Lyrics

Focus on myself and my health
I need no one else to help out
since twelve I've been telling myself
we in different realms between heaven and hell
rebelled threw my dream in a well
it endlessly fell cant tell
if its mental abstinence or so abstract it dispelled

from the lies that my mind
so foolishly tries to disguise
told us we could do anything
but didn't mention the price
and even though I'm fifteen
it feels like I have no more time
only two more years to make it work
better get on the grind

I'm obnoxious and its where it starts
I pick my conscious part by part
I promise ill perfect this art
ill get a goddess lock her heart
before I start to think I've got to focus on mine
show I have a lack of empathy and fate intertwines

cause collage out the question
failed the whole year as a freshmen 
my priorities are inside out
not to mention that I'm stressing
grades and music contravention 
feels like my minds in distension
seems I've found another route
if rapping doesn't get me mentioned

cause after I'm a senior that's when this all drops
cause after I'm a senior's when this fantasy stops
of course I mean if this music thing decides to flop
pull my dream up from the well I don't wanna wake up

until then ill be working on the craft
I'm watching as the hour's pass
blocked and caught up for some hours
throwing out pages of drafts
going nowhere till I crash
inside my head is where I'm trapped
with my content feeling sour
constant fear of being last
do anything to meet contrast
reality's too far detached
inside my head there's no more space
the feeling is getting compact
surroundings I cant interact
dark energy is what I attract
something don't feel right these walls they about to collapse

I be here with my head in the clouds
dark energy surrounds around it almost enshrouds
demons telling me to limit my sound
thoughts telling me I should come down
unlike the walls I don't collapse
my mind shows no bounds

Nothings as it seems (prod. Roachy Beats)

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

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Nothings as it seems (prod. Roachy Beats)

Dysphoric