Bro this is amazing 🙏keep up the good work g 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

you're 16? god blessed you with a mature voice damn

Everone cant be blamed for what they do ❤️

I've been listening to this since the summer and everytime I listen to it ,it never dissapoints me

🔥 song is fire, deep and real! Keep the momentum and never stop lil homie!

go follow @rxseboy :)

yeah, listen close to my words, yeah
i'm a ghost, but it hurts, yeah
i got thrown to the curb, uh
all alone it's a curse, yeah
put my soul in a verse, whoa
they don't know how it works, yeah
i've been searching for a new life
see the stepping stones in the dirt? Yeah
i want everyone to love me
i want everyone to trust me
not gonna happen
i think about this every day
and dream about it every night
what am I lacking?
conversations in the mirror
no one there up in the rear view
driving alone
got no music playing when I'm steering
hope you like it when you hear it, yeah

why don’t you let me leave
i need some peace got a weight that’s on top of me
am i numb or depressed
as my feelings suggest 
eel like nobody wanted me
i can’t eat but i’m hungry
my body is numbing
don’t know what keeps stopping me
i’m finished i tried fixing a problem
i’m sticking to running anxiety coursing right through me
this shit don’t happen like shit in the movies
i should’ve expected to keep me protected
i had faith in an ending that’s happy
starting to notice that often don’t happen
i’m tired of fighting the feelings i have in my body
then saying im good when im asked
the truth is im upping my dosage
i smoke every day to feel okay and put on a mask
i wanted a love but it came with a tag
i wanted to smile but i’m breaking my back
put energy in just to get nothing back
i’m not falling asleep like an insomniac
i’m losing my patience
i stare at the ceiling my life being wasted
but i’m never changing
hope when you hear it gets harder to face it

yeah, listen close to my words, yeah
i'm a ghost, but it hurts, yeah
i got thrown to the curb, uh
all alone it's a curse, yeah
put my soul in a verse, whoa
they don't know how it works, yeah
i've been searching for a new life
see the stepping stones in the dirt? Yeah
i want everyone to love me
i want everyone to trust me
not gonna happen
i think about this every day
and dream about it every night
what am I lacking?
conversations in the mirror
no one there up in the rear view
driving alone
got no music playing when I'm steering
hope you like it when you hear it, yeah

@rxseboy- i'm a ghost but it hurts cover/remix (prod. ocean)

who's gonna catch me..?

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falling right back (prod. ocean)

Star

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

Upside Down in the Backseat

Upside Down in the Backseat (feat. Jomie)

STREAM/SPOTIFY

written by Lxst Boy & Giovanni
produced by Boyfifty & Ayleen Valentine 
mixed and mastered by Giovanni
out on all platforms

thanks for all the support on the old version 💙
shoutout Matthias, love u bro

-lyrics-
(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
I'm sorry that I let you down
it's probably cause I sleep too much
and every time that you're around
there's always something wrong

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
late nights and talks with my conscience
lately i been feeling nauseous
I write songs so call me off topic
lowkey wanna tell them to stop it
I'll just get walked on
I'm feeling that way like non-stop
I'm sorry I'm an outcast wait no I'm not
but I let you down whenever I talk
I'm feeling like a 9tails knockoff
I came from the sewers then the time stopped
im running around in circles in my thoughts
the clock winding down, hear the tick tock
when I'm locked in my room
I'm feeling the tension
record at my desk
these lyrics unscripted
writing these songs
that you'll never listen
cause you never cared
I'm a solo mission woah
uh I wanna talk
without feeling guilty
I need a shower
you making me filthy
blood stains the wall
you know that you killed me
its cold in my room
and at night it gets chilly
I wanna talk
but every time I do my heartstrings in a knot
in getting tired of writing these songs
and day by day 
you wouldn't tell me what's wrong
yeah

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
 
(Verse 2: Giovanni)
where am i goin, what do i got 
i feel so lonely, everyone stop
want you to hold me, damn i forgot 
what it was like, i feel distraught 
i let you down and watched you depart
now everything’s loud and i’m caught in the dark
like i’m in the dirt, buried with the worms 
and that is the funniest fuckin part
cause what did we say together
all of those times, that you let me down
tell the words that we sang together
everything’s fine, we’ll be alright 
we’ll fuckin stand in the rain together 
i don’t mean to cry, but why did you lie
remind me again why stayed together 

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)

Let You Down w/ Giovanni & Ayleen Valentine (boyfifty)

Lyrics... 

My fate is sealed I don’t know what to do 
I been contemplating everything while locked in my room
I revolve around hate and I’ve been paying my dues
But I think I’m too late it’ll have me end in a tomb
Anyone can be snake and they never teach
That’s why you never see me trust they all deceased
So I’ve been taking pills I admit defeat
Honestly I’ll take it anything at all if it helps me to sleep

That’s the cards that were dealt 
And I’m sorry but my body I can feel breaking down
My mind ain’t any better I’m deceiving myself
And It’s funny cause the money yeah can’t buy my health
I need help
I need it bad
Mentally and physically I don’t have money to spend
Ain’t that crazy cause Every penny go to family and friends and that’s why I say I’m quitting music I like it but I’ll prolly be dead

I’m fucking tired
I’m so tired
I’m tired and honestly I think my time has expired
I’m fucking tired
I’m so tired 
I’m tired and honestly I think my time has expired

feeling well 
I ain’t been feeling well
And I’m done with trying to talk I only bring people down
Seems I fuck up everything I swear I’m destined to failI
I’m breathing regret every time I fucking inhale

Moving on I can’t
Man I’m trying but my mind is stuck back in the past
I’d be lying if dying didnt seem that bad
I’m writing the facts I’m fucking fighting for this 
I give my life but that shit wouldn’t last

Yeah I’m giving my best but still want me to change
Man I’m trying to change
And I hate when they tell me I’ll see better days
Man that shit never came
Half of the help I’m getting feeling it’s fake

Fake as a bitch
I’ve been pushing but my mind it can’t handle this shit
I’ve been battling depression ever since just a kid
I’m a shell I’ve been broken and I’m sorry I got nun left to give

Honestly, I'm tired (prod. 4lexf)

feature: matego // produced by: caps ctrl & xsus

my last goodbye w/ matego (Caps Ctrl & Xsus)

Rxseboy - Not Alright

this song means a lot to me,  so hope yall enjoy<3
also last release for a while since ill be super busy
love yall<3

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: @boyfifty

lyrics:
i didnt care, you were showing off,
yea no wonder we never blasted off,
you went with him with no care in the world,
but didnt look back to see what had unfurled,
dont look at me with those eyes and those curls,
you were my world,
but now i sit back cause i know that its over,
and through it all, yea i kept my composure,
tried so hard just to work it out, yea,
but you didnt want that,
you needed a reason to leave cause i wasnt special to you, and you got that,
but now that you want that,
what others cant give you,
but hey i was on that,
i gave you the world when you would wake up, 
dont say you forgot that,

(vocalize)

i didnt care, you were showing off,
but now it has come back to haunt me,
wish i could sleep with the ceiling off,
instead the memories surround me,
make it so hard to breath,
my sweat is soaking my sleeve,
i wont lose the fight to my conscious,
the next time she ups and leaves,
beat myself up for no reason,
i know im worth something,
but when im misused i just cant see it,
think im worth nothing,
you used to say i was pure gold,
but now where are you that ive been told,
that you didnt care a bit,
so ill find somewhere my heart will fit

no wonder (prod. boyfifty)

I Guess Im The Reason Why

Just a 17 year old trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

Honestly, I'm tired (prod. 4lexf)

Dysphoric

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