i wanted to post something, i havent posted in a while.., but im still making stuff.
hardly anything worth listening to unfortunately.. mostly short basic beats, melodies or shitposts. my last ep i made after feeling really suicidal and it almost feels like it drained my "creative energy," whatever that means. i wanted to make something before i decided to leave, but im still here. things are comparatively brighter now, but lonely.. as always..

its hard to make music, but that's not music's fault, doing anything is difficult for me.. its been difficult finding a reason to get out of bed for years now, and it's only been getting harder. only times i can get out of bed or do anything without wanting to quit 20 minutes in is when i take adderall LOL!

im unsure why i feel compelled to write this.. truly self pitiful behavior

self isolating because i have everyone and myself

self isolating because i hate everyone and myself

this is my new account my old account is kamov
(i really like surrend-t) 

self isolating because i hate everyone and myself

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