im such an autist retard
i wish i wasnt alive
i really hate my life
i really want to die

i hate my fucking body
why i am so fucking skinny
now wonder girls dont like me
i look so pathetic

i cant wait to get a gun
and paint the room with my blood
i look so fucking ugly
no wonder no one likes me

to people im just a clown
they really like to tease me
and it hurts so bad
i can never fit in

im such an autist retard
i wish i wasnt alive x??

all i ever wanted
was to be the man
be tall and strong basically a chad
but i am a fucking framelet

genetics fucked me over
so i hate staying sober
but i dont have any money
to buy more booze its funny

all the people around me
i just want them to die
im so done with this place
my brains so fried

i have a plan in my head
it will take some time
but i hope ill make it
plan called murder suicide

im such an autist retard
i wish i wasnt alive x??

autist retard

This song was torture to make.
lyrics

verse 1

I cant win
cause you never lose
and it feels wrong to hold on 
itll feel worse to let go 
its always hard never easy
looking back is so sickly

Chorus
I can't shake you
Its something I cant do 
and i wonder if the same is true
am i still haunting you

verse 2 
I cant take 
this on the chin
and i dont know its tangled deep inside
tongue tied i cant speak fuck her why even try



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZj2OMPWEZc

Shake You

@odihu

ababababababababababababab

serial killer girl
shes fkn rockin her own world
she shine like diamonds n sum pearls
she makes me jealous cus i m all aalone
why cant she just b mine
i feel like im just wasting time
i spent all day just fuckn cryin
i feel like fuckin dying



i love her what is she fucking blind
ill always have her on my mind
keep getting rejected no point in trying
i guess its time for suicide
i slit my wrist blood falls like rain 
take percs by the hour heal all the pain
i like her but she finds me strange
overdose like twomad on the game

odihu - serial killer girl <3 ft sonichu

never felt this right(demo)

snowgirl gf

change my mind

https://open.spotify.com/album/4dt5nK6vhTQ149N72ItjSC?si=gISBhWemScqt4_XNnjoxOg

lyrics:
i begged for u to stay
you couldn't take it
you left me anyway
im going apeshit
you wont accept my calls
or countless friend requests 
im giving it my all
just for u to be my ex

im giving it my all 
just for u to be my ex
i know that u don't like it 
when i send a double text
or when i try and tell you bout
how much u mean to me
oh how much u mean to me
oh you make me wanna scream

yeah ur pictures on my wall
cause i love you
i havent took em down just incase you love me too
but even if you tell me no
im not sure u can trust urself 
so ill keep on asking the same thing
until u tell me yeah

and i won't change 
for worse or better
i'll stay this way
and i wont let ya
go today or maybe ever
im never giving up
not until we're together

You're The Only One I Need

COVER OF @d9smi 's  Y IS LUV ALWAYZ SO TUFF X SPICY KITTENS
https://soundcloud.com/d9smi/redmiku

FELL OUTTA PLACE
THEN I FELL IN LUV
SEND ANOTHER PIC CANT GET ENOUGH
GIRL I NEED MORE I NEED UR TOUCH
WHY IS LUV ALWAYS SO TUFF

FELL OUTTA PLACE
THEN I FELL IN LUV
SEND ANOTHER PIC CANT GET ENOUGH
GIRL I NEED MORE I NEED UR TOUCH
WHY IS LUV ALWAYS SO TUFF


GIRL U FAKE IT ALL
CANT TAKE IT NO
ALL THAT SHIT U SAID
CANT FACE IT NO
NOW IM ALL ALONE
CRYING IN MY HOME
ALL THE MEMORIES
THEY FADING NO

FELL OUTTA PLACE
THEN I FELL IN LUV
SEND ANOTHER PIC CANT GET ENOUGH
GIRL I NEED MORE I NEED UR TOUCH
WHY IS LUV ALWAYS SO TUFF

FELL OUTTA PLACE
THEN I FELL IN LUV
SEND ANOTHER PIC CANT GET ENOUGH
GIRL I NEED MORE I NEED UR TOUCH
WHY IS LUV ALWAYS SO TUFF


I FELL IN UR ARMS,
ALL U WANT IS MY HEART...
U CAN'T COME NEAR IT,
WHO KNOWS WHAT WUD HAPPEN ?
U SAY U LUV ME,
DO U RLY MEAN IT ?
1 DAY U'LL LEAVE ME,
CRYING, BROKEN, SPEECHLESS...


FELL OUTTA PLACE
THEN I FELL IN LUV
SEND ANOTHER PIC CANT GET ENOUGH
GIRL I NEED MORE I NEED UR TOUCH
WHY IS LUV ALWAYS SO TUFF

FELL OUTTA PLACE
THEN I FELL IN LUV
SEND ANOTHER PIC CANT GET ENOUGH
GIRL I NEED MORE I NEED UR TOUCH
WHY IS LUV ALWAYS SO TUFF

FELL OUTTA PLACE
THEN I FELL IN LUV
SEND ANOTHER PIC CANT GET ENOUGH
GIRL I NEED MORE I NEED UR TOUCH
WHY IS LUV ALWAYS SO TUFF





Y IS LUV ALWAYZ SO TUFF (DESMI)

final wave annieversary

The sun comes up but you know I don't
I say I wanna change but I know that I won't
So I spend the day in bed with all the fantasies in my head
Of waking up as someone else instead

When my eyes are closed I make the most 
Of the time I don't mind being lost
When my life has gone to shit I'm just so sick of it
I wanna sleep it off

Start the day at 4 pm, another one wasted again
I guess I'll just head back to sleep
So I check my phone as I'm laying alone 
And I pray the Lord my soul to keep

With my eyes shut tight in the daylight
My heart full of fear and hateful spite
Would it make a difference if I died tonight?

My mattress holds me and consoles me 
As I worry about whatever
In my dreams I found the means 
To hold myself together

Under my blanket I try to hide
From these feelings I keep deep down inside
From sunset to sunrise
On these filthy sheets I agonize

Over the life I'll never live
And the effort I'll never give
And the nightmares I'll never forget

Sleepover

Dazed (2014)

DIY music made in a garage in the middle of nowhere throughout the 2010's lol

Dazed (2014)

helen degenerat

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