this song means alot to me because i've never talked about growing up like this before :) i hope you guys like it <3

again tyty @kaihaunted for the amazing art, it means a lot to me 
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hometown, head down 
walk around, never make a sound, yeah 
8 now, drugged out
every thought in my head is too loud 
on the corner of stumbling to the fucking bottom 
blue pill, red pill, too many fucking bottles 
gone now, and i found 
that this anxiety is killing me now 
13, no dreams 
just trying to get by by any means 
fake smiles, and routines
no one knows what's going on behind the scenes 
never thought i would end up being so pessimistic 
cause i keep breaking myself just to never go and fix it 
no sleep, and i see 
that all i needed was to go and be free

4000 people out here 
thank god i left it that year 
all keep their heads in the mirror 
and their peaks are closer than they appear 
hometown of zombies and ghosts 
fled west, oh i had to go 
got tired of everyone holding back on finding their growth 

19, come spring
i got stuck in the in-between, yeah 
no job, no keys
but i know i wanna be something 
paying rent with loan, i'm feeling so dependent 
start missing my home, and everybody in it 
pain stings, the sound rings
but back home, at least they're in the swings of things 

4000 people out there
at least their visions are clear 
i keep my head in the mirror 
and my peak is closer than it appears
hometown of zombies and ghosts
at least their heads are afloat 
got tired of looking back, wish that i had kept finding my growth

can i ask u some questions?

hometown

written and co-produced by me
produced by @swazyhq and @impursuit
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used to be so caught up in you, oh,
i've given up and now i'm running to the hills, cause i've lost the thrill
stuck in a hole, i don't know what to do, oh
i try to numb and look for something new to feel, but there's nothing real, and now i'm

discombobulated
i kept my hand in the fire, and now i'm getting so tired of this, (i'm feeling jaded)
i guess i'll keep getting higher, cause now i know you're a liar 
and shit, i'm devastated
i'm stuck in my room alone, i wish you'd pick up the phone, 
i feel the patience dissipating and now,

the sparks gone, there's no song, you finally won 
it's not fun, i'm struggling, was it something i'd done?
i'm not strong, nothing inside, my heart you had robbed 
the songs of love that i had, don't mean a thing anymore 
x2

losing a pulse, i need to take a breath, oh 
feel a convulsion running through my chest again, haven't slept again 
drowning my paper in a pool of lead, oh
pull me around like i'm a marionette, again
do you remember when you and me would 

stay up late, we're singing 
you said that i misconstrued it, you didn't think when you threw it away, 
my head is ringing, 
and now i'm feeling so stupid, i wish i hadn't went through it 
but hey, i'll stick to drinking 
the bottles always my friend, i know i'm drowning again 
but it's better than remembering, now it's different because

the sparks gone, there's no song, you finally won 
it's not fun, i'm struggling, was it something i'd done?
i'm not strong, nothing inside, my heart you had robbed 
the songs of love that i had, don't mean a thing anymore 
x2

feresy

infatuation (prod. polar & 31sentinel)

come around (goodbyex2002)

produced by nextime

lyrics

u dont let me talk abt it
u steal off my colour palette
im still havin dreams abt it
re routed my brain so i dont see ur palette

huh
im over u
ive got nothing left tht i owe to u

its over me its over u
dont bend our truth 2 favour u

saw u in colour i aint seen b4
3 tabs in this is too much more
dont ignore my open door
my muscles seize my eyes r sore

plug load me up b4 im out the door
im remaining calm cant last 4 long
all i see is white when i sleep
ya dmts ruined me
who wants 2 dream when their psyched up
talk big
dont let em know the real u
everyone use who they know
only friends w you when they know ur worth
hey man thats not even bad ive meetin worse

palette p. nextime

moment

prod. @claudesdiary and @assperrr

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i took that photograph of us on the couch
said things were perfect, took the words from my mouth
we got too close and then you told me about 
all the guys in your mind, but i'm not one of them
told me come over, cause you miss when he's there
get lost and try to find my way through your stare
i’d give you everything you wanted, i swear 
worth a try? never mind, overstepping again 

slow down time, i wanna cherish it all 
hold the line, cause i still pray for your call 
sit outside, and watch the stars till we fall
fast asleep, do you think maybe there could be a glimpse?
i have dreams of hoping i could be him 
your namesake, walking over me again 
split between someone you love and a friend 
i'd let you know, but i'm worried that you and me would end

i tolerate the internal pain 
cause i love the way that you say my name 
my heart would break if i stopped the chase 
cause you're worth it babe, i can't quit the race 
we'll never change, if you felt the same 
cause i love the way that we'd sit and lay 
forget everything, i can't stop the chase 
cause you're worth it babe, my heart's yours to take 

girl i don't think these feelings'll ever change
but if i gotta i’d suppress it away 
so if you'd let me, i could be something great 
not a guy that'll lie, swear i'm not one of them 
love where we are, but we could be so much more 
i’d make you mine if you'd just open the door
i apologize, baby it's something i can't ignore 
over time, hope it's fine, and we'll keep being friends

slow down time, i wanna cherish it all 
hold the line, cause i still pray for your call 
sit outside, and watch the stars till we fall
i’d say it all but i'm worried that things wouldn't make sense

i tolerate the internal pain 
cause i love the way that you say my name 
my heart would break if i stopped the chase 
cause you're worth it babe, i can't quit the race 
we'll never change, if you felt the same 
cause i love the way that we'd sit and lay 
forget everything, i can't stop the chase 
cause you're worth it babe, my hearts your's to take

chase

chase (prod. claude & asperr)

a song i made about hating the cold and having depression lmao

shoutout michael for being that guy
shoutout aspect n heyrick for beat
yay

lyrics:

i hate the cold and you hate it too
i wish that i could be with you
if we wanted to, do this together
remember the times that we felt better

and now we don't
i feel alone
i fucking miss you don't be long
i don't like when you're gone
cus i don't know where you are
come back cus i can't fucking restart

i hate the cold and you hate it too
and you hate it too
remember all the fucking times i texted you
i'll play it cool
cus we can do this together
i really wanna die i hate this weather x2

oooowoahhhhh

really really wanna see you by my side
oh, is it really worth being alive
i just wanna survive for the night
just so i can look into those beautiful eyes

you tell beautiful lies
but we should never fight
i just wanna live my own fucking life
at the end of the night
i just wanna go cry
but you always know that-

i hate the cold and you hate it too
and you hate it too
remember all the fucking times i texted you
i'll play it cool
cus we can do this together
i really wanna die i hate this weather x2

oooowoahhhhh

hate the cold (aspect + heyrick)

so this is off of my old PC which broke and i lost all the files :p so if mix sounds weird that why,,..hoppeeee u enjoy(:
presave fisheye !!! ffm.to/fisheye

(shoutout @youngburial @dead4cf for gettin on <3)

codependent w/fatse & 4cf (xmichaelwarren)

sum light 4 today
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/stillu-4
thank u @prod.bended on instagram for picture

feresy

Dylan Longworth

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