you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

feels like i'm wasting time
always rotting online
looking for what i can't find
i'm not too bright
don't wanna die a slow death
don't wanna leave you bereft
seems like i'm dead
dreams are all i have left

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

with every breath i take
don't know why i wake
grown numb to the taste
a disappointing fate
misery breeds apathy
i don't wanna bleed anymore
anymore

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

ngmi
i never tried
ngmi
lay down and cry

am i the only one?

ngmi

twenty one
i'm not who i thought i'd be
everyone is so far ahead of me
everyday i drown in misery
dead by 30? yeah, probably

so slow down
i'm on my own now
stuck in this dead town
there's no way out
don't know where i went wrong
yesterday feels so far gone
time keeps moving on
i'm somewhere i don't belong

twenty one
i'm not who i thought i'd be
everyone is so far ahead of me
everyday i drown in misery
dead by 30? yeah, probably

twenty one

trolling myself :p

it feels like i'm running out of time
i'm behind everyone in my life
i wasted all my fucking years
now thinking brings me to tears

i'm stuck here sitting on my own
whining into my microphone
i don't leave my house anymore
and i don't fucking care at all

i fucking hate myself
i got no friends and no one else

everyone hates me
no one seems to care
i don't even know
life without despair
why am i still here
why do i live on
i'm just some retard
with no one to call on

hate myself

LDAR demo

Damaged

luvwillow cover

suicide on my mind
she smiles at me
ye shes so kind
her pale skin
and her green eyes
her black hair
and her small thighs

angelgirl living online
i wish that she was mine
but my life is boring
and im too scared to go outside

im too scared to meet with u
im too scared to go outside
im nothing but a waste of time
im too scared to go outside
u broke my heart u broke my mind
im too scared to go outside
but my life is boring
im too scared to go outside

my cold heart reaches out for you
im so sick im turning blue
i hope you know how you make me feel
drawing blood to know im real
my cold heart reaches out for you
im so sick im turning blue
i hope u know that i am through
with all the shitty things u love to do

lmfao im sorry

DethTech - better late than never

original by whirr
https://whirrband.bandcamp.com/album/raw-blue

produced, mixed & mastered by me
stream my album plz:
https://open.spotify.com/intl-de/album/0fpUc1E1lg3iKeleTf36tP?si=YXLw_bVIR7an-Xn1M4lSiw

raw blue

i lay awake at night
'cause i don't feel alright
i'm not gonna get any better
not now, not fucking ever
so i curl up into a ball
try to forget who i am at all
then i'll just stare at my bedroom wall

3 am and i'm sad again
i just want this pain to come to an end

tears start to fill my eyes
no one is here to see me cry
oh why do i deserve this?
i feel so fucking worthless
nobody lies by my side
can't see the hell i try to hide
as i sleep inside my cell i dream of suicide