Suicidal

Underrated sad songs

Idgaf

Sadboihours

4 my grandma and grandpa i miss you so much rest up..
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/03Nx63Qf5HnqGF3KkGIJ6l?si=f5dbae1f019a45b9

feat. @iriasona 
prod. @yuseiworld
mixed by @jooosuph

[lyrics]
my grandma died a couple days ago this shits been on my mind
life is beautiful until the people all around you die 
now youre tryna talk to ghosts standing to your left and right 
my grandfather died 2 weeks they told me he be fine 
i couldnt see her for the final time her funerals tonight
i hope that woman knows i love her and ill keep her soul alive 
ive been out my head so long im tryna find some peace of mind 
but when people die it gets hard to even realign 
crazy isnt it we lose people then appreciate we livin 
thtas the shit that makes you sit back n then realize life is twisted 
120 people die inside this life in a minute 
i was told appreciate the ones around me and i didnt 
now their bodys in a coffin n its where theyre always sittin 
i dont even know what i would say if to they graves i visit 
id apologize for everything i ever did n didnt 
with my arms around their tombstones i would tell em that i miss em 

everyone inside my life that loved me i just pushed away 
thats the reason i got stuck inside my ways and never changed 
 we tendto only miss the sun when were walkin through the rain 
mac is always callin me tellin me ill see better days 
i go manic and panic n ask if shit'll ever change 
he was fuckin with me when my distro checks were only change
hes my brother but hes like a father to me in the strangest ways 
the only one inside my life thats tryna help me find a way 
my houses is lookin haunted cause these walls is what i talk to 
everyone around me always dies or they want to 
it sucks when someone dies but even more when they haunt you 
but i dont need sympathy for the shit that ive gone through 
cause any situation presented ive always fought through 
me myself and i sometimes is all i got dude 
keep going life is beautiful youll see it soon you got to 
appreciate the ones around you cause we'll all be gone soon

Walking Through The Rain ft. iriasona (prod. Yusei)

Insecurities

LYRICS:

I'M ON EMPTY
I BEEN DYIN' IN THE BACK SEAT
SAID IT NEVER GOT BETTER 'CAUSE IT'S ON ME
I NEVER TRUST MYSELF
I SHOULD DO WHAT I'M TOLD 'FOR I KILL MYSELF
WANNA WASTE MY TIME
TELL 'EM I'M FINE
I WASN'T READY FOR YOU TO FUCK UP MY LIFE
TALK 'BOUT ME CAUSE I'M ALL SHE SEE
WELL TELL 'EM I'M FINE

YOU ACT LIKE EITHER OF US MEANT THAT
IT'S NOT MY FAULT YOU COULDN'T ACT RIGHT
IT'S NOT LIKE
I TRIED TO
'CAUSE BABY YOU'D BE DEAD IF I HURT YOU

OH MY GOD
I DON'T WANNA TAKE MY TIME
TELL ME THAT I'M RIGHT
I DON'T THINK THAT YOU GET IT 'CAUSE I MIGHT
'CAUSE YOU WENT OVER MY HEAD
'CAUSE EVERY MESSAGE I SENT
IT MEANT LIKE, I'M IN THE WRONG PLACE BUT DON'T REALLY MIND SPACE
TELL ME HOW IT WENT SO WELL 'CAUSE I'LL STAY

FIGURE IT OUT CAUSE IT'S ALL NOT PERFECT
GIVE IT A YEAR AND I'LL MAKE ME WORTH IT

COME MEET MY ONLY FRIEND
HE'S NOT REAL BUT I'LL PRETEND
HE HATES ME SO MUCH MORE
BUT NONE OF THAT HURTS 'CAUSE IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD
I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING
AND I STILL WATCH YOU TEXTING HIM
I HATE YOU I CAN'T MAKE YOU FEEL THIS WAY FUCKING WHAT DO I SAY

BACK SEAT [PROD. YUNGSPOILER]

Two Moons

short song that everyone is trying to find :)

have you ever wondered why i look so tired

Kylesimps - S.I.M.P ft. Double a ron (Briskii remix) perfected

Swappin oxygen with smoke in my chest
You can see it everytime i take a breath 
In the depths seein death to the right and the left 
In the night gettin High while I’m lightin up cess
Til the day that I die my mind ain’t findin rest 
You don’t know  shit bout the lives that I led 
If I died right here it’d be my 89th
death 
Ash in the path on the floor where I step 
gettin high passin time in the mourge with my dead 
Died and found death then was forced to forget 
Used to want a family got orphaned instead 
On the floor where I bled where the poor only tread 
Fuckin with me then that’s Russian roulette 
With a full fuckin clip and a gun to ya head 
 My girl says Im smokin too much again 
In the graveyard lightin blunts for my  friends 
Please don’t forget who inspired these kids 
They said I’m fallin off then all their numbers stopped what a bitch irony is 
This governments showin a perfect example of what fuckin modern day tyranny is 
Might Stick a knife in this kid he keep eyein me bitch 
No matter how much I run from demons they seem to just find me again 
In my room thinking I’m better dying again 

At 15 I stayed in my room all adepressed  takin pills that were pressed now I’m overly stressed 
I’m bleedin can’t feel my heart beatin doc said he might have to rip open chest 
If I die don’t you cry just know it’s for the best 
Tell my son that I love em and I tried my best 
I know suicide ain’t designed for the rest 
And they’ll probably think that I’m weak when I’m dead 
But there’s enough life in the lines that I’ve left 
And the people inside of this life that I’ve met
To be someone who they couldn’t ever forget 
Just know I’m findin rest when I’m finally dead 
My girl wouldn’t feel like she should be if I was the one who was dead 
Without me always makin her stressed 
If my brain continues to function I hope that our memories fill up my head 
Atleast it would be like I ain’t even left 
In the graveyard there’s blood to the right and the left 
Ain’t felt alright in my mind or my head 
My whole life alright fine let’s just cut to the end 
In my dreams I’ve seen death almost 5miñlion times so if we talkin honestly what’s one more death 
Cigarettes mixed with cess while I grab on her breast
4 thousands nights we’ve stayed dead in this bed

isho 遺書(prod. farver & pizzle)

Loafers (prod. Sarcastic Sounds)

Toxic

LoveSick

@Lxwnely & @ma.rlowe on ig
SONG IS ON ALL PLATFORMS 🌹

wierdos w/ ma.rlowe

Hiding in the Dark - Jake Hill

We'll Meet Again ( s l o w e d + r e v e r b ) [TikTok Remix]

IDGAF

IDGAF (feat. blackbear)

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

Instagram - @dempseyrollboy 🚬

in a world of my own... 🖤💭

Invisible Chains

Heres a song about my struggle with physical abuse uwu 

Prod: @juniordbeats
Mixed: @lofeetunes & @planteee

Bruises (prod. jrd.)

Heres a song off my upcoming EP called Heartbreak & Bad Habits
hope you fuck with it
Kuzu Mellow: @kuzumellow
draffish: @draffish
art: @oddyssi

spotify!

Heartbreak ft. Kuzu Mellow (prod. draffish)

Powfu: @powfu
 Prod: @jeff-kaale
Instagram : www.instagram.com/jeffkaale/

twitter : https://twitter.com/jeff_kaale

SNAPCHAT : https://www.snapchat.com/add/jeffpsydevil

Facebook : https://www.facebook.com/Jeffkaale/

Look In Your Eyes ft. Powfu (prod. Jef)

sad uwu vibes...



Ivri: @ivrii
https://www.instagram.com/ivsounds/
original sog: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cExfETPKRYM
M.E: @user-949132137

Scars ft. Ivri (prod. M.E)

mental: @mental
kam michael: @kammichaelmusic

Pain ft. Kam Michael (prod. mental)

Walk Away (ft. Aiko & Teqkoi)

SadBoyProlific - Dear Momma

Rest In Peace Mr.A this ones for you.
produced by : @mental
mixed by :@kammichaelmusic

Gone But Not Forgotten... ft.Snøw (prod.mental)

LYRICS:

THE WAY SHE TALK TO ME IT MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHE AIN'T EVER KNOW ME
I WOKE UP AGAIN IF IT'S A REASON YOU CAN SHOW ME
SO FAR FEEL THE PAIN ON MY OWN
DRANK MORE FEEL IT BURNIN' MY THROAT

YEAH, FUCK HIM AND HIS FRIENDS TOO
WHEN I COME HOME I SWEAR TO GOD I BE ALONE BITCH
AND I GIVE NO FUCK BOUT' WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH
I'D BE OKAY TODAY IF I AIN'T EVER MET YOU

YEAH, MORE SHIT IN MY CUP
PASS OUT ON THE COUCH I PRAY DON'T EVER WAKE ME UP
I TOLD EM' EVERYTHING WAS FINE
I GIVE YOU MY SOUL IF YOU COULD PROVE I WASN'T LYING

I BEEN SOBER FOR A DAY NOW
I FEEL LIKE DYING EVERY FUCKING WORD YOU SAY NOW
THIS AIN'T WHAT LOVE SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE
I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING AND YOU AIN'T TRYNA SEE THAT

THE WAY SHE TALK TO ME IT MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHE AIN'T EVER KNOW ME
I WOKE UP AGAIN IF IT'S A REASON YOU CAN SHOW ME
SO FAR FEEL THE PAIN ON MY OWN
DRANK MORE FEEL IT BURNIN' MY THROAT

YEAH, FUCK HIM AND HIS FRIENDS TOO
WHEN I COME HOME I SWEAR TO GOD I BE ALONE BITCH
AND I GIVE NO FUCK BOUT' WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH
I'D BE OKAY TODAY IF I AIN'T EVER MET YOU

SPOTIFY

SOBER [PROD. KIRAW]

guitar by nate thomas

lyrics:

im afraid of being everything you thought id be and
when you look back at me i wish i knew the things youd see
and all i remember
out of december i came drinking more than i ever had
reason being you took me there

and i,
i dont feel
like i used to
i could use you
but it all come down when it ain't no reason left

and i know that im not perfect
but id argue who deserves it
i wasnt trying
i wasnt trying to fuck us up
and what do i say
to you

id rather not fight today
drinking my life away
staying up way too late
im telling you that you cant stay
but you dont wanna listen to the person that i was last week
im tryna show you how it end but you aint tryna see
cause we both 'gon burn

and i dont mind
cause i dont see you anymore
im killing time behind my door
i know i hurt myself in the worst way
hurt myself in the worst way
again

SORRY 4 THE LATE UPLOAD :(

LYRICS:

ONE TIME
FOR MY FRIENDS
KEEPING ME ALIVE BUT IT ALL 'GON END EVENTUALLY
AM I MEANT TO BE THIS WAY

I'M OK
BUT IT DON'T LOOK THAT WAY
WHEN I WAKE UP
DON'T KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS
BUT THAT BREAK UP
IT NEVER HURT LIKE THIS

I NEVER PAID FOR THE SHIT THAT I DID
IF I DON'T GET HELP FUCK A BREAK IMA QUIT
I'M ANYONES HELL BUT YOU'RE MAKING ME SICK
AND NOTHING I SELL'S 'BOUTTA PAY FOR THE SHIT
I AIN'T DEAD YET BUT I'M TRYIN' MY BEST
NEVER 'BOUTTA MAKE IT I'M THE ONLY ONE LEFT
YOU AIN'T TRYNA HEAR ABOUT THE SHIT THAT I KEPT
NOTHING MAKES SENSE BUT IT'S BURNING MY CHEST

I'M KILLING MYSELF BUT MY BRAIN ON 10
AND AIN'T NOBODY KNOW HOW AFRAID I AM
IT ALL GET WORSE WHEN THE SUN GO DOWN
AND POUR IT ALL OUT 'TILL MY HEAD 'GON DROWN

AND I'M OVERDUE FOR MY EXPIRATION
YOU HATED ME BUT YOU'D NEVER SAY SHIT

I'M KILLING MYSELF BUT MY BRAIN ON 10
AND AIN'T NOBODY KNOW HOW AFRAID I AM

ON 10

prod by. @kadowav
Instagram: @seon_47
@lilxtraatl

SEON
Depressions hitting 
It’s getting worst and I can’t seem to listen 
To the voice inside my that head tell me I can make a difference 
Cause I’m stuck inside the ones that tell me I should not be living 
Well It’s hard to see the beauty when I’m caught in tunnel vision 

do I like to feel this way 
It’s like I’m searching for the pain 
Cause I know if I wanna change 
Then it would have to start today 

But I’m lazy and I’d rather waste my time inside my bed 
I’m Contemplating over words that I just wish I never said 
And All the texts that I would send her that I wish you never read 
Cause I’d be lying if I told you that I wish I wasn’t dead 

All I gots a little hope 
That ones day I won’t be alone 
And that the pain will fade and go 
But how am I supposed to know 

Because there’s nothing in this life that is a promise 
I really hope if I would grab the rope then somebody would stop it 

Lil Xtra 
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse 

I left a message on your phone I really hope that you reply 
I know for you it’s not important 
But for me it’s do or die
I wonder why I’m in this place
Why you’d tell me to my face 
That I’m the cause of all your problems and I’m taking up your space
Or how you air that you breath 
Was not created for me 
I’ve got some problems now you watching while I ruin everything 
I’ve got a question 
How I never seem to learn my lesson 
How I never  grasp the point 
Only grab the Smith and Wesson
 
I keep a thousand yard stare and it’s 
Apparent that my family named perished i’m a fucking embarrassment
When a single good day is an event it’s like a miracle 
I’m  getting off cymbalta now and starting on the seroquil
But honestly that I need a little space to breath 
A way to clear my mind And learn to live with my deficiencies 
A shame I turn to substances to cope I know it’s rough to see 
A life devoid of purpose filled with pain is not enough for me 
 






SEON
But I’ll be stuck with my mistakes
I wear my heart up on my sleeve  
So everybody could just see 
Where I’ve been cut and left to bleed 

All the scars and open wounds 
That I’ve been trying hard to heal 
Like all the memories of us that I just wish someone would steal

My insecurities are bound to get the best me 
But maybe when I will be dead then I will finnaly rest in peace 
Cause lately i can’t seem to ever find a way fall asleep 
The Nightmares running through my head but I don’t think I even dream 

Afraid of who I was knowing that he never far behind
Creep lll into mind and tell me i will never be alright 
There no way I can find someone to ever fill me up inside 
I’m broken losing hope you don’t see my life a living lie 

The smiles on my face 
And All the words that I will say
To make them finnaly go away 
I even said I’m doing great 

I know you know it isn’t true 
You see what I been going through
It is never shocking news 
When I will play this song to you

Lil Xtra
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

Dysphoric