keep on dying (pekarot x jolst)

this is the first beat I bought and the first song I made with jolst :)

lyrics 

painful like a blister
optimism is a sickness
call a liar as ur witness
just to cover up ur tracks
contemplating on my wisdom
do u take the chance n miss em
do u turn around n kiss him
just to validate ur act
but u don't stick to ur bones
there's time to change ur mind n call ur parents n go home
christ, God, put down the phone
binary solarity too hard for u to cope

oh, I'm nothing but a stoner
I'm a deadweight better as a loner
u can cry girl I can be ur shoulder 
I'm alone and I'm only getting colder

my brain has faulty wiring
tryna get undone
the doctors call it bpd
I'm messed up as they come
cause every minor set back 
leaves the feeling of a gun
pressed to my head n then I panic
cause the the chamber to be spun
hey aren't u shamed?
aren't u so n sos ex?
idk maybe I'm just tryna forget
I find it kinda funny that I'm known for my regrets
but the people that uv loved will always try to get revenge
the pain is in my brain n I swear it's gonna last
I'm still got up on the shit that happened to me in my past
disregarding all my feelings cause the time is moving fast
and my friends are placing bets on how long they think ima last
oh I bet that I'll see u in the nighttime 
bad dreams, cracked seams with the red eyes 
my bloods worth less than ur damn time
I'm a corpse tryna fight off these damn flies
oh I already told ya
I won't be sober till some point after October
time flies everyday we gettin older
we grindin hard, we just tryna find some closure

binary solarity (Jolst)

New single "First Mistake" by Re, Featuring Kanashi and Killing Art

(Lyrics)
[Re:]
save it love
i don’t say enough
or i say too much when i’m fucked up
i’ll take the blame
you won’t do the same
but i guess i’ll stay cause i’m stuck uh
break apart my heart and leave me bleeding
love the taste 
i watch you lick your lips as you’re leaving
looking forward to my pain 
you love to watch me break
I always knew you’d make me hurt
that was my first mistake

[Kanashi]
That was my first mistake 
I need a break from this 
Yeah i need to get away 
You did it once, and you’ll do it again!
And I admit….
I kind of like it 
When you’re under my skin…

[Killing Art]
Under my skin 
Let’s play pretend 
Like all of this
Has a good end 
Cause I need you now
More then you know
You fucked me up 
And it really shows
Don’t wanna sober up
I just want your love 
But I know I’ll never be enough
Know I’m boutta drown
You’re holding me down
Is that enough now?

Mix/Master by Kanashi
Prod by jolst

Stream on Spotify!

Mistake! (Re: X Kanashi X Killing Art) [prod. jolst]

and if these pills could drown my cries out, you know that I wouldnt make a sound...

lyrics:

tonight i dont make a sound [+jabarionthebeat]

CHAOS

static

lyrics:

and you told me
things would be different in the long run
i'm stuck here waiting for the changes
i can't believe your eyes were fixed on no one
and you showed me
life will feel different when it's no fun
i'm stuck here facing all the changes
i can't believe our eyes are on the same sun

we were carefree
then you wanted to go
and the lesson learned
is how it hurts to know
i was carefree
then i wanted to go
and the lesson i learned
is how it hurts to know 

(chorus)

same sun

recorded & mixed by me
produced by back2thapast

So I'm like yeah yeah yeah oh oh oh
This the start of something new
Every time I'm in a room with you I get a bad mood
Oh pardon me sorry dude I don't really wanna talk no
I don't really wanna talk
I don't really wanna talk no
I don't really wanna talk

So can you tell me what you mean
Nothing here is meant for me I'm nothing like I'm supposed to be
I hope that its all a dream
But its always a nightmare lately I been so scared I don't know
So I pick up right back where I started
Lately I don't want no friends and to my friends I'm so cold hearted
I cant wait till all this ends
Tell my momma that I'm sorry
I ain't as strong as I thought I was but I'm still working hard for us
Yeah and I been fighting for so long
I just wish this shit was simple what the fuck am I doing wrong
For my whole life I thought it was destiny
Now I don't think its meant for me
I'm tearing by the seams and honestly I wanna rest in peace
I cry each time I'm on a beat
Toss and turning in my sleep
Wake up sweating on my sheets cause I keep running from the truth
I just wanna be with you but you don't wanna be with me
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me
Oh yeah
Yeah
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me
Oh yeah
Ill say ill agree with you if you say you agree with me

growing pains

spotify

growing pains [p. back2thapast]

photo, art, mix & master by me. 

prod. recyclebin (tha goat)

tell me do you feel it?
tell me do you feel it?
tell me do you feel it?
cuz im sick of...
actin like its okay... x2

if you wanna talk shit
yeah you can get gone
nothin' gets past me
intellegence is artifical 
always with the fake love
yall so superficial
got me in my feels
yeah im feelin brittle...

tell me do you feel it?
tell me do you feel it?
tell me do you feel it?
cuz im sick of...
actin like its okay... x2

im so sick of actin like its okay
yeah u wanna hit me up
im like no way...
no way, no way...

(recyclebin goes in)

tell me do you feel it?
(always let me down)
tell me do you feel it?
tell me do you feel it?
cuz im sick of...
actin like its okay...

i dont wanna be around these humans anymore
maybe im malfunctioning
maybe a hard reset is what i need

(thats what i need, thats what i need)

tell me do you feel it?
tell me do you feel it?
tell me do you feel it?
cuz im sick of...
actin like its okay...

tell me do you feel it ?!
tell me do you feel it?!
tell me do you feel it?!

i dont wanna be around these humans anymore
maybe im malfunctioning
maybe a hard reset is what i need ~~~~~~

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superficial (do you feel it?) [+recyclebin & northeast lights]

[chorus]
bouncing here back and forth yeah
taking no more yeah
got nothing in storage
yeah my heart is cold
cause girl you took my life away
and now i just sit here every day
while i writhe in pain
watch me decay

[verse]
girl don’t ask how i’m feeling
staring at the ceiling
mind just going blank while i think of you
cause i am not the man that 
i used to be
since you left i been hurting

[bridge]
sitting in silence
i been trying
not to make contact but
november was so long ago
don’t tell me you forgot me
baby please don’t let me know

[chorus + bridge]
(sitting in silence)
bouncing here back and forth yeah
(i been trying)
taking no more yeah
(not to make contact but)
got nothing in storage
yeah my heart is cold
(november was so long ago)
cause girl you took my life away
(don’t tell me you forgot me)
and now i just sit here every day
(baby please don’t let me know)
while i writhe in pain
watch me decay

[chorus]
bouncing here back and forth yeah
taking no more yeah
got nothing in storage
yeah my heart is cold
cause girl you took my life away
and now i just sit here every day
while i writhe in pain
watch me decay

homecoming (prod. killedmyself x singular balance) [AMV IN DESC]

l y r i c s:

Black smoke in my head
I am ready to escape this life
Please don't fucking talk to me
After everything you said and done

Every day life without yous the same
So I guess I'll enjoy the pain

Every day is the same without you
Even though 
I still love you

I love you 
I love you

Black smoke on my head
?
I am dead in my head
?
Uhhhhh
Uhhhhhhh
Write to

s o c i a l s

i n s t a g r a m

https://www.instagram.com/l_y_p_i/

d i s c o r d 

l y p i#9009

l i l ɥ ǝ ɐ ɹ ʇ ɐ ɔ ɥ ǝ (hero)

Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]
holding onto you is what i need i don't wanna spend time listening everytime we fight and you're always crying oh why feel your touch i want you tonight i don't know where you are quit hiding from me 

don't know where you're going i keep calling your phone pick up the call before i lose tone oh i apologize

i don't know whats going on i feel so dead inside all i see is black and white no longer I'm alive 

holding onto you is what i need i don't wanna spend time listening everytime we fight and you're always crying oh why feel your touch i want you tonight i don't know where you are quit hiding from me

i can't escape from all of this pain just take me away far away from this place x2 you treated me so bad i didn't take you back i know that I'm a mess but baby can you wait for me 

static

demxntia 🌐🖤