sesh shit feat @quixxticcrim
Prod by @kntnmnly

botherin

feat @Fuckyourmoney aka Forrrest
prod @MxRKxS

keep em

lyrics:

i'm the same wretched man
i'm the same fucking wannabe
roll up with intentions stout, i'm about to make a scene
it's gonna kill me if it ain't ever gonna better me
feeling like i'm motherfucking mental

come around to the otherside
come a- come around
come around to the otherside
come a- come  around
come around to the otherside
come a- come around

damn the grass ain't greener on the other side
normalized
suicide
i hung all my hopes up on the fence years ago
be unalarmed
i bring no harm
unless it's to my fucking self
i ain't got no meds to help me
screaming "momma ain't responding"
thought she died
that's just life
so alarming
what's the time read on the clock
nodding off
alcohol induced psychosis making brain and vision fog
so long for my own decisions
damn i'm feeling fucking lost
i'm so lost in myself

come around to the otherside
come a- come around
come around to the otherside
come a- come around
come around to the otherside
come a- come around
come around to the otherside
come a- come around
come around to the otherside
come a- come around
come around to the otherside
come a- come around

The Other Side of The Barbed Wire Fence

lyrics:

drugs are spread before me
sippin' captain morgan
7 in the morning
damn i'm late to work
pickup towed
i feel extra fucking lonely
someone save me from my own destruction
i know where this going
cus i fucking know me

so what do you do when you stuck at rock bottom?
i know i gotta be suffering for something
bitch, i ain't ever gonna amount to nothing
my pain i carry, i carry it proudly
ain't know a single soul that be around me
all the depression and drugs that surrounding
they turned they heads when i need them the most, i got a friend with a name of "nobody"
all you bitches are fake
this a violent outrage
like two dogs in a cage that be killing eachother
while you laugh and spectate
put my mind on the table
put my soul in my music
i be taking my pain out this way
so that way i am not self abusing

Headlock

Lyrics: 

i got the means, you just can't keep a promise
waist deep in blood, systems are catastrophic
i'm drowning in solvents
stop drawing conclusions, stop forcing solutions
one day i will solve it
sippin' some shit, i be wrecking my liver
blown out of proportion, i find myself timid
no matter the circumstance i fucking give in 
it brings me right back when i'm left on delivered

tell myself that all this shit will not matter
kept it inside, all my pain, like my dad did
siblings ain't know my name
momma just wants me dead
learned from the worst, self harm was our bad habit 
put away like old toys up in the attic
like all my happiness
feel undecided, sometimes while i'm cruising
my mind i be losing
so damn good at suffering, you'd think that i practice

when it comes to this stress, i be up on the stretcher
i wanna make it, but i ain't no better
i'm turning my face away 
damn shame i be the way that i am
i'm the same man that i hate
stressed bout my weight
please look away
i feel disgraced
i ain't fit in
i'm switching states
i'm already gone
too fucking late
fuck all you hoes
fuck your debate
fuck your demeanor and fuck out my face
make you repeat yourself till you choke on the words that you been sayin'
then i'm gonna disappear without a trace

At least The Sun Is Shining

Lyrics:
you just miserable
you just mad cus i ain't dismissible
bitch, the tone of your voice makes my ears bleed and the pain you caused is visceral
when i bend you break, but when you bend i bow
you threaten suicide, then brag about fuckin dyin' hoe, 
i think that you just wasting my time 
you ain't love me, you just attached 
you got a problem? 
you a liar 
only hobbys burnin' drugs
you can never get enough
ain't my fault you're cutting up, damn i just need some rest
i pray and pray to lay my head down in peace
ain't been sleepin', it ain't easy keepin' up with all your mental diseases 
at this point i'd barely call it a life, it's just death fuckin reapin'
i've neglected my health, or was there ever a reason?
i ain't smiled in weeks, i watched you lie through your teeth i kept this up for the worst, but it don't matter to me i promised you everything, you gave me pain in return i gave you the world, now i'm gonna watch it fucking burn

i've been hating myself cus of things that you said, 
i been watching my tone saying shit under breath
i feel better alone
in the dark i am home
i been worrying and flourishing, attachment has broke
when it comes to your pain, no i don't give a fuck
depression relentless
that's bad fucking luck 
it's the pills that been crushed,
bitch would rather get drunk
tears always get to rolling when push comes to shove

Bottle of Sand

Lyrics:
bitch, i'm callin hearsay
bitch, i finally realized
i been feelin homicidal 
devil in my domicile
i don't give a fuck, motherfucker
i stay suicidal,
keep my weapon, volatile
feeling like a fucking god
i don't give a fuck, motherfucker
ay


fuck what you sayin, fuck your photograph
yeah, mothafuck you hoes
bout damn time you spoke some fuckin truth
tryna take it out back now?
damn bitch, let me know


put my soul on display, damn i shouldn't have
did this on my own,
put my own worst demons underground
lose my fucking phone number
till you wanna come around
bitin bullets' you gon lose your teeth
boy, don't fuck around
you gon lose your head

so unserious, just a kid 
room spinnin round my head
ima make a mothafucker interstellar
when they reaching for the stars, stars, stars, stars, 

dressed in all black, fuck a trend
fuck what they been sayin' about me
so go and talk yo shit
just talk on your own time
my life been a passer by
so what? man i don't give a fuck
that damn glimmer in my eye
tells me things gon be alright
i'm still the man, with the motherfucking plan
play your hand
dance with death, you gon end up like the rest
take a breath, i been stressed
i been feeling 2 
outta fuckin 10,
still pretend, that life's gonna be alright in the end
i been saying fuck my health
all these cars ain't gonna buy themselves
damn, i grew up with some problems, still attaining wealth
goddamn, i need a blessing
did some dirt, still not confessing
got a problem?, we got a problem, i don't give a fuck, i'll solve it



Figurative Speech

lyrics:

i get to thinkin, i'm lonely
i get to drinkin, i'm sorry
turn off the lights, just don't bother me
sinkin' in puddles, i'm stickin' my neck out
i'll carry the weight on my shoulders
i got a vision, can't tell what i saw
blood in the sink, ain't no flow from the faucet 
power turned off, i'm so sick of this life
so self-defeating, i swear i been trying

i got nowhere in a hurry
i made a bet with the devil
i lost it all
i sparked some flames that had burnt me
healing these wounds won't concern you
cus it's all my fault
locked away because i'm "trouble"
they won't look my way, not even my brother
wishing my loved ones won't worry about my conditions,
it seems like they just getting farther, and farther away

i got the courage to cough up my digits
ain't noone calling me
heard there's a god that could save me
i suffer depravity
in need of a savior, well, maybe he stalling
i got the drugs in the back,
several felonies lie on my lap
i got the means
i carry my problems
fuck where i been
it's about where i'm at
fuck

why are the things that hurt the most so damn tempting?
i'm showin up to places that i ain't got no business bein
the same old shit, i'm barely livin'
we just dyin' by the minute
put the blame upon addiction
while you begging for a change

just call me mr. -fuckin' -simmons, bitch
i'm guilty before innocent
i'm a fucking failure, all my failures fuckin' setting in
i'm sippin on some shit, i'm just tryna avoid my medicine
counting blessings
counting mistakes
i got a whole, written list
of who i wouldn't give a fucking goodbye to
they ain't gave a fuck, they just wanted on my fuckin' good side
i'd be lying if i said i was unbothered by it all
just a man with a deathwish
and just haunted by all the trauma i got

sick and tired of this motherfuckin headache

Indoctrinated

$inbad