i dont wanna be myself 
i wanna be someone else 
right now, i know 

i changed my mind, ill go to hell
just feed me and keep me in a cell
spend everyday needing so much fucking help
ill tell you the secret and see if you tell 

im not afraid of falling anymore 
i stare at the face 
i ignore features that look the same
theres a hook in my face
pull it out another one forms behind it
instantly cut off circulation
i feel my eyelids flutter as i struggle to sit
i just collapse to my knees in a fit
coughing, laughing, dry heave
punch my fist against the seat and the lid 

theres a message in here somewhere !
changing lanes
ill stay in mine
you stay insane
i love this crowd
dog bites man 
man drops a hydrogen bomb on the ground 
i got a sweet tooth 
i like it when i find hidden objects
i see you
underneath the grass
rubbing against me 
touch it, whats the difference?
ask me if its empty
over turn the glass and get every single last drop out 

oh god its fit right in the palm of my hand now 
rejected blessing i see the angel it shines down
im happy to have the plaque scrapped from my teeth
i added gems to my canines
im playing with them as we speak 

i lie and i steal things
try to be revealing 
off putting !!!
show me where i lost footing
lip service
cock sucking dick circus 
ill be at auction but all of this shits worthless

couldnt begin to imagine how that happened
hey, look over there! 
spit in a napkin!
are you kidding? im asking
are you shitting in my hand or wishing on black magic?
you didnt understand
sometimes its okay to match the energy of your worst man
im the dead spy, i got two red eyes
ill let you guess why i stare out my blinds paranoid
people around me notice and im afraid that theyre annoyed
or think im crazy, and maybe theyre right
backdrop: illusion of contact
age it until it tastes like a safe ride
take you home in the back of a sports car
godly intention so pure as im sure that yours are

i dont wanna be myself
i wanna be someone else

Numbing Agent

Janina — Terranova

https://soundcloud.com/mattproxy

My landlord's flirting with me, called me skinny then evict me
I've read a lot of hentai so that shit is normal to me
Couldn't get repairs around the home
He's overseas with dying mom
Now we both dont have a mom. ha ha ha
Everything I do is shits and giggles for the fun
Everything I do is not worth shit its so much fun
You're looking like a pussy big and juicy begging for the fuck
You're looking like a pussy pussy boi tighten up

I do this shit for something like love
Never admiration, just connection to above
I cannot mind the crowd but it's nice when they show up
They don't believe a whore like me would ever talk to God

It doesn't matter how bad it gets it gets worse
I hate when girls die but I don't mind to get hurt
Heard you sold your soul and you could not tell the difference
I think thats kind of sad you never felt your own magnificence
They'll grab you by the dick throw you off a building then jump after you
Type of shit reminds me of going to middle school
I have no hope of being normal born to be a super soldier
Blow the rainbow out the sky and give God a game over

If you need me
To show you how
La la la
If you need me to show you how
How to do it
Maybe I could show you how
Psh

Say I’m pretty privilege but you don’t see how they treated me
To control the situation I make everyone my enemy
Just to be safe

Tighten Up! prod. Matt Proxy

EMOJI

CHARLlE KlRK WAS A GUY THAT DROPPED OUT OF COLLEGE TO JOIN A GANG. THAT WAS HIS FIRST CHOICE OF WHAT HE WANTED TO DO, CAREER-WISE. NO CRAP HE GOT POPPED BY SOMEONE IN HIS OWN CLIQUE. USUALLY WE DON'T MOURN THIS TYPE OF GUY UNLESS WE'RE RELATED TO THEM. I THINK IT'S ACTUALLY SO SAD THAT THIS HAD TO HAPPEN... IN THE SAME 24 HOURS THAT THE US SENATE VOTED TO CONCEAL THE E-------N FILES...

I bent my head
I bend my spine forever
You hold my hand
I know I hold your hand too hard
Curl up in a circle
So broken-skin, so raw
There was a girl who was ugly forever and ever, amen
I swear it never gets easier
I swear it never gets better
I know if I admit to pain, we'll live the pain together
Too bad
So much gets said
But what gets it done?
What gets it done?

I know I look dumb
The type of dumb you would want
I want a lot to be blunt
It’s like you’re right all along

I wanted to be in love
I wanted to feel love but I'm just not like that
I wanted to be in love
I wanted to feel love but I’m just not like that

I 
I wanted something more than you could give
I
I
I wanted something more than you could give me

I hope you get to stay the way you are
I start to lose my posture
My spine sticks out the back of my neck
My hand, hitched up on angles
So broken-skin, still so raw to the touch
A finger in the wound is never enough for me
I swear it only gets easier
I swear it only gets better
I know if i admit to pain, we’ll live the pain together
If the road becomes the goal
We’ll ride it out to blackness
I try so hard
All fxcking day
All my efforts work backwards

My Neck

HeavenSent

The 2nd last single leading up to the release of "I'm It!'
Art source Color_LES's Mage & Demon Queen
www.webtoons.com/en/comedy/mage-and-demon-queen/list?title_no=1438

"When I was a kid that was a soccer field, and it's already a recycling center"

I live thru wrong decisions
I built my world around them
Lets play the cards we're given
Let’s break the rules around how it goes
How it goes
If you watch you can kinda still see how it goes

Lets try harder in the future maybe we could do better
Put in a little effort, are we only living if they let us?
Lets break the spell around it, lets spell it out in shining letters
Theres living fountains spouting
Theres resounding laughter when they see us

Let me get inside it I can prove that this is worth the price-uh--
I tried to make it right and all my options s*******l
I tried to speak my mind but it came out so all one-sided
If I only stayed behind there might be things to keep an eye on
Let it get inside me I can prove I'm worth the price-uh-
You're why so serious and acting like it's do or dire
I feel a bit stressed out but then I think that I really like it
I can't stand anything bout my life but then I'm really lying

What I had to in the moment
I did what I had to in the moment
Guess our lives are made up of little moments
You could make the wrong choice on every single one of them

Lets try harder in the future maybe we could do better
Put in a little effort, are we only living if they let us?
Lets break the spell around it, lets spell it out in shining letters
Theres crimson fountains spouting, just resounding laughter when they see it

They're looking at me and I'm looking their way
I know you're hungry, look you're licking your plate
NAZ✓ng nothing so I step off the stage
Not saying nothing kinda crazy these days
They're looking at me like I'm pulling a face
I'm not authentic yea we all make mistakes
We're sending signals like we're playing charades
I'm looking at you and you're looking my way

I guess I’ll let it happen
I think I’d keep my head down
Think I’ll let it happen

They're Looking At Me

THE RED SCARE GIRL IS SCARED TO GO OUTSIDE
SAM HYDE IS SCARED TO GO OUTSIDE
YOU COULD FLEX YOUR MUSCLES BUT YOU'RE SCARED TO GO OUTSIDE
IF YOU GO OUTSIDE EVERYONE WOULD SMILE
RED SCARE GIRL IS SCARED TO GO OUTSIDE
YOU KNOW SAM HYDE IS SCARED TO GO OUTSIDE
YOU COULD FLEX YOUR MUSCLES BUT YOU'RE SCARED TO GO OUTSIDE
COS IF YOU GO OUTSIDE THEN EVERYONE WILL SMILE

DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
THE WORST IS YET TO COME
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
THE WORST IS YET TO COME

UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH
UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH

PEOPLE MAKE JOKES THAT THEY SHOULDNT SAY
BUT THEY SHOULD BE SAFE
PEOPLE SAY THINGS THAT THEY SHOULDNT SAY BUT
THEY SHOULD BE SAFE
PEOPLE SAY THINGS THAT THEY SHOULDNT SAY
BUT THEY SHOULD BE SAFE
PEOPLE MAKE JOKES THAT THEY SHOULDNT MAKE BUT
YOU SHOULD BE SAFE
MAN YOU SHOULD BE

DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
WORSE IS YET TO COME
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
DAS DICKE END KOMMT NOCH
THE THICK ENDS STILL TO COME

UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH
UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH-UH

They're Looking At Me

Girls Rituals