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Insecurities

something simple | feat. mishaal (prod. apes prod)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

produced by the bootleg boy
Check him out! @thebootlegboy
Twisted up in my imagination...

out of my head

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

written by Lxst Boy & Giovanni
produced by Boyfifty & Ayleen Valentine 
mixed and mastered by Giovanni
out on all platforms

thanks for all the support on the old version 💙
shoutout Matthias, love u bro

-lyrics-
(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
I'm sorry that I let you down
it's probably cause I sleep too much
and every time that you're around
there's always something wrong

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
late nights and talks with my conscience
lately i been feeling nauseous
I write songs so call me off topic
lowkey wanna tell them to stop it
I'll just get walked on
I'm feeling that way like non-stop
I'm sorry I'm an outcast wait no I'm not
but I let you down whenever I talk
I'm feeling like a 9tails knockoff
I came from the sewers then the time stopped
im running around in circles in my thoughts
the clock winding down, hear the tick tock
when I'm locked in my room
I'm feeling the tension
record at my desk
these lyrics unscripted
writing these songs
that you'll never listen
cause you never cared
I'm a solo mission woah
uh I wanna talk
without feeling guilty
I need a shower
you making me filthy
blood stains the wall
you know that you killed me
its cold in my room
and at night it gets chilly
I wanna talk
but every time I do my heartstrings in a knot
in getting tired of writing these songs
and day by day 
you wouldn't tell me what's wrong
yeah

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)
 
(Verse 2: Giovanni)
where am i goin, what do i got 
i feel so lonely, everyone stop
want you to hold me, damn i forgot 
what it was like, i feel distraught 
i let you down and watched you depart
now everything’s loud and i’m caught in the dark
like i’m in the dirt, buried with the worms 
and that is the funniest fuckin part
cause what did we say together
all of those times, that you let me down
tell the words that we sang together
everything’s fine, we’ll be alright 
we’ll fuckin stand in the rain together 
i don’t mean to cry, but why did you lie
remind me again why stayed together 

(Hook: Ayleen Valentine)

Let You Down w/ Giovanni & Ayleen Valentine (boyfifty)

Invisible Chains

feature: matego // produced by: caps ctrl & xsus

my last goodbye w/ matego (Caps Ctrl & Xsus)

I Could Stay For Days (feat. Lxst Boy) [prod. Mist3r]

Rxseboy - Not Alright

this song means a lot to me,  so hope yall enjoy<3
also last release for a while since ill be super busy
love yall<3

written and performed by: @futoh
mix and mastered by: @futoh
produced by: @boyfifty

lyrics:
i didnt care, you were showing off,
yea no wonder we never blasted off,
you went with him with no care in the world,
but didnt look back to see what had unfurled,
dont look at me with those eyes and those curls,
you were my world,
but now i sit back cause i know that its over,
and through it all, yea i kept my composure,
tried so hard just to work it out, yea,
but you didnt want that,
you needed a reason to leave cause i wasnt special to you, and you got that,
but now that you want that,
what others cant give you,
but hey i was on that,
i gave you the world when you would wake up, 
dont say you forgot that,

(vocalize)

i didnt care, you were showing off,
but now it has come back to haunt me,
wish i could sleep with the ceiling off,
instead the memories surround me,
make it so hard to breath,
my sweat is soaking my sleeve,
i wont lose the fight to my conscious,
the next time she ups and leaves,
beat myself up for no reason,
i know im worth something,
but when im misused i just cant see it,
think im worth nothing,
you used to say i was pure gold,
but now where are you that ive been told,
that you didnt care a bit,
so ill find somewhere my heart will fit

no wonder (prod. boyfifty)

Lelo - Rush (Prod. Kj2turntt)

I never left that classroom
Your ankles on my shoulders
Bodies turning over
And over again
Pitting flesh against flesh
I could scream if you didn't take away my breath
While we were touching, teasing, tasting, taking
And I could already feel my heart break
And still I burnt out my lungs on words like "forever"
And now that I'm older I guess I know better

I gave you the very best parts of me
What little I had to offer
So you can go home 
And I'll get stoned
And we'll forget about the heart inside your locker

Neighbor

prod by. @kadowav
Instagram: @seon_47
@lilxtraatl

SEON
Depressions hitting 
It’s getting worst and I can’t seem to listen 
To the voice inside my that head tell me I can make a difference 
Cause I’m stuck inside the ones that tell me I should not be living 
Well It’s hard to see the beauty when I’m caught in tunnel vision 

do I like to feel this way 
It’s like I’m searching for the pain 
Cause I know if I wanna change 
Then it would have to start today 

But I’m lazy and I’d rather waste my time inside my bed 
I’m Contemplating over words that I just wish I never said 
And All the texts that I would send her that I wish you never read 
Cause I’d be lying if I told you that I wish I wasn’t dead 

All I gots a little hope 
That ones day I won’t be alone 
And that the pain will fade and go 
But how am I supposed to know 

Because there’s nothing in this life that is a promise 
I really hope if I would grab the rope then somebody would stop it 

Lil Xtra 
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse 

I left a message on your phone I really hope that you reply 
I know for you it’s not important 
But for me it’s do or die
I wonder why I’m in this place
Why you’d tell me to my face 
That I’m the cause of all your problems and I’m taking up your space
Or how you air that you breath 
Was not created for me 
I’ve got some problems now you watching while I ruin everything 
I’ve got a question 
How I never seem to learn my lesson 
How I never  grasp the point 
Only grab the Smith and Wesson
 
I keep a thousand yard stare and it’s 
Apparent that my family named perished i’m a fucking embarrassment
When a single good day is an event it’s like a miracle 
I’m  getting off cymbalta now and starting on the seroquil
But honestly that I need a little space to breath 
A way to clear my mind And learn to live with my deficiencies 
A shame I turn to substances to cope I know it’s rough to see 
A life devoid of purpose filled with pain is not enough for me 
 






SEON
But I’ll be stuck with my mistakes
I wear my heart up on my sleeve  
So everybody could just see 
Where I’ve been cut and left to bleed 

All the scars and open wounds 
That I’ve been trying hard to heal 
Like all the memories of us that I just wish someone would steal

My insecurities are bound to get the best me 
But maybe when I will be dead then I will finnaly rest in peace 
Cause lately i can’t seem to ever find a way fall asleep 
The Nightmares running through my head but I don’t think I even dream 

Afraid of who I was knowing that he never far behind
Creep lll into mind and tell me i will never be alright 
There no way I can find someone to ever fill me up inside 
I’m broken losing hope you don’t see my life a living lie 

The smiles on my face 
And All the words that I will say
To make them finnaly go away 
I even said I’m doing great 

I know you know it isn’t true 
You see what I been going through
It is never shocking news 
When I will play this song to you

Lil Xtra
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse

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It Could Always Be Worse(ft. Lil Xtra)

Just a 17 year old trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

Dysphoric

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