past life, and everything i did
i fucked up my system, with alcohol and wished
i never fuckin did that, i wish i only said
I LOVE YOU MORE, TO THE ONES WHO GAVE A SHIT!
i broke so many hearts, man i wish i never did
magnified distress.


*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch.

/end

break a branch w/ autumndropsdead (prod. dercept)

needed this to change
produced by @pekarot_161
featuring @lilskeleskrrt
mixed by nine to 5 and skele

lyrics:
nine to 5:
Now I'm left in the cold
Stary late night when my breathe turns to smoke
Living in the past when the rest still unfolds
I just wanna go back when my neck wasn't choked I'm
Stuck inside my mind when I'm passing
Highway signs eastbound we were laughing
Now I'm left with nothing but these memories flashing
gone within a moment and I don't know what happened

I can't get away, yeah theres nowhere I can run to
We've been everywhere, I can't begin to forget you
Your shadows everywhere around me even inside my room
Staring at the wall wishing that I was beside you

Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

skele:
I've been a part of you for too long
And I still write the same songs
I'll wait here forever love until I figure out what you want
It's never enough
Just break me down
And I'll stay put til you're done
I fucking gave you my heart

both:
I fucking gave you my all

nine to 5:
But it was never enough

nine to 5 and skele:
Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change
Still needed this to change
Yeah you still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change

needed this to change ft. skele (prod. pekarot)

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall 

go to school and come back everyday
n i haven't spoke to u in days 
shit idrk what to say
but i promise you that everything is still the same 

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall

imma crack my skull on the floor (ten50)

u cannot tell me 
different at all
im livin a cycle
i js wanna ball
i dnt wanna fall 
so im tryna crawl
away
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so
☆
yeh yeh
even more so
hows it feels to have pills in ur torso?
really bad.
when im out of my room doin tours n shit
i rly need my god damn milli back
im use to havin snakes in my friends list
if they hold me close 
imma hold em closer
godspeed
i dont want that to be likely
but if a bitch try me one more time 
they gon have to fuckin fight me
☆
im growing up
unlike u 
ur throwing up
gang signs 
n throwin bands
even tho they fake as hell
u just doing this for the clout
no one even likes u 
but ill shut my mouth
ur a sore to be around
i dont love u.
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so.
☆

sampled comfort chain by instupendo
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im trying everything possible.

can't tell if the room's getting big
or if i'm just small
cause it only takes a second to fall
i crawl into bed when the sun starts to rise
i simply can't handle the smoke and the smog

my ribs are transparent
must be malnutrition
i feel so decrepit
i'm clearly indifferent
yet heaving persistence
with every decision
the outcome is rigid

mortality hates
that there is an end
to everything we wanna protect
blue screens emulate when i was a kid
nothing would phase me
save me once again

verbally gone
no, i don't wanna talk
deteriorate what i ate till i rot 
it takes up a lot; my energy's shot
take in the scent of a bird that was caught
it's leading me home
mentally not or physically there
i continue to trot
i'm walking on air; mentality rose
but then i wake up to find out i'm alone

shadows approach as they
rip me apart from my desk
all they had wanted was means to an end
but i sense dishonesty filling their heads
you don't know grief till it's conquered your chest

i'm still not impressed
seventeen and counting
oh please, i digress
from everyone around me
i'll tear me to shreds;
fed up with the scowling
i'm a rodent; the fox it is prowling

it was so different long ago
i can't get rid of this vertigo
but honest to god, who would've known
that being hurt feels like home...

𝘪 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳, 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵-..
𝘸𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘨𝘰 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸?..

endow me
endow me
and i'll be your hatred

endow me 
endow me
endow me in all your hatred

fox claws (acey x nate2timez)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @horoshavibes & @jolst
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
You made a promise to me
Never thought that you’d be the one to do me so wrong
It’s over now
I’m still learning how to move on
I guess that this is progression
I thought about you no more than a second time tonight
If I could rewind
I’d rescind it all
And just go back to you
Like I always do
Not caring for the fall
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off

‘Cause I'm no good for you
You’re no good for me
We’re so out of sync
There’s no harmony
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off
Caught between a rock and a hard place
Don’t wanna be alone
But I really can’t stay no
Do you wanna do this the hard way
When it comes to you
I can’t say no

(sewerperson)
I bet you're so damn happy I have gone away
Still I wish we could feel what we had yesterday
Baby at this checkpoint I still feel the same
Call me if you give up on him for this pain supplied
I know you still hate me I just hope you're safe tonight
I remember everything we let go in that candlelight 
Even if we’re not together you're still a friend of mine
Sorry I can’t control what feelings I been dealt in life
Break me and tear me up how you prefer
I pray when I die I’m not locked into lucifer
I know everything is fine right now but the future's still unsure
Teach me how to rid my self of all her hurt

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Cut Me Off w/ sewerperson (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

[+ loverboybeats]

@navyxower
@dylaanlotus
@noxious-nights
@souldfadexo
@emptychest
@northshoremusic

(navy)
gotta black tee
some would say its green
baby i gotta lay down
baby im feeling weak

wandering through the streets
heartbreak on the seames
ima travel cross the sea, i wonder what it means

party you party, lets party you talk in ur sleep, i need to get outta here again
why do you wanna get down with him, i heard you talking im sick

when we met by the water
would you think of me differently, if i had a daugher
i watch all these aniamls go to slaughter
its cause ur all selfish, what did they do wrong

(dylan lotus)
i’m burning up, i been hellbound
i’m leaving this earth cuz you hate me
so fuckin lost, i been spellbound 
i’m under the curse that you gave me
fuckin it up til you break me
all of these drugs that i’m taking
lace a few pills and i’m soarin off
lovin a thrill yeah i’m pouring up
fucked up; i’m worthless 
constant soul searching 
am i really worthy of love? i’m not perfect

(noxiousnights)
why am i so hard on myself ?
my goals are too big it's ruining my health
i could really make it easier
but all the summer i make it feel like winter

I distort my mind to help me cope
the world is spinning i'm out of control
sometimes it feels like there's no hope
i'm lost in my thoughts i can't let go

(soulfade)
Surely hate the way you talk to me
When things around fallen downward
In sense I never wanted this
Things would never happen way too soon

Always talking to myself at the noon
Always staring blankly at the moon

(emptychest)
different day different rolls
u know how the story goes
u know how to keep me close
i know how to keep u warm
its my responsibility
to keep u warm..
i never thought id live, endeavor!
never thought id see forever!
i didnt think id find my home
I really thought id die alone 
die alone.
nobody knows whats in my head.
ive been counting down my days
so i can finally get some bread
ay, see my, be my, mind
you'd die in a second!
its crazy to think im the same as you

(TNS)
Take the path that’s in front of me 
Feel the rhythm inside of me 
Tired of just playing hide n seek 

Where you really at girl, I don’t wanna leave 
Self esteem aside, girl I need you with me 
I just did a full 180

my wounds won’t mend w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

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