Girlfriend (p.clearlyyy)

Lyrics

Focus on myself and my health
I need no one else to help out
since twelve I've been telling myself
we in different realms between heaven and hell
rebelled threw my dream in a well
it endlessly fell cant tell
if its mental abstinence or so abstract it dispelled

from the lies that my mind
so foolishly tries to disguise
told us we could do anything
but didn't mention the price
and even though I'm fifteen
it feels like I have no more time
only two more years to make it work
better get on the grind

I'm obnoxious and its where it starts
I pick my conscious part by part
I promise ill perfect this art
ill get a goddess lock her heart
before I start to think I've got to focus on mine
show I have a lack of empathy and fate intertwines

cause collage out the question
failed the whole year as a freshmen 
my priorities are inside out
not to mention that I'm stressing
grades and music contravention 
feels like my minds in distension
seems I've found another route
if rapping doesn't get me mentioned

cause after I'm a senior that's when this all drops
cause after I'm a senior's when this fantasy stops
of course I mean if this music thing decides to flop
pull my dream up from the well I don't wanna wake up

until then ill be working on the craft
I'm watching as the hour's pass
blocked and caught up for some hours
throwing out pages of drafts
going nowhere till I crash
inside my head is where I'm trapped
with my content feeling sour
constant fear of being last
do anything to meet contrast
reality's too far detached
inside my head there's no more space
the feeling is getting compact
surroundings I cant interact
dark energy is what I attract
something don't feel right these walls they about to collapse

I be here with my head in the clouds
dark energy surrounds around it almost enshrouds
demons telling me to limit my sound
thoughts telling me I should come down
unlike the walls I don't collapse
my mind shows no bounds

Nothings as it seems (prod. Roachy Beats)

Produced by Ocean 
Written and presented by cd. and Verzache

LYRICS
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[Hook: Verzache]
Mama always knew
Told me: "Tell the truth"
Lying makes you cold
Be good and heal your soul

[Verse 1: cd.]
I gave you a piece of my heart
you took it then ripped it apart
you don't care about me at all
I wish we didn't meet from the start
yea
think about us
think about memory
think about class
drinking up Henessy
you making me into my enemy
even after everything that you share with me
you walked away in the dark
pushed me away from the start
shit popped off from the spark
once friends then turned into sharks
in the ocean with no air
i wished I helped you to show I cared
its my fault you disappeared
maybe you wouldn't leave if I interfered 
worst pain in the world is regret
do the things you love before its done and said
life is like a movie on the set
if you don't do it right no other takes to get
Uh
take your time just relax
love those around u and face the facts
cos when I loved you I didn't know u would leave like I'm worthless trash 
even though you did me wrong
I love you I can't deny
you make me sad but u make me fly
when I look up in those eyes
brown eyes, cute face
nice smile, I have to erase
when I think of you I feel pain
I miss you so much none left to say

[Hook: Verzache]
Mama always knew
Told me: "Tell the truth"
Lying makes you cold
Be good and heal your soul

[Verse 2: cd.]
everyday I lose more of myself
thinking bout u is degrading my health
how am I supposed to forget
forget everything that I felt
yeah, in life people go and it sucks
people hit the road and you must
accept the fact and move on
even some break your trust and do u wrong
but I guess people lose track of time
even after all you’ve sacrificed 
losing yourself in favour of them
but you shouldn't let that happen cos you shine
and you’re divine
and you're the one
that you should love before anyone
love yourself 
improve what you lack
forget about them
cos you need you back
need you back and you need yourself
stop listening to sad tracks, chuck 'em on the shelf
talk to your family, have someone to tell
tell your friends and open the shell
yeah, people around you care
all you have to do is open up and share
share your feelings before it explodes
an outburst that you can't control
you can do it
you can move on
love yourself
no longer feel torn
just trust yourself
and you’ll be fine
just take baby steps
cos it takes time
Uh, Its okay to feel sad
even though it might seem bad
it just takes a lot of time to heal
but it's worth it by the time its healed

thank you all ❤💕💞💓

goodbyes (feat. Verzache) [Ocean]

HALLUCINOGEN w/ giovanni (prod. m.e)

MiseryGarden Collective exclusive release!!

written by kobayami, Vertigo, & Lxst Boy
produced by jxsie beats
mixed by Lxst Boy & kobayami
mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by kobayami

-lyrics-
(Verse 1: kobayami)
been about a year since I felt your grace
and I wont lie
I been missing that pretty face
with bangs on the side
thinking bout what i could've done better for you
should've adored you
should've gone for it and kissed you
well you know it wasn't always that bad
got to finally meet when you drove me mad 
with your beautiful looks
and the rope that you took from me
I know what I ain't took
but you put the life back in me
2 weeks into meeting you and we're talking in the dms
blowing up my phone, stating up until the a.m.
talking bout cute days but we'll never see them
cause I dont talk to you no more
I'm sorry babe I should've done more
without me though you're much better off
I'm not the same as i was before
mostly cause I'm such a bore

(Verse 2: Vertigo)
never been that into bangs but they look good on you
I never meant to change my ways, sorry if I failed you
now i just need you to know that I made every shot count
and I counted up my sorrows while I'm still on this couch
got ice cream and movies, yeah thats where I'm at
I'm feeling empty in my chest, dont know where  my head's at
I got a grovel to my voice, she said lets smoke till 2
i like that you think that, so lets go smoke on the roof
wish that I could've brought some weed and ride the high like noble steeds
but instead I grow like weeds
and affect your love too
she said I always seemed like the man with the plan
those people annoy be though, they're the type i can't stand
and so I'm sorry that i bored you with my lackluster ways
i hope that you'll forgive me
maybe
maybe someday

(Verse 3: Lxst Boy)
yeah
brush your bangs up off your face
looking so cute
I tried to be a better person
but that's far from the truth
and baby i cant fall asleep
cause I'm thinking bout you
constantly i find myself
walking straight up the moon
i miss your pale white face
in the glow of the evening light
talk about our past decisions
one day maybe get it right
yeah
or maybe get our act together
I sit and ponder petty things like the rainy weather
you picked me like a rose and told me I was something special
and now i wither and I die, never elemental
I grow as old as the trees as they surround the middle
I'm sorry that I'm boring
oh baby just a little

you're boring (kobayami, jxsie beats, Vertigo, & Lxst Boy)

Walking through the graveyard with death at every step 
Mixed by T33H33
I made this song after watching Hyouka

Nothings as it seems (prod. Roachy Beats)

Dysphoric