THIS SONG IS NOT MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its by girls rituals aka Devi mcallion go support her https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/ yadayada 
there’s already an upload of this by someone else I just did it myself because theirs was compressed and it irritated me

Girls Rituals - Goddess

All around the world people have heard about it
All around the world we're trained to leave our bodies
Ever since that day I hovered up above myself
Ever since that day it's like my spirit turned to stone
Couldn't tell if I'm alone

And I think there's hope for someone else
But not for us, but not for us
There's hope for someone else but not for us

All around the world duh-duh duh-duh duh-duh-duh
All around the world I think we just don't have the time
Ever since that day an image hanging overhead, moving in somebody's shadow
Ever since that day we couldn't spit the poison out
Still we chose it for ourselves

There's hope for someone else
But not for us, not for us 
There's hope for someone else but not for us
There's hope for someone else
for someone else, for someone else
There's hope for someone else but not for us

...
A call
A signal
A sound
An impulse
An echo
A call

Project 6

CHARLlE KlRK WAS A GUY THAT DROPPED OUT OF COLLEGE TO JOIN A GANG. THAT WAS HIS FIRST CHOICE OF WHAT HE WANTED TO DO, CAREER-WISE. NO CRAP HE GOT POPPED BY SOMEONE IN HIS OWN CLIQUE. USUALLY WE DON'T MOURN THIS TYPE OF GUY UNLESS WE'RE RELATED TO THEM. I THINK IT'S ACTUALLY SO SAD THAT THIS HAD TO HAPPEN... IN THE SAME 24 HOURS THAT THE US SENATE VOTED TO CONCEAL THE E-------N FILES...

I bent my head
I bend my spine forever
You hold my hand
I know I hold your hand too hard
Curl up in a circle
So broken-skin, so raw
There was a girl who was ugly forever and ever, amen
I swear it never gets easier
I swear it never gets better
I know if I admit to pain, we'll live the pain together
Too bad
So much gets said
But what gets it done?
What gets it done?

I know I look dumb
The type of dumb you would want
I want a lot to be blunt
It’s like you’re right all along

I wanted to be in love
I wanted to feel love but I'm just not like that
I wanted to be in love
I wanted to feel love but I’m just not like that

I 
I wanted something more than you could give
I
I
I wanted something more than you could give me

I hope you get to stay the way you are
I start to lose my posture
My spine sticks out the back of my neck
My hand, hitched up on angles
So broken-skin, still so raw to the touch
A finger in the wound is never enough for me
I swear it only gets easier
I swear it only gets better
I know if i admit to pain, we’ll live the pain together
If the road becomes the goal
We’ll ride it out to blackness
I try so hard
All fxcking day
All my efforts work backwards

My Neck

reddishness is out now!!  https://blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/reddishness

art by tanaka masami

if you really want 
i’ll become the smog around you 
i’ll surround you with my love 
no matter how much 
how could it ever be enough 

i want to take care of all your needs 
i wanna give you 
everything 
i wanna build a nest inside yr lungs 
and curl up and go to sleep as close as i can be to you 

keep me 
keep me safe 
i need you 
more than anything 

treat me like a doll 
ill be super perfect 
see the real me 
buried in the plastic 

every fucking day 
i wake up in a panic 
spinning like a drill 
i can never stop 
tearing up 
inside myself 

i built myself 
from barely fitting parts 
scraped up off the floor 

bubbling 
melting in the heat 
melting u and me together 

whats this stuff 
is it even flesh 
is it even blood 
is it even me 

i built myself 
from barely fitting parts 
i still fall apart

Girls Rituals - Treat Me Like A Doll

Dial (Prod. Silver)

Girls Rituals - Black Crow (Black Froach Remix)

(devi) 
i live in sickness 
i live in spinning 
the whole wide world is a carousel 
i stood in line 
and now the ride's beginning 
i could still do so much more if i dont kill myself 
i live in nausea 
eternal nausea 
in a spotlight shaped like a spiral 
im in the bible 
god's favorite idol 
cos the whole sick world loves to smile 

(devi+rook) 
i feel sick 
i still feel sick 
i still feel sick 

(devi) 
smile like a rainbow 
smile like a crescent moon 
just keep doing what ur doing 
just keep doing what ur doing 
smile like a crack in the earth 
like a curse 
like a corpse 
like a wound 
smile like a rainbow 
just keep doing what ur doing 

(rook) 
cum-stained black hoodie 
grey soul and static in my eyes 
try to see the future 
but i'm not sure if it applies 
by the water in a pissed-in miniskirt 
trying to see the world thru the anhedonia 
feels kinda like my soul is burnt 
too late, too late if only uhhh 
we're not like the other girls 
this shit's too evil to be stylish 
don't tell me this is too dramatic 
cause i LIVE INSIDE IT 

just fucking try it~ 

(devi+rook) 
i feel sick 
i still feel sick 
i still feel sick

DREAMS COME TRUE 2019

NAUSEA 2019

can you suck my fucking dick again? 
please just breathe me in like oxygen 
im a princess 
do you want this? 
can you feel it 
yet? 

i wanna make you say it 
but you've always been kinda 
shy... 
thats okay 
we still have time 

feeling's different than believing 
lots of feelings are deceiving 
i don't care if i'm bleeding 
i'd rather be dying than this nightmare that i'm dreaming of 

oh my heart feels heavy 
are you sure that you're ready 
i guess that things could get messy / don't you think that its scary that i feel it in my belly? 

it's never enough 
i'll never give up 
i'm covered in cum 
i'm covered in blood 

i just wanna fuck 
i think i'm in love 
my insides feel wrong 
i just wanna fuck

Princess

ACROBAT OVER A VAT OF ACID CRAP

Blood Soup

not mine. https://youtu.be/6KSCXwc9tPA 
(cover has some body horror)
I might make a slowed version :)