Bear in mind that this is fictional as well as firmly autobiographical all at the same time.  Because that's the way with human experience - we make up a story that we tell ourselves until we believe it.

There was some inadvertent manipulation by the educational system which was real, but I was also guilty as hell of being stubborn about individuality and also a pretty hardcore video game addict right back to the Atari 2600 and this extended into online addiction in the 90's before they had a name for it even.

So people that I may have felt were less than helpful, also rolled out the red carpet for me more than once -- just on terms I refused to swallow.

So mainly this is an anti-bureaucratic piece.  The footsoldiers in the faculties doing the teaching, and my fellow classmates both have my sincere sympathies.  A distinction has to be drawn between making music just to get the ick out of my system and what I truly think upon more sober reflection.

Also: well aware this kind of whines like "Allentown" re: 'vote with your feet dummy'

my main website:
http://exedexes1.com

itch.io page:
http://exedexes1.itch.io

Lyrics:

When the H.R. folks say that i irrationally resent
But then the merit raise was two percent
Then let's review the course of the gradual descent
That got all of us where we are now

At the start they said well then, we'll skip you one grade
But hem you in by constraints that we already made
You'd be better adjusted if you only had stayed
Where conformity's all we allow


As I traversed past grade school to the stuff above
The real shock came when, push came to shove
There came things I didn't particularly love
Like rejection from the occasional cow

I escaped from that scene seeking resolution
But the worst place to do it was an institution 
Playing redistributive games
I pushed my way through it
Though my hope was diminished
If no other result, well I proved I could finish
But they were bitter returns all the same

Getting out in the world from the ivory tower
I found that things out there were not much less sour
The retail grind at five eighty five an hour
Doesn't cause you to climb to much fame

I needed the time, to heal, to mend
But the length that it took seemed to really depend
On chewing through this or that online crutch
And that seemed to drag on for far too much

Advancement comes slow when your job doesn't match
The inclinations which are your true path
When suppression has become the order of the day
A lot of time gets burned away

And then came a shift in the mood of the nation
Making it tougher to alter your station
Where even if striven with all your might
They'd just have said, can't promote the budget's too tight
If you were lucky they'd come at you with euphemisms
If not they'd tell you the stark reality 
That you just don't fit intersectionality

I only seemed lazy because in this domain
The only way to stay remotely sane
Was to ignore that they ignored me
While dreaming of where I really should be
Pointing out that my worth's in arrears
Perennially falls on deaf ears

If they get an abrupt shock one morning
Well, they've only had forty-five years of warning
Playing games with people's lives 
Is bound to end in a nasty surprise


I only seemed lazy because I missed the basic rule
Not to wait for someone else's say 
And so I no longer play the fool
As I breach the walls of the cage
And take control of my own way

And so folks then herein lies the rub
Just like don't wait for a corpo to cook your grub
Don't wait for prefab lesson plans
Take destiny back into your hands

301 : I Only Seemed Lazy Because released June 11, 2024

Feature.fm link to this track:
https://ffm.to/only-lazy-because

SoundCloud for this track:
https://soundcloud.com/doug-stoothoff/i-only-seemed-lazy-because

Spotify for this track:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7mEe56bLN8QKY2W4mqz9Ah

Douglas P Stoothoff main site:
https://exedexes1.com/

Artist page on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7EuvIQRQESX9WFtwI6GqWB

NovemDeka

I Only Seemed Lazy Because

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"AZANDOR" is supposed to be a music project that allows me to be creative in an open way. Whatever idea comes to my mind will find itself as a new song here on the page. The style may vary from folk to electronic ambient music to rock/ pop. Or a combination of all. Sometimes I simply like the sound of different instruments together and the new sound they create together triggers a new idea in my head that leads me to a new song ...or may be left aside for a while or may be completely dumped. In the end it´s the creative process that matters most and the joy I feel when something is finally finished and I am satisfied with the result.

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Jay Olivine is Ziggy Stardust’s fourth favourite lyricist in Northeast Brisbane. 

He is a hitless wonder who scratches out demos in a dark booth beneath his kitchen. 

Sometimes he adds distortion to cover the snores of his dog. Sometimes he gets away with an acoustic number. 

His dream (not his dog’s dream) would be to license his lyrics to someone who would take them somewhere beautiful. He keeps dreaming. 

Olivine is a common green rock. Jay Olivine is not.

A self-taught composer, who has found his voice in older and traditional forms and styles of music.
Currently mostly composing for piano, but I have grand ambitions for writing chamber music and symphonies.
My music has a lot of variety in a way that expresses all kinds of sentiments, both intrapersonal and extrapersonal, kept in a cohesion by an underlying narrative; every composition is its own journey or a adventure, and I invite any guests who stumble upon my page to take part in it. 
All my music so far is written in Sibelius 7 (recordings of live performace coming down the line)
My music is available for purchase on Bandcamp: https://dinoljubi.bandcamp.com/music
Sometimes I might write an essay or two:
https://renewalcollective.substack.com/p/beethoven-through-suffering-towards
For inquiries: dinoljub89@gmail.com
Also a father to an awesome little boy.

A therapeutic journey into a mix of jazz, classical, and a blend of types of electronica.  And a wry, gradual observation that promotion tends to only go as far as you push it.  At least I make my fellow musicians laugh a little.

⬇️ ALBUM OUT ON PLATFORMS ⬇️

Good Day  🌈
sharing only unfinished and unpampered homemade-songs ✌🏻
inspired by Sting, Bowie, Odezenne ..

The Chicago-based TEEWEEZY is well known for his overly flamed performances that grab attention in moments the audience cannot grasp, giving them a euphoric feeling that keeps them asking for more. 

He has practically created a niche for himself in creating something conscious and propagating the need for mental elevation, and bringing the best out of everybody. 

He gets his inspiration from betrayal and disappointment, and it has been a motivation towards his previous project “SAYIN SHIT,” and he is currently in the studio making the right mix for his next debute single “The Past”

The breath-taking TEEWEEZY is set to win the hearts of hundreds of thousands of fans and music lovers across the world, and he is hoping to become a household name for the effortless delivery of amazing fire lyrics, punchlines, and metaphors laced with urban vocal dexterity that constantly melt the hearts of his listeners worldwide.

A new sound is on the horizon. I start recording it in 2026. Watch this space.
 
STEALTH.

 Thank you everyone for your support over the years! 

Shine on!

Gary Von Pink

https://www.youtube.com/@pinkart/videos (My art cnannel on YouTube)

https://www.instagram.com/houses_of_pink/

I Only Seemed Lazy Because

Doug Stoothoff