i'll be better off alone you just loved me for the concept~

this is one of my favorites 🔥❤️❤️

i can never trust a bitch cause they put me in my sorrows 😩

"is she slidin'?"

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

2 pints in the blue whip, right side 
l-left side that's my extra pipe
this bro got his hands on his gun
you ain't that guy (x2)
got it from the mud yeah i got it outside
wanna manage my shit is you worth my time 
bitch take a hint, hit a kid offline
i just flipped a bag and i bought red wine

when i get my money what do i do with it?
pay my dues back then i'm through with it
replace all my thoughts what you do with it?
replacing my thoughts no you ruined it
um
hi
you don't wanna fuck up my vibe
unchained the things that live in my mind
same thing you do to me all the time
my pain's the only thing on your mind

so prove me wrong
sew your lips up and your tongue
tar in my lungs
hand held high don't give a fuck
so baby set it up 
we'll get high we'll run it up
come say wassup
i'm too high to give a fuck

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

2 pints in the blue whip, right side 
l-left side that's my extra pipe
this bro got his hands on his gun
you ain't that guy (x2)
got it from the mud yeah i got it outside
wanna manage my shit is you worth my time 
bitch take a hint, hit a kid offline
i just flipped a bag and i bought red wine

you're life's shit bitch i bet it is 
walked outta my crib fit is vetements
know you gave your number but i forgetted it 
know you gave me your name but bitch i forgetted it
and it ain't never what you said it is
just wait while i take my sedatives 
ima break the bank like a president 
ima break the state as a denizen

so prove me wrong
sew your lips up and your tongue
tar in my lungs
hand held high don't give a fuck
so baby set it up 
we'll get high we'll run it up
come say wassup
i'm too high to give a fuck

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

red wine (prod. jean parker)

tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow </3

this song was absolutely horrific to mix, but im glad it came out alright so i can re-publish it with the world once more :)

thank you @itschrismarek for sending this beat thru, cheers to more bangers in the near future <3

lyrics:

every time we talk tryna figure out the problem
then you take me off your phone kinda difficult to solve em
i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow
i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow

now i feel so hollow
tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 

yeah you left me in the cold and it’s difficult to process
that you left me all alone and i’m flooded in your nonsense
i’ll be better off alone you just loved me for the concept
i’ll be better off alone you just loved me for the concept

now i’m always harming
now i’m always harming
i just wanna be alone yeah you left me in the cold 
i’m not picking up the phone cuz you won’t be calling

(now i feel so hollow)
(tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow)
(i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows)
(i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows)

every time we talk tryna figure out the problem
then you take me off your phone kinda difficult to solve em
i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow
i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow

now i feel so hollow
tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 

now i feel so hollow
tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 

(every time we talk tryna figure out the problem)
(then you take me off your phone kinda difficult to solve em)
(i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow)
(i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow)


if ur still reading this ily :)

all plats

sorrows [prod. chrismarek]

you're all i ever loved....

hope u guys enjoy the song, this one is rly meaningful to me

HUGE thanks to @itschrismarek for going crazy on the beat as always <3

lyrics:

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

when i thought i hit my best, we’re breaking up
every time i try to go to rest, i’m thinking of
all the times we had
thinking of all the times we had

i know i know 
i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo
i’ll be doing this on my own, my own
don’t wanna hear you fucking call

(i’m numb)
(i been so damn numb)
(from the day you said “we’re done”)
(you’re all i ever loved)
(you’re all i ever loved)

guess you’re right i need help cuz i’m not alright 
playing with the cards that she dealt hurting down inside
i been getting sick of it, i don’t even wanna try

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

i’m numb
i been so damn numb
from the day you said “we’re done”
you’re all i ever loved
you’re all i ever loved

(i know i know)
(i’ll be sitting on a silo, silo)
(i’ll be doing this on my own, my own)
(don’t wanna hear you fucking call)

if ur still reading this ily :)

sick of it [prod. chrismarek]

BURNING IN THE DANGERS OF THE LIFE I WANTTTTT

hope u guys like this one, put a lot of emotion into it

HUGE shoutout to @b_murph for the fucking amazing feature ily dawggg

lyrics:

(oh, ohhhh)

i been tryna right my wrongs
turning to an angel in the sky i fall
burning in the dangers of the life i want 
never been a stranger to the life in the dark

i want another chance
i want a motherland
i fall in love again 
(i fall, i- i- i fall)

one step too close to the edge
now im falling back down, yeah
im falling in love again
but you're not from the motherland
im in love with a motherfucking demon

i hide the cuts on my wrist, promise im just tryna feel sum (something)
she said that she loves me but she said she never feels nun (nothing)
i hide all my pain with tequila and some white rum
the closer that we get the more i just wanna run

so tell me your intentions before i give me all to you
cause i dont wanna lose you, like i always fucking do

i been tryna right my wrongs
turning to an angel in the sky i fall
burning in the dangers of the life i want 
never been a stranger to the life in the dark

i want another chance
i want a motherland
i fall in love again 
(i fall, i- i- i fall)

angel w/ bmurph [prod. branwen]

:(

thank u @itschrismarek for the amazing beat ily dawg 

hope u guys like this btw, tried summ different 

lyrics:

cut my wrists and burn me down
you’re all i think about
you’re all i think about
you’re an angel from the clouds

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

(i gave you all the fucking world)

did you miss me?
cuz you left me with these scars like i was sixteen
fucking crying in the car and sippin whiskey
i remember all the times you would kiss me
that you would kiss me

ohhh
i don’t wanna fall
all the time i lost
tryna find my love

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way
i gave you all the fucking world
i guess you’ll never feel the same 
i’m done with all these fucking girls
i never wanna feel this way

feel the same [prod. chrismarek]

happy birthday to me :)

out of everything i dropped this year this song was defs my favorite so enjoy the slow, sad version. thank u to everyone who made 17 the best year i ever had <33

thank u @itschrismarek for producing this, we the best duo in the state fr hehe 

alsooo i plan on venturing far from my roots this year. expect some rly sad, alternative sounds.

woebegone </3

feel the same [og]

IM DROWNING IN MY PAIN AGAIN AND HIDING WITH THE DRUGSSSSSS

@zupehr i am literally SO FUCKING GLAD we tapped in again. i missed workin with u so much dawg, everything we make is super deep and our vibe is just gjdhjgdjhkg so good ily brobro

i went to war with myself mixing this so ur welcome for posting this btw lol

lyrics:

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

i been fighting
but the razor blade is looking so inviting
all the memories we made are coinciding 
in my brain again my skin is just dividing

fuckin it up and i just blame it on the timing 
nobody loves a man without a silver lining
down to my gut i feel that i won’t be surviving 
covered in cuts i been a mess that i been hiding 

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

fuck love
i’ll never be enough
i’m drowning in my pain again and hiding with the drugs 
i’m like, “the fuck’s up?”
you never told me wrong
i blame myself for everything and hide it in a song

i don’t know what’s wrong with me like right now 
i keep on loving and loving right out
i keep on falling and falling back down
i keep on falling and falling back down

hiding [prod. zupehr x sadpra]

@ilysora </3

thank u for listening, this song means a lot to both me and sora

sc only :)

o ya btw i was like 15 when i made this hook lol i know it’s mid

for us w/ ilysora [prod. luciid x jkei]

Wrote this about my cancellation, and the rut I've been in because of so. Love you guys <3

I keep on wishing for someone,
I'm so sick of feeling like no one.
And you do not know who you've become;
At least now I'm working on who I am.

I’m Human, Wish I Wasn’t.

at this rate 
i don't think there's a chance of you coming this way
this way
i cant fucking sit straight
and all the while were going 
play with my emotions its okay its okay

i feel numb i feel sick
i might tat up on my rips
leave the pain you caused in yesterday
ill find another bitch

i might quit i might dip
i just stack up all my chips
they dont like how i carry myself
they dont like how i live

they just dont see things how we see
need new beginnings how we leave
shawty got scars all on her wrist
we stay up all night smoking reefer

you know it's fucked when you bleed first
if she keeps me nothing gets worse :)

sorrows [prod. chrismarek]

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