
[Verse 1]

I’ve been screaming in plain text - but no one reads.
They call it sadness - no, I’m diseased.
Paranoia nested in my brainstem,
Truth and fiction - they fuck in tandem.

No more forward. No escape routes.
I stopped running - now the void runs out.
Every day I sit still while the pressure grows -
I’m rotting in silence where no light goes.



[Pre-Chorus]

I don't wanna die -
I just don’t know how to stay alive.
If someone’s out there…
If you still care…



[Chorus]

FIND ME! - I’m lost inside corrupted code.
HELP ME! - My mind’s not just “an episode.”
SAVE ME! - Drag me to a fucking therapist -
Before I crash beyond repair in this abyss!



[Verse 2]

I used to fight - used to bleed to feel.
Now I watch myself decay through glass and steel.
Obstacles rise - I stay in place.
This system's failing - no saving grace.

Tried to hang myself… the rope snapped clean.
Cried for help… but I wasn’t seen.
They told me, “You’re dramatic, it’s all in your head.”
Then why does it feel like I’m already dead?



[Breakdown]

I AM A BUG IN HUMAN FORM
NULL AND VOID - MALFORMED
CRASH ME. ERASE ME.
OR FUCKING FACE ME.



[Bridge]

I don't grieve what I lost - I became what’s missing.
I’m not surviving - I’m decomposing, glitching.
This isn’t heartbreak - it’s hard reset.
Tell me how much darker it fucking gets.



[Chorus]

FIND ME! - I'm not sound, I'm not okay!
REBOOT ME! - Rewire this disarray.
HEAR ME! - I'm begging through distortion -
I need a mind, not another fucking portion.



[Final Breakdown]

Find me…
FIND ME!
Save me…
SAVE ME!
Please…
FUCKING FIND ME!



[Outro]

If you’re still human…
And you heard this transmission…
This ain’t art - it’s a black box recording.
I’m waiting.
Still waiting.
…Find me.



FIND ME

LOOP4EVER pt1

[Verse]
Border vanished - weightless skin,
Walls dissolve, breath runs thin.
Pinned below a silent dome,
Shadows stretch where safety’s gone.

[Pre-Chorus]
Eyelids open - glue and frost,
World is pale, coordinates lost.
Presence swells, the air turns glass,
A shape intrudes, it will not pass.

[Chorus]
Throat is locked, the world won’t bend,
Heavy silence - no sound to send.
Dragged beneath a gaze unseen,
Hunted stillness, black and mean.

[Breakdown]
Lungs and chest - tethered tight,
Counting heartbeats in the night.
A movement there - a dart, a slide,
Across the room where dark things hide.

[Bridge]
Time distorts - a thread unwinds,
Paralyzed inside the mind.
Every second curves, expands,
No escape! Cold pressure lands.

[Chorus]
I am pinned by phantom fear,
Staring deep as it draws near.
All I muster, all I try -
No voice, no movement, petrified.

[Outro]
Shadow’s grip, a hollow bind,
Filling up this waking mind.
Night repeats the waiting game -
Lost to silence, without name.

Sleep Paralysis

Is This What You Want

[Verse 1]
I’m crawling through a mess of broken dreams,
Everything reminds me of deceitful schemes.
Truth wears a mask, lies dressed in white,
And I can’t recognize which side to fight.

[Pre-Chorus]
Paranoia feels like rusted chains,
Fear strikes fast, engraving my brain.
Every sign looks the same by night and day,
B.P.D. drags me the wrong way.

[Chorus]
I’m fuckin’ tired, living blind while my scars still bleed,
Where fiction shuffles facts and my mind deceives.
I’m knee-deep in chaos, screaming through the seams,
Don’t see the thunderstorm buried in black skies of sin.

[Verse 2]
Every random chance feels like a loaded gun,
Every secret starts a war I’ve never won.
Reality’s blockade, scratched by demons’ claws,
Still I move forward, breaking their laws.

[Pre-Chorus]
Paranoia knocks as truth hides weak,
White noise surrounds, my vision bleak.
I’ve crossed the edge - insanity’s proof,
Bloody rain drips through my shattered roof.

[Chorus]
I’m fuckin’ tired, living blind while my scars still bleed,
Where fiction shuffles facts and my mind deceives.
I’m knee-deep in chaos, screaming through the seams,
Don’t see the thunderstorm buried in black skies of sin.

[Bridge]
“Man, you’re drowning in a pool of shit,”
I told myself as my brain split.
Painful echoes scream inside my head -
Wake me up before it’s painted red.

[Breakdown]
Truth and lies crawl fast, leaving their trace,
I’ve lost my damned soul in the darkest place.
Sirens of pain fill the air with noise,
I push out the demons just using my voice.

[Final Chorus]
I’m fuckin’ tired, living blind while my scars still bleed,
Where fiction shuffles facts and my mind deceives.
I’m knee-deep in chaos, drowning in screams,
Too far gone to wake from these fever dreams.

Derealized/Depersonalized

[Verse I]
I walk among the dead meat, clothed in the skin of men,
Their prayers rot in bottles, their mercy drowned in gin.
Hands stained with virtue, eyes peeled from hypocrisy,
Father of light, feel my wrath, cleanse this frail disease.

[Pre-Chorus]
Their halos choke them - a crown of lies without shame,
I speak your name, Lucifer, "MY FATHER, CONSUME THE FLAME!"

[Chorus]
BURN THEM ALIVE !  (my broken brothers scream)
THEIR SOULS DESERVE THE VOID (where angels dream)
ROAST THE FLESH! (Erase the mask they wear)
I RISE THROUGH FIRE (no prayer left to spare)

[Verse II]
They tamed the wolf for hunt, then cat for hearth's soft glow,
Then cast them to the streets where hunger's shadows grow.
Where rains soak through their bones, and loneliness bites deep,
No warmth, no scraps, just echoes in the cold they keep.
They preach of love while beating someone beautiful and weak,
They howl of God with rotted breath and bile upon their teeth.
Their piety is rotting, flies buzz 'round this shit they preach.

[Bridge]
CAST ME BEYOND DEATH (shape me in demon's form)
A VESSEL OF WRATH (a vengeance reborn)
LET ME JUDGE THE HOLLOW (let me rend their peace)
FATHER OF RADIANCE (let my pain release)

[Breakdown]
I will stand at mountain of ashes made of their faith,
Crown myself with horns, hell's warrior of hate.
No redemption, no salvation left to steal, everyone will die, there is no one to heal,
Only flames to purge, all this walking corpses really die, and only truth revealed.

[Outro]
Embrace me, my lovely death when you came with dawn,
Lucifer's son awaits the infernal power what will be shown.
From lighthouse to ruin, from man to demon and then once again,
I will carve the end of humanity whispering your warmful name

Son of the Morning Star

[Verse 1] 
Don’t chase the rush - I’m not your healer,
I won’t rebuild your cracked demeanor.
I’ll fake your joy till your nerves all burn,
You’ll feel alive - but never learn.
You want to fly? I’ll give you motion,
Till every thought dissolves in notion.
You’ll drag me up your nose just to feel brave,
But I’m no angel - I’m your self-made grave.

[Verse 2]
Oh, look at you now, king of illusions,
Sweat and glitter in toxic fusion.
You brag you’re high - you’re just hollowed out,
I own your breath, I own your doubt.
Was it worth it, that neon thrill?
Your mouth is dry, but you want me still.
Run if you can - I’ll live in your pulse,
Flow through your mind like electric convulse.

[Verse 3]
You called me light - I turned to static,
Your pulse collapsed - too cinematic.
You carved me rails across your fate,
Now every smile comes far too late.
I warned you, don’t make me your savior,
You fed the rush, ignored the flavor.
Now look at yourself, brittle and blue,
I didn’t break you - you pushed me through.

[Outro]
I was never your cure, only addiction,
A surge dressed up as conviction.
You wanted heaven, but sniffed your doom,
Now even I recoil from your gloom.

Lines of Fire

[Verse 1]
Haven’t you seen them - walking through the void,
Eyes burned out, turned to remnants of days?
The streets are breathing sorrow and decay,
And yet you scroll, and look the other way.

[Pre-Chorus]
You call it life - I call it absence,
A thousand faces drowned in blind obedience.

[Chorus]
Haven’t you seen them - broken inside?
The empty mass with nowhere to hide.
You feed the dark, you call it peace,
But tell me - when did the feeling cease?

[Verse 2]
Haven’t you seen them - standing in the rain,
No pulse left, just echoes of pain?
They stare through air, they stare through walls,
And still you praise your empty calls.

[Bridge - Breakdown]
Haven’t you seen the light fade slow?
Haven’t you felt the undertow?
They’re slipping below, one by one -
And still you call it living, son.

[Final Chorus / Outro]
Haven’t you seen them - eyes to the ground,
Souls erased without a sound?
Haven’t you heard the mourning hum -
The silence where we’ve all gone numb?
(Haven’t you seen them... seen them... seen them?)

Haven’t You Seen Them..?

Truth Hurts

This track and its lyrics are a non-commercial fan creation inspired by Slipknot’s “Vermilion.”  
If the original rights holder raises any claims, I will respectfully remove my work without objection.  
My intent was solely to express admiration for the depth and emotion of the original song.  
I sincerely apologize in advance if my interpretation has in any way offended or disrespected the original creators. 

[Verse 1]
She moves through all the fractures
of my shattered, sleepless mind
A shade I can’t abandon,
a fever I can’t unwind
She’s everything and nothing,
she’s the reason for my ache
All I crave is her illusion - 
every dream for her I break
The distance grows within you, this path will only break your soul

[Pre-Chorus]
Listen to my voice, there’s a fault inside your mind
Can’t you feel the distance growing, buried by your pride?

[Chorus]
I won’t let this build up inside of me
She’s a ghost behind the mirror - wake up, we are real, you see
She’s the only one that I still see
Stop chasing shadows - come back from this reverie

[Verse 2]
Her voice is endless static, calling out my name
Temptation in the silence, driving me insane
I see her in the darkness, I hear her in the night
If I could only hold her, everything would be alright
You’re slipping deep into a dream, forget the cold, hard light
She’s just a form your mind creates to hide from what is right

[Pre-Chorus]
Can’t you see the chains you’re wearing, forged by your own need?
Look outside the nightmare - try to break and breathe

[Chorus]
I can’t let this build up inside of me
Step back, the mirror cracks, she’s not real, she’s not free
She’s the only thing that’s haunting me
Open your eyes, this life remains, beyond the fantasy

[Bridge]
She’s the only one, she’s the only one, she’s the only one - 
But you’re not alone in here!
She’s the only one, she’s the only one, she’s the only one - 
Come back to this moment, you are real, fight to win!

[Outro]
I won’t let this build up inside of me
I won’t let this build up inside of me
I can’t make her real
But I can set me free

Illusions

[Verse 1]
Never bought that shadow shit, nah - 
Life was chrome-plated, bullet-proof myth.
Till it slammed me sideways, ribs cracked wide,
Depression's fist right through my pride.

[Pre-Chorus]
I hate this pulse, hate the goddamn air,
Fate's a cheap joke - laugh if you dare.
Everyone's corpse-walking, fake-ass grin,
Curse every soul that still thinks I'll win.

[Chorus]
So why me? Why chain me raw?
For breathing once like I owned the law?
Heart's a rusted snare, drumskin torn -
Hear it bleed? That's your encore.
WHY ME? WHY ME? WHY ME?
Crown of thorns for a king nobody sees.

[Verse 2]
Metal in the throat, strings detuned low,
Scream louder, fool - the void still grows.
I never begged for this endless night,
Woke up choking on my own damn fight.
Hate my reflection, that hollow-eyed freak,
Destiny's whore, leaving me weak.
Curse the stars, the ground, the fucking sky -
Everyone's blind, watching me die.

[Bridge]
Why me this? For what twisted game?
Life's a blade twisting deeper, no shame.
I spit on hope, that lying tease,
Pound the walls till my knuckles bleed.
No escape from this suffocating cage,
Rage boiling over, stage set for rage.

[Breakdown]
WHY ME? 
Curse 'em all - fate, friends, the whole damn hall!
Hate this life, this breath, this fall!
WHY ME? WHY ME? 
Burn it all, let the void swallow all!

[Outro]
Never believed... till it buried me deep.
Hate everything... now I can't even sleep.
Why me?

FIND ME

Dissappointed Mikki

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