writing songs and never getting rest (feat. Cavasoul)

i get no sleep
i'm chasing dreams while i'm in agony
my face is numb 
my head is bruised for something sensory
lay down defences 
fall fatigued only a moment away
all i need is for you to stay

agony w/ lyrah & splashgvng

Track to my father, from the perspective of me and my siblings :/

Why? (prod. Ras-Hop)

Lyrics

Focus on myself and my health
I need no one else to help out
since twelve I've been telling myself
we in different realms between heaven and hell
rebelled threw my dream in a well
it endlessly fell cant tell
if its mental abstinence or so abstract it dispelled

from the lies that my mind
so foolishly tries to disguise
told us we could do anything
but didn't mention the price
and even though I'm fifteen
it feels like I have no more time
only two more years to make it work
better get on the grind

I'm obnoxious and its where it starts
I pick my conscious part by part
I promise ill perfect this art
ill get a goddess lock her heart
before I start to think I've got to focus on mine
show I have a lack of empathy and fate intertwines

cause collage out the question
failed the whole year as a freshmen 
my priorities are inside out
not to mention that I'm stressing
grades and music contravention 
feels like my minds in distension
seems I've found another route
if rapping doesn't get me mentioned

cause after I'm a senior that's when this all drops
cause after I'm a senior's when this fantasy stops
of course I mean if this music thing decides to flop
pull my dream up from the well I don't wanna wake up

until then ill be working on the craft
I'm watching as the hour's pass
blocked and caught up for some hours
throwing out pages of drafts
going nowhere till I crash
inside my head is where I'm trapped
with my content feeling sour
constant fear of being last
do anything to meet contrast
reality's too far detached
inside my head there's no more space
the feeling is getting compact
surroundings I cant interact
dark energy is what I attract
something don't feel right these walls they about to collapse

I be here with my head in the clouds
dark energy surrounds around it almost enshrouds
demons telling me to limit my sound
thoughts telling me I should come down
unlike the walls I don't collapse
my mind shows no bounds

Nothings as it seems (prod. Roachy Beats)

Collaboration with : LxseR / Prod by micco. 
Lo-Fi Artists🥀

a message to my ex

a message to my ex w/ matego

Who Knew Such A Pretty Face Could Hurt w/futoh

this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain
what have i done
i got pain in my lungs 
no space in my chest my heart confined palpitation
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
i’m wrong
for thinking that i’m the only one
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
i couldn’t save you
couldn’t save you
what have i done?
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
i couldn't save you
couldn't save you
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
from everything that ever did me wrong
what have i done?
everything that ever did me wrong
run
from everything that ever did me wrong
this isn’t what i
wanted
i always end up as the problem
i know my music ain’t the same
since i stopped recording with a bottle
in my hand
i smoke more 
more high end
these highs end
with migraines
i cannot handle my brain
she said she’s sharing my pain

run from everything that ever did me wrong (prod. hero)

Warning Signs

written and performed by: @futoh
produced by: 4lexf
mix and mastered by: @futoh
———
don’t know what you’re holding on to.
———
lyrics:

girl you holding on to me, im yet to find out why,
i dont got redeeming qualities,
i barely go outside,
cant remember when you weren't here,
now i wish you weren't,
wish i could go back to simpler times without the torrent,
cause i seem to lose my grip again,
i cant take it,
when you go and disappear again,
dont think ill make it,
cause im feeling sick again,
caught up in whats not pretend,
wish youd go away,
but i hate when you with him again,
come back to my place,
we can talk about the little things,
at the right pace,
but i accelerate my heartbeat,
but you slowing down,
looking back i lost ground,
looking back i lost count,
of the times you said you over me,
yet you come back,
and im honestly so sick of it,
bout time that i consider it,
maybe we not meant to be,
we different like the land and sea,
living side by side,
but we always tend to disagree,
i never thought wed make,
both of us are jaded,
thats the only thing we hated,
we didnt wanna face it,
that we couldnt fix our faces,
cause we look into each other's eyes,
but the colors faded,
no soul left to heal,
just a wall made of steel,
protecting what is real,
from the fantasies of romance,
you were breaking down i could see it at a glance,
now i wish id left instead of giving you a chance,

tried to move on, but the time just stops,
im forced to look at pictures that ive kept in old socks,
i always wanna walk away,
but i never do it though,
yea looks like i lost my flow,
and i got no where to go
i dont got destination
yea just holding on to dreams i keep on chasing,
got no ambitions so no wonder i cant make em,
a reality where i can go obtain them
yea im losing myself,
by the day,
by the minute,
dig a deeper and then get caught in all the divots,
i got no game plan,
im just my own man,
praying every day, but i dont think i can,

holding on to nothing (prod. 4lexf)

i don't want to exist anymore

i'm making an ep and this is gonna be on it
the ep is called "Angel"
thanks for listening

Produced by Kcaaz
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXAzzCItZ91iCEUJbWqrAgA
Mixed and Mastered by @kammichaelmusic

End Times

Bad Days

Just a 17 year old trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

Nothings as it seems (prod. Roachy Beats)

Dysphoric

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