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Drums ripped from Cam'ron 'Oh Boy' prod. Just Blaze

Receiver leaking brand new colours
Closest ER out of range
We put our hearts into eachother
We lose ourSelves but still don't change
I wanna touch the nothingnesses
I only ever had too much
My body: numb with all its data
Send all my numbers going off 

He's got a head like a- Like a boy- Like a-
He's got a head just like a boy
Look like a boy to me
It'll be ok
It'll be ok
x2

What could you ever want from me?
What good is that?
What good is knowing about it? All you did is nothing about it

What good is that?
What could you ever want from me?
What good is that?
What good is knowing about it? All you did is nothing about it

Receiver

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TYSM to (un)familiar. who contributed some mix notes for me

Tiny little problems
Everybody's got 'em
Who wins the race in the race to the bottom?
Maybe got a problem
Probably got a lot of them
K so rotted give a fuck if it's toxic

People say I'm too old for this shit
So true, I'm too old for this shit
People like to say I'm too old for this shit
That's so true, I'm  too old for this

Day after day
I feel so dumb
Pressed up against
Unnatural
'n weighted down
By what I want 
A thing I covet
I can't become
   
Pull at me, you're so entitled
Quiet as the tomb
Who put in design, desire
Signal, interference,
All-in-one?

In perfect darkness
Bathed in all potential
Peeking thru the keyhole:
Know,
One day we'll all forge-

Tiny little problems
Everybody's got 'em
Who wins the race in the race to the bottom?
Maybe got a problem
Probably got a lotta them
Shits so rotted give a fuck if its toxic

People say I'm too old for this shit
So true, I'm too old for this shit
People like to say I'm too old for this shit
That's so true, I'm too old for this

Inside myself
Echoes my life
Crushed up against
Filled up to the eyes
Bleed out the meat
Blot out the sky
Caught in my throat
Just trying to say goodnight
Just trying to say goodbye

In perfect darkness
Bathed in all potential
Peeking thru the keyhole:
Know,
One day we'll all forget

Forget

CHARLlE KlRK WAS A GUY THAT DROPPED OUT OF COLLEGE TO JOIN A GANG. THAT WAS HIS FIRST CHOICE OF WHAT HE WANTED TO DO, CAREER-WISE. NO CRAP HE GOT POPPED BY SOMEONE IN HIS OWN CLIQUE. USUALLY WE DON'T MOURN THIS TYPE OF GUY UNLESS WE'RE RELATED TO THEM. I THINK IT'S ACTUALLY SO SAD THAT THIS HAD TO HAPPEN... IN THE SAME 24 HOURS THAT THE US SENATE VOTED TO CONCEAL THE E-------N FILES...

I bent my head
I bend my spine forever
You hold my hand
I know I hold your hand too hard
Curl up in a circle
So broken-skin, so raw
There was a girl who was ugly forever and ever, amen
I swear it never gets easier
I swear it never gets better
I know if I admit to pain, we'll live the pain together
Too bad
So much gets said
But what gets it done?
What gets it done?

I know I look dumb
The type of dumb you would want
I want a lot to be blunt
It’s like you’re right all along

I wanted to be in love
I wanted to feel love but I'm just not like that
I wanted to be in love
I wanted to feel love but I’m just not like that

I 
I wanted something more than you could give
I
I
I wanted something more than you could give me

I hope you get to stay the way you are
I start to lose my posture
My spine sticks out the back of my neck
My hand, hitched up on angles
So broken-skin, still so raw to the touch
A finger in the wound is never enough for me
I swear it only gets easier
I swear it only gets better
I know if i admit to pain, we’ll live the pain together
If the road becomes the goal
We’ll ride it out to blackness
I try so hard
All fxcking day
All my efforts work backwards

My Neck

Living by my pragmatism:
Integrated warfare system.
I can carry signals with your finger on my head.
God could never not explain it.
Block him out with radiation.
Mother of our DNA should
Just eat shit instead.

Body out
Nobody nobody nobody
body out
no body no body no body

I can only
get it hard for
dreams I cant remember.
I think I love the things I care about
but I cant afford the price
Couldn't really even tell if your seeing me
But adult life gets so
tired and busy.
No one knows to message me so
I'm scolded by your ghost.

(...)
no body no body no body
body out
nobody nobody nobody
body out
no body no body no body
body out
nobody nobody nobody

Crying in the
Garden terrace.
I cannot play mom for planets.
I'm barely like an older sister,
oh, I-cover up
my head. I
miss our little laughing bubble
shared realities blur out to nothing.
If you saw my failures then
I think you’d understand.

Body out
nobody nobody nobody
body out
(...)

Pragmatism

Lyrics ///
You seem to like to watch me hurt
Blood driping down the wall
Why you even beg for more?
I'm dying as I make this song

I did die for a little while
If u even give two fucks bout it
I know that it might take a little while
But, baby, I'ma get lot better at it

Sing this song without me
I fucked up again
I know that you like me
But I don't like that shit

Everything around me
Seems so oddly dead
Let the darkness surround me
I'm dead either way

K E T N E L

I’ve been fighting these demons that nobody knows cause nobody ever showed 
When you look into my eyes I wonder if you. Can see the flames 
I bet not
That shits a shame
Cause I been trying so hard to turn your tears to pearls
Despite what it may seem 
But you been down to fuck on me 
my scars 
my love 
My pride
Well bitch fuck on this

K E T N E L ///
https://soundcloud.com/ketnel
https://www.instagram.com/k.e.t.n.e.l
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5tnPVUkEPY12wgtFx1VEmV?si=2OzNHrvXT9ihFS1EhzRUfw

Oddly dead ft K E T N E L

Girls Rituals X Lauren Bousfield - Used To Be Better

Girls Rituals - Black Crow (Black Froach Remix)

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(devi) 
ive always been a burden 
tripping out & hurting 
its always been a circus 
caged animals and all 

the nightmare's reoccurring 
ive never been that girly 
ive never been a person 
ive never had a soul 

its all ready 
its all ready to go 

if u can dream u can be 
if u can dream u can be anything 
if u can dream u just get further away from everything you ever wanted 

(rook) 
i know u dont believe it hurts 

(rook+devi) 
that saying im in pain makes it worse 

(rook) 
i know u think that all i need 

(rook+devi) 
is just to think positively 

(rook) 
BUT IT FUCKING HURTS!!!!!!! 

(devi) 
ive never had a purpose 
im too weak for working 
sitting in a dollhouse 
an ugly worn out doll 

all these years of searching 
all these years of lurking 
all these years of worthlessness 
really take their toll 

its all ready 
its all ready to go 

if u can dream u can be 
if u can dream u can be anything 
if u can dream u just get further away from everything you wanted 

(rook) 
i know u dont believe it hurts 

(rook+devi) 
that saying im in pain makes it worse 

(rook) 
i know u think that all i need 

(rook+devi) 
is just to think positively 
this is something you'll never understand 
this is something you'll never understand 
this is something you'll never understand 
you'll never know what its like