I Wanna Be A Kid

charlswave

sicktunesforsickidiots

(Presdit 5)

idonr wanne tgo ti schzool

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Music to schizopost to.

Schizoposting

Mexico

John Maus 
We Must Become The Pitiless Censors Of Ourselves.

Cop Killer by John Maus

Incesticide

Dive

Outcesticide IV - Rape Of the Vaults

Here She Comes Now (live, 1990)

Sadvillain - 003 (Lex Villena Edit)

Splatoon 2 ORIGINAL SOUNDTRACK -Octotune-

#19 bless

Deepsea Metro Central Station

Sadvillain - 015 (Remix)

20 Nova Prospekt

idk what i am

im not incelcore
and i cant feel anymore
ive been super numb
since i turned 24
and ever since that time
its been a fucking lie
all of those fucking cries for help
you said that that you would die
its not
fun to go out anymore
and i
i just shot out my brains
are you feeling okay

i'm not incelcore (willow cover)

Should've known right when I saw you
Been sending nudes since the start of high school
But I liked your hair, thought that you looked cool
But now I know that there's no fucking hope
I remember when my friend showed me
He pulled up your nudes on his iphone screen
I wanted to die, I wanted to scream
And in that moment I knew there was no fucking hope

The girl I like is the village whore
Now I don't want her anymore
The girl I like is the village whore
And I've never wanted to kill myself more

Been heartbroken for about six months
I really wish you weren't a dumb slut
We could've done cool things and had a lot of fun
But you went and crushed all my fucking hopes
You do dumb shit and fuck a lot of guys
Everytime I think about it I wanna cry
Wanna crash my car into a tree and fucking die
And every day I think I want to commit suicide

The girl I like is the village whore
Now I don't want her anymore
The girl I like is the village whore
And I've never wanted to kill myself more

Village Whore

notice
me now
i make music on soundcloud
follow me
and like my songs
stream them all day and all night long
follow my twitter too
tell me that i am cool
like all my tweets and reply to me
i have nothing left
i have no girlfriend
filling up the void with the internet

the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen the numbers on the screen
overstimulation dopamine wtf

wasting all my time
caring more about numbers than real life
feeling like a loser
excited by numbers on computers
my soul has been erroded
5g is corrosive
the internet will fuck u up and ud never know it
real goals have been erased
we wait for the numbers to go up all day

the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen the numbers on the screen
overstimulation dopamine wtf

numbers on screen go up

i need to take them!!!



lyric:
i just wanna say thank you for my pills
they're what makes me better when i'm ill
some days i take twice my daily fill
they're the only thing keeping me chill

life is unremarkable until
my script is done and i need a refill
i know my doctors acting with good will
except the fucking consultation bill

when i don't take my pills
it gives me such a thrill
it makes me feel so real
i would shoot to kill

when i don't take my pills
i don't feel fulfilled
life is all down hill
because I'm mentally ill

i just wanna say thank you for my pills
they're what makes me better when i'm ill
i don't care if i lose all free will
no brain left at all is better still


when i don't take my pills
it gives me such a thrill
it makes me feel so real
i would shoot to kill        

when i don't take my pills
i don't feel fulfilled
life is all down hill
because i'm mentally ill

My pills

can't even read a book
my head's too cooked 

not even if i tried
my brain's too fried

a slave to dopamine
a flesh machine

a short attention span
blame instagram

i'm just an addict
need my kicks, it's sick

can't even watch tv
must see my screen

i'm just dead inside
can't cry (i've tried)

i only laugh at memes
living the dream

prison
my laptop's a prison 
my cell phone's a prison
my pc's a prison
please let me out
 
rectangular prison 
liquid crystal prison
silicon prison
and i can't get out

my phone is a prison 
they're all fucking prisons
give me parole
and let me out
 
i don't get a lawyer
i don't get a trial
i get 20 to life
and i can't get out

what keeps me up at night 
my phone's blue light

i hold it my hand 
just to fall asleep

it makes me feel secure
stockholm syndrome

just waiting for the bell
the buzz, the beep

like a parasite
i live on bytes

i see red thing i click
to get my fix

"it makes you satisfied",
they said (they lied)

refresh the page again
might change, must check

prison
my laptop's a prison 
my cell phone's a prison
my pc's a prison
please let me out
 
rectangular prison 
liquid crystal prison
silicon prison
and i can't get out

my phone is a prison 
they're all fucking prisons
give me parole
and let me out
 
i don't get a lawyer
i don't get a trial
i got 20 to life...

just one shot at life
i guess i lose

i'm playing a game 
i did not choose

stuck here in my cell
a living hell

the devil is a dell
samsung
intel

rectangular prison

Rectangular Prison

my day has been spoiled
i have to go to toil
i should have been a royal
or found a lot of oil  

fuck toil
it makes my blood boil
i wanna put my boss in the soil
… i guess i’m too loyal

my boss makes a hundred bucks every time i make $9
that’s why i commit crime on company time
i do just enough work that i don’t get sacked
turns out everybody else can barely do that

i’m just trying to relax and enjoy my weekend
when i remember an email that i forgot to send
its no wonder that i dream of mass murder fantasies
toil and all its miseries, in my head rent free

my day has been spoiled
i have to go to toil
i should have been a royal
or found a lot of oil  

fuck toil
it makes my blood boil
i wanna put my boss in the soil
… i guess i’m too loyal

if you wanna win the rat race you gotta choose not to play
too bad i will never leave this place, i’m addicted to my pay
deep down i have always felt that i wanted to be free
well i can only blame myself, drug of choice is salary

i don’t want to work

i don’t want to work

Monte Carlo

I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
Being nice to you is just a cover 
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

There's nothing special about you
I do this to everyone I talk to
I'm immature and have bad trust issues
One day I'll ignore you out of the blue

I think you really need to understand
I'm totally incapable of romance
if you hear me giving you compliments
it's just me trying to get inside your pants

I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
Being nice to you is just a cover 
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

I don't have any actual friends
I treat people as a means to an ends
I don't care if my words offend
Forget about me ever making amends

I'm narcissistic and I'm borderline
You see people I see dollar signs
If you ever see what I'm like inside 
It will send shivers down your spine


I don't play well with others
It's something that I learnt from my mother
I don't get along with my father
If you try to get close to me you'll suffer

OH SHIT YOU WEREN'T MEANT TO HEAR THAT

Baby I'm just joking; I would never gaslight you
I swear you know the real me, and I'll always be true
I promise i'm not a psychopath, I don't wanna see you hurt
And when things get tough you know I won't leave you in the dirt

I Don't Play Well With Others

I don’t mean to be a weird guy
But it’s my blood it’s in my mind 
I don’t know how to read social cues
I’m scared to make eye contact when talking to you 

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I feel like a fish up on land 
Im out of control, I don’t understand 
Why you’re laughing, was it something I said?
I’m just gonna shut up, never talking again

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I’m an autism haver
Im fucked forever 
I can never talk to you 
Cuz I can’t take the pressure

Please Be Patient I Have Autism

i've lived a life of despair
so please don't take my hair
it's all that i have left
it will leave me bereft
the norwood reaper cometh

the coming years look bleak
for the suffered freak
ascend the widows peak
what makes the brave man meek

the norwood reaper cometh
its here today and its
gone tomorrow
the norwood reaper cometh

oh fighting back is folly
he culls the hedges wholly
sowed by melancholy
betrothed with just the holy

the norwood reaper cometh
its here today and its
gone tomorrow
the norwood reaper cometh

Norwood Reaper

I wake up in my bed
plagued with thoughts of regret 
I am stuck in my mind 
I’m falling further behind 

Kill me now
Let me down 
Kill me now 
Let me down 

There’s no hope, no future 
Its my fault now I will hurt 
This is the life I chose 
Spite my face cut off my nose 

Kill me now
Let me down 
Kill me now 
Let me down

Kill Me Now

i think there's something wrong with me
nobody seems to disagree
i just can't take it anymore
wanna slam my head against a door

why do i hate being awake?
guess my life was a mistake
why does everyone have to hate me?
i'm getting sick of being me

i'm sick of waking up
everyday's the fucking same
so sick, i've given up
i've only got myself to blame

it's hard to believe that i'm still here
and it's getting worse with every passing year
now i don't like anybody that i know
they're all just better at letting go

Sick

track artwork drawn by https://twitter.com/emocleo69

ate a nutella sandwich
but now mom's wiping at it
'cuz it's all over my cheeks

looking like a little joker
scars made out of snot and cocoa
... there's even some on my feet


i don't want to be a grown up
i wanna be a kid
life gets worse as i get older
wish i was still a kid


how did we get so tall?
things were better back when we were small

can't watch the telly
until my plate is empty
i've turned my vegetables into mush

but i'm not stressing,
and i'm not learning my lesson,
on the comedown of a sugar rush


i don't want to be a grown up
i wanna be a kid
life gets worse as i get older
wish i was still a kid

i don't want to be a grown up
i wanna be a kid
life gets worse as i get older
maybe i'm better off dead...

how did we get so old?
when things were better back when we were
small

i was just a boy when i became a man
boy it's gotten way outta hand
growing up was never what i had in plan
but that's too bad, cuz no one gives a damn

i don't want to be a grown up
i wanna be a kid
life gets worse as i get older
wish i was still a kid

i wanna be a kid again
wish i was still a kid

POV: you just drank 3 cups of red cordial and are literally seeing through space and time

kerf track, mixed by ri

lately the light has gone out
it’s pitch black all around
it’s only a matter of time
when i try and see whats on the other side 

i’ve been pretending 
that this shit has meaning
and i cannot stand it
it’s tiring me out
there’s nothing you can do

why should i stay now
im trying to get out
its harder than it seems

The Song I Wrote Before I Swam with the Fishes

Lyrics and chords:
B-D-G-F# for the entire song, cut time feel in chorus section
(I don't sing half of these lyrics, just kinda sing what I want in the moment)

I don't talk to my friends anymore
I missed the boat and they just closed the door
In my face, I'm a disgrace and I don't know what to do or say
But I sit in my room crying every day

They call me Mr. Kill Myself
You stab me in the back and send me on straight to hell
They call me Mr. kill myself
While you stab me in the back and send me straight to hell

I stumble out my room, and I don't know what to do
Fresh cuts on my wrists and they're all cause of you
I know you're looking for something new

They call me Mr. Kill Myself
While you stab me in the back and send me straight to hell
They call me Mr. kill myself
While you stab me in the back and send me straight to hell

I'm just a kid who is trying to get along
And yet I still feel like I don't belong
My only lasting memory with be this shitty song

My pick is worn and my mind is tired
And the only thing in the world that I desire
Is to, hang myself, Mr kill myself
Stay me in the back and send me straight down to hell
They call me Mr. Kill Myself
While you stab me in the back and send me straight to hell
They call me Mr. Kill Myself
While you stab me in the back and send me straight to hell

POV: you just drank 3 cups of red cordial and are literally seeing through space and time

dumb as rocks