Lyrics

Focus on myself and my health
I need no one else to help out
since twelve I've been telling myself
we in different realms between heaven and hell
rebelled threw my dream in a well
it endlessly fell cant tell
if its mental abstinence or so abstract it dispelled

from the lies that my mind
so foolishly tries to disguise
told us we could do anything
but didn't mention the price
and even though I'm fifteen
it feels like I have no more time
only two more years to make it work
better get on the grind

I'm obnoxious and its where it starts
I pick my conscious part by part
I promise ill perfect this art
ill get a goddess lock her heart
before I start to think I've got to focus on mine
show I have a lack of empathy and fate intertwines

cause collage out the question
failed the whole year as a freshmen 
my priorities are inside out
not to mention that I'm stressing
grades and music contravention 
feels like my minds in distension
seems I've found another route
if rapping doesn't get me mentioned

cause after I'm a senior that's when this all drops
cause after I'm a senior's when this fantasy stops
of course I mean if this music thing decides to flop
pull my dream up from the well I don't wanna wake up

until then ill be working on the craft
I'm watching as the hour's pass
blocked and caught up for some hours
throwing out pages of drafts
going nowhere till I crash
inside my head is where I'm trapped
with my content feeling sour
constant fear of being last
do anything to meet contrast
reality's too far detached
inside my head there's no more space
the feeling is getting compact
surroundings I cant interact
dark energy is what I attract
something don't feel right these walls they about to collapse

I be here with my head in the clouds
dark energy surrounds around it almost enshrouds
demons telling me to limit my sound
thoughts telling me I should come down
unlike the walls I don't collapse
my mind shows no bounds

Nothings as it seems (prod. Roachy Beats)

Produced by Ocean 
Written and presented by cd. and Verzache

LYRICS
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[Hook: Verzache]
Mama always knew
Told me: "Tell the truth"
Lying makes you cold
Be good and heal your soul

[Verse 1: cd.]
I gave you a piece of my heart
you took it then ripped it apart
you don't care about me at all
I wish we didn't meet from the start
yea
think about us
think about memory
think about class
drinking up Henessy
you making me into my enemy
even after everything that you share with me
you walked away in the dark
pushed me away from the start
shit popped off from the spark
once friends then turned into sharks
in the ocean with no air
i wished I helped you to show I cared
its my fault you disappeared
maybe you wouldn't leave if I interfered 
worst pain in the world is regret
do the things you love before its done and said
life is like a movie on the set
if you don't do it right no other takes to get
Uh
take your time just relax
love those around u and face the facts
cos when I loved you I didn't know u would leave like I'm worthless trash 
even though you did me wrong
I love you I can't deny
you make me sad but u make me fly
when I look up in those eyes
brown eyes, cute face
nice smile, I have to erase
when I think of you I feel pain
I miss you so much none left to say

[Hook: Verzache]
Mama always knew
Told me: "Tell the truth"
Lying makes you cold
Be good and heal your soul

[Verse 2: cd.]
everyday I lose more of myself
thinking bout u is degrading my health
how am I supposed to forget
forget everything that I felt
yeah, in life people go and it sucks
people hit the road and you must
accept the fact and move on
even some break your trust and do u wrong
but I guess people lose track of time
even after all you’ve sacrificed 
losing yourself in favour of them
but you shouldn't let that happen cos you shine
and you’re divine
and you're the one
that you should love before anyone
love yourself 
improve what you lack
forget about them
cos you need you back
need you back and you need yourself
stop listening to sad tracks, chuck 'em on the shelf
talk to your family, have someone to tell
tell your friends and open the shell
yeah, people around you care
all you have to do is open up and share
share your feelings before it explodes
an outburst that you can't control
you can do it
you can move on
love yourself
no longer feel torn
just trust yourself
and you’ll be fine
just take baby steps
cos it takes time
Uh, Its okay to feel sad
even though it might seem bad
it just takes a lot of time to heal
but it's worth it by the time its healed

thank you all ❤💕💞💓

goodbyes (feat. Verzache) [Ocean]

Serotonin (prod . Boyfifty )

surprise surprise;)
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don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
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lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Official audio for "here's my story" by lxtinsheep ft. matego
Mix and Mastered by Xsus
Beat produced by crewneck kid & yung prod

here’s my story w/ matego

Walking through the graveyard with death at every step 
Mixed by T33H33
I made this song after watching Hyouka

Graveyard (prod. ambeatsnyc)

this song was suppose to come out in Feb. but it sadly didn't

LOVELY FT. LXST BOY & TRAA (PROD. BOYFIFTY)

(kobayami)
so this is it, my final days,
imma lay my little head down
rest for all eternity

wait for you, in that crypt,
imma do my best by you,
promise i wont waste it

i don't even know if 
i wanna die young,
or if i need someone
i can call my own

i've been chillin'
at my place wasting away,
i've been too love sick,
and i've been so alone

wait girl, please come back, i'm
sorry that i said that, you know
i don't have the best mental health,
imma mess, i'm depressed,
i don't even know who i am

with time you'll learn to regret
ever running away,
but i'll wait for you here

i know it's not the same 
but that's ok
it doesn't matter to me,
its never really fucking mattered

(Lxst Boy <3)
i’m never sober just stuck in my head
i wanna talk but i’m better off dead
you just jealous i’m making the bread
deleting all ur texts from outta my head

and now it’s over
i don’t wanna lie now
told her
i would never cry

over my dead body
i was fine until u called me
can’t believe i called u shawty
now i sing like kobayami

and now it’s over
i don’t wanna lie now
told her
i would never cry

(kobayami)
wait girl, please come back, i'm
sorry that i said that, you know
i don't have the best mental health,
imma mess, i'm depressed,
i don't even know who i am

with time you'll learn to regret
ever running away,
but i'll wait for you here

i know it's not the same 
but that's ok
it doesn't matter to me,
its never really fucking mattered

my final days w/ Lxst Boy

i <3 plug

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

Nothings as it seems (prod. Roachy Beats)

Dysphoric