lyrics:

i get to thinkin, i'm lonely
i get to drinkin, i'm sorry
turn off the lights, just don't bother me
sinkin' in puddles, i'm stickin' my neck out
i'll carry the weight on my shoulders
i got a vision, can't tell what i saw
blood in the sink, ain't no flow from the faucet 
power turned off, i'm so sick of this life
so self-defeating, i swear i been trying

i got nowhere in a hurry
i made a bet with the devil
i lost it all
i sparked some flames that had burnt me
healing these wounds won't concern you
cus it's all my fault
locked away because i'm "trouble"
they won't look my way, not even my brother
wishing my loved ones won't worry about my conditions,
it seems like they just getting farther, and farther away

i got the courage to cough up my digits
ain't noone calling me
heard there's a god that could save me
i suffer depravity
in need of a savior, well, maybe he stalling
i got the drugs in the back,
several felonies lie on my lap
i got the means
i carry my problems
fuck where i been
it's about where i'm at
fuck

why are the things that hurt the most so damn tempting?
i'm showin up to places that i ain't got no business bein
the same old shit, i'm barely livin'
we just dyin' by the minute
put the blame upon addiction
while you begging for a change

just call me mr. -fuckin' -simmons, bitch
i'm guilty before innocent
i'm a fucking failure, all my failures fuckin' setting in
i'm sippin on some shit, i'm just tryna avoid my medicine
counting blessings
counting mistakes
i got a whole, written list
of who i wouldn't give a fucking goodbye to
they ain't gave a fuck, they just wanted on my fuckin' good side
i'd be lying if i said i was unbothered by it all
just a man with a deathwish
and just haunted by all the trauma i got

sick and tired of this motherfuckin headache

Indoctrinated

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