hey I'm not afraid of myself OR the outcome. I'm just mad at it

2022.zip

goodnight lavender & clayekea — daze
a part of “star festival.” chapter one

@clayekea

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

somehow i've ended up back here
to the worlds i wanted to leave
in the night time the rumors start to fly
and i can never sleep

a shut in for all these years
used to all the words that hurt me 
i still feel engulfed in fear
from all the ghosts that cursed me
my body is feeling weak
but i cannot close my eyes
and i can never sleep

a letter centered on my desk
from a lifetime feeling out of place
envelopes with untold words
all just to tear them up again
for a second i felt whole again
you put the pieces back into their place
an eternity of sleepless nights
you'll never, ever see

a shut in for all these years
used to all the words that hurt me 
i still feel engulfed in fear
from all the ghosts that cursed me
my body is feeling weak
but i cannot close my eyes
and i can never sleep

daze w/ clayekea

4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

5/7

https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/track/to-get-older

to get older

Stream

GOOP HOUSE VOLUME SIX

Shwirl, FAIRIES DON'T EXIST, Aego, Blaedsounds, Echoed., -Alow - GOOP 2 ME NICE

https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/album/tides-b-sides
https://defsharp.fanlink.to/tidesB

jaded - 2th one

+ icarus +
moving on
a part of me hates how this shit turned to gold
walked out of heaven 
as i lose control
pardon me
its a part of me

holding on
you said it was easy
you said it was gold
so close to the sun 
and ill follow you home
but your just out of reach

~ will you stay ~ 

so please don't go
so please don't go

icarus

Dariacore 3... At least I think that's what it's called?

world's sourest honey

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✏️  Lyrics
Fall back in your arms tonight
I can see sunlight 
I can be some light 
Fall back in your arms tonight
I can see sunlight 
I can be some light 
Fall back in your arms tonight
I can see sunlight 
I can be some light 
Fall back in your arms tonight
I can see sunlight 
I can be some light 

I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life
I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life
I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life
I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life

I have to go home (I have to go home)
And you were not told (And you were not told)
I have to go home (I have to go home )
And you were not told 
Why I live this life

I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life
I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life

I have to go home (I have to go home)
And you were not told (And you were not told)
I have to go home (I have to go home)
And you were not told (And you were not told)

Fall back in your arms tonight
I can see sunlight 
I can be some light 
Fall back in your arms tonight
I can see sunlight 
I can be some light 

I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life
I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life

I have to go home (I have to go home)
And you were not told (And you were not told)
I have to go home  (I have to go home)
And you were not told 
Why I live this life

I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life
I have to go home 
Where I live inside 
And you were not told 
Why I live this life

I have to go home (I have to go home)
And you were not told (And you were not told)
I have to go home (I have to go home)
And you were not told  (And you were not told)

Wild Time

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Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

Chalked up driveway
It feels like an ocean
Caught me looking sideways
Provoking emotion
Ask what's the commotion
I’m stuck in place
Don't know where I'm going
You say it’s all for my sake
So I still stay here frozen
While this gap keeps on growing

This feeling I’m loving must fall
The holes and blood on the wall
Reminding why we once fell out of love
I’m tired of reads and blocked calls
Reminding me of all my flaws
Try to tell me again what to think of

Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

charmer

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

Get Naughty

Some Bouncy Shieeet for the end of holidays! 

Mastered by MARV

jaded - 2th one

defsharp

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