can't deal with how good this part is 🌱🌷❤️

every time i listen to this song i appreciate it more. Theres just nothing like it, so beautiful.

discography

ill release real music sometime i promise

stop ! let me grab my backpack

i don’t wanna be late to my class again

honors been waiting since last november 

when we had to quarantine for a term 

had to keep the doors clean. in return

we would spend 14 days alone

only seeing four teens if were 

lucky enough to see a friend 

up in morning we would spend 

our time right online 

doing assignments 

RUN IT BACK !!!!!11

let me digress 

to when we were young, not scared of anyone 

don’t know where the time went

took a nap now it’s 2021

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

he said with a mask on

he can’t believe he’s already at the finish line

but before he packs up

he’s gotta pass one more class

i don’t wanna go

i don’t wanna go act like i’m happy 

about a cap thrown in the air 

don’t know if i’ll last long in the

real i world

fear the world x2

practice my penmanship 

while my pity’s pending in a

pretty small penny sized penitentiary 

that i call my brain. i don’t plan to plead 

for a plodding pace in life 

i just wanna say

i just wanna say 

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

class of 2021

4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

The main guitar is taken from Goonnights' song "sober"
link: https://soundcloud.com/goonnights/sober-ft-ever

The lead guitar in the second half was recorded by 2045
link: https://soundcloud.com/sc2un-sh4re
link: https://soundcloud.com/2045

Struggler is written about a sort of cycle I go through a lot, and trying to break it, but failing.
I always end up falling into slumps of creative block, and I always try way too hard to get out of it, and I always end up feeling horrible.
This song is also indirectly about me and my new alias, with some lyrics specifically referencing and responding to "To Disappear" which was a very difficult song for me.

As for this new alias, there's a full post on twitter, I'm sorry for deleting everything so suddenly, it was a really silly decision. "Rapture" will always be available on bandcamp for free.

remix stems:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1L6wVfOrNyYRWd7d7iVrHIA5V-PZnGjcb/view?usp=sharing
(162bpm, idk the key)

As always, Soundcloud isnt the best listening experience (specifically butchers the high end on this song), try spotify or youtube or something
The mixing is definitely intentionally a little messy, the vocals are a little quiet on purpose, I really enjoy the sound this song has, but I can agree it might not be for everyone.

[LYRICS]

And Oh, I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
And Oh, I might struggle and I might die

So tell me, is this healing?
Or it's a cycle that's repeating
And I need to know
If I'm gonna be here

Thickened Water
And Tarot Smoke

I guess I can feel it now
My gums are melting away
But they continued

And Oh, I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
And Oh, I might struggle and I might die
So please don't disappear
Don't leave me in a shallow river

Struggle 'til I die

Struggler

listening to my album nearly 8 months on ive sorta grown from most of them but i still think this song is one of my best ever i also pyut it on spotify cuz idk im silly

Growing Legs

bro really just bought soundcloud pro for a second account

white boy white boy

you’re better than everyone 

the type of boy to write stories

about is better

and everyone knows that

oh, don’t forget about the fact 

that they’re supposed to be another of 

thousands of other superlative people 

with money supporting them, ignoring the fact 

it’s evident

that nobody a kid with a little bit of melanin 

a mismatch within the sorority so develop big

animosity towards the ones who are mad at it

to the masses you

have everything we’ve thought wanted for 

too long. we ask that you be everything

and anything but forbearing 

when buried in the fight against

sentiment, all hiding

sentimental feelings will 

renovate into 

an emotional dystopia 

coping with the absurd 

fact that they’re supposed to be

another one of thousands of other 

hurting people

whose money’s controlling their

ignored and suppressed sentiments 

one of them goes to the kid with a little bit of

melanin 

asks them for help even though it is stretching

them thin

not knowing they’re one of the people 

who are mad at the

white boy, white boy

who’s better than everyone

so the white boy white boy

whose heads is a mess he runs

away

tried to correlate more

reasons they’re fed up with everyone

who tried to aid and support

their tendency to suppress their heart

an acquired taste

Stems are available @ https://evangeline.info

this song is about wanting normal things like normal people

Performed by
Evangeline, mt saint michael

Written by
E. Butcher

Produced by
Evangeline, mt saint michael, Callum Sheehan

https://evange-line.bandcamp.com/track/tailspin-ft-callum-sheehan-mt-saint-michael

[ SOC ]

--

I got the best seat in the house
and you've been dying to try it on
So when weeks turn into months and the blood dries up
I'm watching TV and you're up and gone

I want a house with a picket fence
so I can yell at the neighbor's kids
So when months turn into years and the scars disappear
I'll box all my thoughts up and shut the lid

And I hope your car tailspins on its way home
I'm chasing the high of skipping your funeral
So when old cuts open up and the tears start to fall
I'll put a band-aid on it but still fall comatose

Tailspin (ft. mt saint michael & Callum Sheehan)

watch it all decay . . .
• please go support @shwirlll , wouldn't have been possible without him !!!!!
fanlink.to/shwirl
• also huge thank u to @reksi420 for the art <3

lyrics:
[harmtails]
you can say what you want
and i promise it won't hurt me
cause i know i've gone too far
this time

yeah i get scared when it's dark
it's hard to admit it
thought i played all my cards right
well guess i didn't

passed out, backseat of some taxi
let's go, you and me on a trip, no acid
i feel my body collapsing
wake up like wtf happened

sometimes yeah life is not that great
don't know whats real or what is fake
i gotta clean the mess i've made
in time or it'll be too late

texting my friends like i'm okay
don't know what feelings to convey
lie down and watch it all decay
watch it all decay

[shwirl]
i can feel it, must move quickly
whoda thunk it'd be so deadly
feel it creepin all inside me
how the fuck did this happen to me

i've got no where to run away
the blood in my heart makes its way
to my head pounding way too hard
i think by now it's far too late

harmtails & shwirl - decay

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic
thank you for being here :)


baby i can't fall asleep i think too much about the end
and i think im running out of time ill fall into your skin
fall into your skin
wait for this to end

romanticizing life
you must have lost your mind
all i do is sit inside
i waste my time

but its all my fault
didn't get a job cause ur too comfortable
cutting off some friends its nothin personal
they're just going through some shit you never felt at all
party in the city i forgot my flaws

my visions blurry tonight but im still looking at you
we got too high (high) off our shit and we got slightly amused
i dont feel so sad
baby you don't mean that
i take a look where im at
feelings i gotta combat
and i fall back to you
i fall back to you

something has to change

spotlight
coming in hot
a yellow flash is all it takes I see you when i meditate ’til you beeline
you always do
there’s no rational for you staying
so irrational for you to think I wouldn’t

go for all the second dates the morning after
I wonder what the fuq i said
to make you get up and leave

take my place
for now i need a minute

take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away

well I’m not gonna force it
telling horror stories
i couldn’t show you love in a purgatory now i see it
it’s all transitory
if its a yellow-white flash, it’s an allegory i wonder what it takes
i’ll settle for my fate
but i wouldn’t let you wait
you sighed from my mistakes


i wonder what i would be doing if it wasn’t for you
hiding from the truth is all i’ll ever do
ah fuq! i wish i said to you
‘no please don’t get up and leave’

take my place
for now i need a minute
take my place
before i make you leave and throw it all away (yeah)
take my place
and we can call it even
read my face
i wish i was dreaming
it’s all on me
you threw it all away
yeah

and i stay lit
just a little bit
too long cause i wanna catch a glimpse of it you said you didn’t know me anymore no you said you didn’t know me
it’s my fault you let me go

It's my fault you let me go

Let the warriors fight.

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× @enesai
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× https://twitter.com/eenesai

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mastering and art by @onumi

dobi & enesai - to lack existence

this song means a lot to me. i made it as a result of discomfort. i cannot advocate enough for coping with internal malaise.

thank you for listening<3

master: https://soundcloud.com/knoir <333

thrifting in the fall

fun little track i made with the amazing https://soundcloud.com/shayobono

unmastered

lyrics:


i don’t know i don’t know if i’ve hurt you yet

all i know, all i know is that it must be said

the sound of silence is what keeps them going 

an internal tyrant is the least of my worries 

i don’t know i don’t know if i’ve hurt you yet

if it could settle the dust w/ rsd

with the amazing https://soundcloud.com/oyeme-thomas 

master by https://soundcloud.com/knoir

i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
standing in the hallways
laughing and listening
to music, acting like we always do
acting like we don’t exist 
and excuse me
but i hate to say i hate that
i hate hating the commons
i hate increasing my pace when
i know you’re right behind me
walking to our class
maybe we could stop
talk about what we have in common
such as
we both have insecurities
we have liked a girl and
i’m sure she isn’t purposely
hurting me, and the same goes for you
the pain that you’ve felt
is something that i’ve gone through
she’d be perfectly
okay with us
being friends
i just wanna stop pretending that i hate you
i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
why do butterflies
fly in my stomach when i see you?
they fly around
faster than a hungry, wild zebra
kicking my stomach to death
because it sees a threat 
to my over-valued reputation
i hate this persistent intimidation
that i’m always facing
just because your face is 
pretty
or the way your chain sits upon your neck
or maybe because you’re
famous
i remember at that football game
i was standing right behind you and i was
trying to act at the same way
that i'd act around my friends
but they were drooling over you
so i was too afraid to say this in the future
listen man, i just wanna talk to you
maybe become friends
but i have never had that opportunity
to talk to you and see
if i could promise peace
between us
maybe we could farm some greens
pardon me for being personal about it
but i just wanna be
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i just wanna be your friend
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your
i am not an enemy
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends
why can't we be friends ?!?!?!?!
i just wanna be your friend !!!!1
i just wanna be your friend!!!!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!!
i just wanna be your friend!
i just wanna be your friend!
i am not an enemy
i am not an enemy
i just wanna be your friend

written by me

stream/buy

peace treaty w/ oyeme

🌸🌸🌸

~lyrics~
i don't think you know me anymore
head on my shoulder
i don't wanna get close because i think you're just bored
oh no

i guess we're getting older
but i'm not your only guy
that you're talking to tonight, no

and i might be thinking about you in that way
but last time we talked you didn't even try to stay
now don't act like this is the end
but i think that we should just stay friends

we should go downtown today
i wanna have some interaction
before you try and say goodbye
can you promise me you'll come by soon?
because i don't wanna be here alone

but i don't think you know me anymore
head on my shoulder
i don't wanna get close because i think you're just bored
oh no

i guess we're getting older
but i'm not your only guy
no i'm not your only guy, no

and i might be thinking about you in that way
but last time we talked you didn't even try to stay
now don't act like this is the end
but i think that we should just stay friends

11 Dec 2020

we should just stay friends

fierce

contact: musicbydobi@gmail.com

https://soundcloud.com/the4boys

peace treaty w/ oyeme

dobi

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