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Vibes XV

e·phem·er·al /əˈfem(ə)rəl/ adjective: lasting for a very short time.

ephemeral.

train ridew

Daily Drops #99

Mixtape - In The Moments

Lyrics

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

I'm so cold, I don't think I feel a thing
I just wanna get a pole, put a bullet in my brain
I know you ain't wanna know about the shit that I can say
When I'm in my room alone, letting out all of this pain

But I gotta let it out, yeah I gotta let it fly
I don't wanna see you pout, I don't wanna see you cry
When you see I'm out of time in the moment that I die
Cause when I was still alive you ain't pull me to to the side

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

alone. | Produced by sketchmyname

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

All the pain that I have, I'ma leave it in the past
Every thought that is bad, I'ma throw it in the trash
I can see what's to come so I can't go back
And I hate that bitch, so I throw her on a track

Used to want her love, now I want cash
All these bitches leave me crushed, I don't want that
I been through that shit enough, so it's fuck that
Heart broke so much, at this point it can't crack

You can say what you want
But I promise that I won't give a damn what it is
I'ma do what you don't
Ego, this not that, I'm a God in the flesh, that's a true fact

If hell's in my head I'll see heaven when I'm dead
Fucking regret all the fucked up shit I said
Played with a demon and now It's in my bed
Don't ever ask why at night I just don't rest

Get the the fuck out my mind
You'll never see all the shit that I hide
Say I'm okay when I'm not really fine
I start my day with a fuck ton of lies

Heaven sent, when I'm around you smell that heaven scent
She say omg when I'm inside, that's heaven sex
And it's once in a lifetime, ain't seen her ever since
I can't make a bitch my bride, it's something I don't get

But what I do, you can't know
If I'm not on other shit, then my wheels don't roll
Might stress, might bend but I will not fold
I confess my sins to the mirror that I hold

Cause I'm the only one that needa know, I never told another soul about the glass that I have broke
I'm a roll, I know I'm chose to talk about what I have wrote
I'll never go back to the place where I had not one ounce of hope

Broke my two horns, made them a halo
They say too far, fuck what they say though
Demon mode inside of an angel
Break my heart, I'll live past the pain hoe

You don't really wanna see me turn back into what I used to be
Being the asshole a hobby to me
I let it go but it's right in my reach

You're not mine, bitch why you trippin'?
You're too late, turned off my feelings
I'm so fake, I don't give two shits
Fuck her face until she toothless

I'm not what you need, girl I warned you, tread lightly
She think I'm a fuckboy, I might be
Do I give a fuck though? Not the least

Stopped caring, started stackin'
It's apparent, I'm not cappin'
"Where'd you go? Like bro what happened?"
I went ghost and I won't tap in

ethereal!

PRODUCED BY: CRANIUM ROSA

LYRICS:

I can see the light in your eyes
And it keeps on pulling me in
But my hearts a disguise
Only beats to get rid of my sins
I've done things that I don't like
Don't wanna do it over again
On this path, I might die
Unless you help me fight all my fears
(Fears, fears, fears)

In the night time, I come alive
Give you something that you won't find
Take a pill with me take you sky high
Make you feel fine
Baby make you feel fine
I'm in my head again
While she's lying in my bed
This is not comforting
I'm a mess but we do it all again

She love when I take control (take control)
Yeah it's the drugs that she feeling though (feeling though)
She's coming down she needs a little more (little more)
She wanna feel like she's invincible
Don't think, touch me, kiss me
Fuck me, make love, do bad things
Trust me, don't lie, don't fix me
I know that it's tempting
Why don't you resent me

In the night time, I come alive
Give you something that you won't find
Take a pill with me take you sky high
Make you feel fine
Baby make you feel fine
I'm in my head again
While she's lying in my bed
This is not comforting
I'm a mess but we do it all again

Do it all again yeah
Do it all again yeah
Do it all again yeah
oh, oh, oh

I know that you'll ride for me
Baby imma set you free yeah
All this animosity
Never fall in love with me
Hands on your body, I'm exploring every part
Don't ask me to hold on cause ill tear that shit apart
(Apart, apart, apart)

In the night time, I come alive
Give you something that you won't find
Take a pill with me take you sky high
Make you feel fine
Baby make you feel fine
I'm in my head again
While she's lying in my bed
This is not comforting
I'm a mess but we do it all again

Do it all again yeah
Do it all again
Do it all again yeah
Do it all again
Do it all again yeah
Oh oh
Do it all again yeah
Do it all again yeah
Do it all again yeah
Do it all again yeah
Do it all again yeah

All Again

Im Waking Up

Lies I’ve told myself since you left

See You Next Year, Ekkstacy - I Guess

Watch You Go

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Avery’s Instagram @riptisavery

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nothing serious
 
                                       ~Lyrics~

I’m catching up to the high 
That I’ve been repressing inside of my mind 
And you make me feel 
Like it could be alright, 
so get in my mind 
I’ll get in your ride, 
can you stay the night babe 
It might save my life 
And I know I try 
But I don’t get it right, so I’ll just get high 
I know it’s alright, just say it’s alright 

I don’t know 
Where I’m gonna go 
But can you come with me?

Sold my soul to satan 
Ain’t no hesitating
 I gotta show the whole fucking nation
How I’m amazing 
I know I can’t use my my my my imagination 
I Know I am the greatest ever to be alive 
I don’t know why I told you all that lie
I just do my thing 
I just do my thing
I know I suck but I don’t give a fuck 
I won’t drive no fuckin new Bentley truck
Cuz I couldn’t give no two singles fucks

Sold my soul at 15 years old 
Is my path set In stone
 I don’t know
I gotta go, gotta flow
Gotta let know I know what’s up yo
Yo what’s up 
What’s up boo, what’s new
Do I, 
do I, 
do I, 
do I know you?
I don’t have not single
Not single mottherfuckerin clu-u-u——ue 


(Avery’s part was complete freestyle)

Nothing Serious w/ TisAvery

This really old but I’m just getting around to releasing it

ghost in my room

BOMBS AWAY

This song is about my internal fantasization of death

My Paradise

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Good Love vs. Miracle (Chris Watson Mashup)

[lyrics]
these eyes dont lie 
i cant go on 
i seen too much shit in my life 
am i even alive
hangin on by a thread
mf took another pill n now isss fuckin lights out 
jus woke up n isss alr bright out
idk where tf im going w my life now
suck my dick or pipe down 
mf my hometown 
im the only god dat ive seen around 
nohopeshawty king of underground 
im the only one dat they know abt 
i could do it all w the weight of the world tryna hold me down

@jacc_ak
@nohopeshawty

these eyes dont lie

these eyes dont lie (prod. sustain)

right where i left (prod. sundwn)

Pray For My Soul

Stream "know a thing" by @heylog (prod. @irby314)
https://streamlink.to/knowathing-heylog

Lyrics:
i don't wanna heal myself again
no, i don't need to miss you like i did
promised recently i'd hit decline
but i couldn't do it this one time

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

every night i wake up in a sweat
every single word you ever said
come together without feeling harm
quickly run to you with open arms

can't believe i'm doing this again
it's been so long so like, how you been?
they don't even know a thing or two
they know more about me than 'bout you

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand

do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

heylog - know a thing (irby)

I swear you’re so perfect but tragic
One look in your eyes I can tell that you’ve had it
You’re trying so hard just to break those bad habits 
Not seeing your worth just the pills that you smashing
Just to take from the pain but the people keep laughing 
They’re digging you deeper to cause a reaction 
you reach out for help but they think it’s attention
But I’ll stick by your side doesn’t matter what happens

Hope your warm when I’m not there
And I hope your brave when you get scared
And I hope your strong when theres despair
So I’ll hold you close till my arms wear
Cause you give me light when I can’t see
You bring me hope that I can’t reach
And you give me faith when I’m empty
You give me the strength when I can’t breathe

when I can’t breathe
think abt the tricks under your sleeve
matter fact life gettin messy
your fault cuz you know I don’t get no sleep
it’s abt what you put in the stare
makin it harder to breath
got me here trippin on air what is it that they don’t see

you’re makin it harder to quit this
look to the heavens have god as my witness
wrong all along on the mission hope I don’t you don’t miss me when I go missin
if I lose my flaws I think you come back
buti think that there would be tention
yea you say I’m wrong but I think I’m right
that’s y u jest sent me a message

look me in my eyes tell me that it’s gon be fine
every night when the light off see ur poltergeist

i know what your saying now
I’ll pick up the phone and I’ll play it loud
I’ll let ‘em all hear what I really found
if you want me dead I’ll leave unannounced

Hope your warm when I’m not there
And I hope your brave when you get scared
And I hope your strong when theres despair
So I’ll hold you close till my arms wear
Cause you give me light when I can’t see
You bring me hope that I can’t reach
And you give me faith when I’m empty
You give me the strength when I can’t breathe

Too Tired To Breathe w/brecken (prod. poppy ozu)

stream here: https://naits.lnk.to/wastedshadow

thanks for listening♡

wasted shadow (with benny mayne)

DEVIL'S GRIP

Ride or Die

Morse Code

mix & mastered by @skinnyatlas
produced by @skinny atlas

leave for yesterday w no.cape (prod. skinny atlas)

Rich Bastard

Rich Bastard prod. Yunny Goldz

stream <3

GLOW

untitled demo3

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Lyrics: 
"Everything you thought of me is everything I'm not
Try to put me in a bubble but I'm far outside the box
I've been working double just to show them I could pop
Turn the devil on my shoulder to the best friend I've got
Everything you thought of me is everything I'm not
Try to put me in a bubble but I'm far outside the box
I've been working double just to show them I could pop
Turn the devil on my shoulder to the best friend I've got

You had what I wanted It's gone, gone, gone
I hardly was honest for so long
Guess I probably should better myself
If I don't then I might need some help
So I'm up late, working on it
Give my everything and beyond it
Don't know why I try
Being the nice guy
Might just give up on like everything and show them what I'm not
Everything you said to me is everything I'm not
Try to put me in a bubble but I'm far outside the box
I've been working double just to show them I could pop
I turn the devil on my shoulder to the best friend I've got

Everything you thought of me is everything I'm not
Try to put me in a bubble but I'm far outside the box
I've been working double just to show them I could pop
Turn the devil on my shoulder to the best friend I've got
Everything you thought of me is everything I'm not
You make it too easy to forget what I forgot
The enemies a friend of mine don't put me on the spot
If only you could be an alibi for everything I lost

What's that in my Hi-C? This ain't very like me
I remember days when they would step on me like concrete
Said she miss the old me, well you don't know me slightly
If I come running back then they gone put me at a loss
Everything I gave away you don't know what it cost
Had to buy the Cullinan she only wanted Voss
Staring at a blank screen
Nothing left to watch
Benzo got me antsy
Crossed the line I'd never cross
Everything you said to me is everything I'm not
Try to put me in a bubble but I'm far outside the box
I've been working double just to show them I could pop
I turn the devil on my shoulder to the best friend I've got

Everything you thought of me is everything I'm not
Try to put me in a bubble but I'm far outside the box
I've been working double just to show them I could pop
Turn the devil on my shoulder to the best friend I've got
Everything you thought of me is everything I'm not
You make it too easy to forget what I forgot
The enemies a friend of mine don't put me on the spot
If only you could be an alibi for everything I lost"

written by: @moethekiddd
produced by: @prod.sundwn

EVERYTHING IM NOT

EVERYTHING IM NOT (prod. sundwn)

Lyrics ⬇️ 

i wont tell em that im right
if i wake up and i want it
ima get it 
waste my time dontchu get it im not fine
i been tryin all my life an everybody switvhin sides
so what i gotta do to tell em i was right

im pickin fights atleast my parents think im nice
think twice
being honest oh my gosh i think im blind

yea tey to play me youll end up payin the price
never thought id say this but i feel alone at night
yea walk thru where they hangin in the back
I won’t pull up witta tool I won’t pull up wit a mac

yea you think you cool ima lay you on ya back
you been actin like a fool lemme show you where its at
if you hate me its okay im movin on
and i hope that if you ever hear this song
talkin bout you and that new man that you want
i hope they lnow that you had did me so damn wrong 

all he ever did was really talk
walk along the lines i felt like i could never solve
all these issues that hes putting in my paws
guess ill have to tell him off and tell her that hes gone

whyd i run away from everything that i want
i promise that i did everything but i took too long
so whyd i write the song to tell you how i feel
when i feel like i could rot

lemme rot away so i dont feel the pain no more
if i pull then you know yhat you mot safe no more
I dont need nobody else to play these chords
you’re acting like ur purpose wasnt there before
watch me do it all again
past tense where we used to be friends 
no more
i jus wanna know where you been 
I been layin down passed put on the floor

yea now hes gone but so am i
you killed a person with ur disguise
who am i to be if i wanted lies in my life i dont want it i just want you alive

rot. (yunnygoldz)

[LYRICS]

You said that you don't need me You think that I don't need you, too
I'm barely breathing, I'm freaking out in my room
I asked her when she's leaving She said she's leaving real soon
I said I don't believe it Became a ghost like by noon

I don't need you like you don't need me, too
I don't believe the truth I can't find out the mood

Make a wish to the moon
Make a wish about you
I don't know what to do
I wanna be in love, too

I don't need you like you don't need me, too
I don't believe the truth I can't find out the mood

I can't find out the mood
I swear to God I'm so in love with you
I don't know what to do
Ain't nobody know me like you do

You said that you don't need me You think that I don't need you, too
I'm barely breathing, I'm freaking out in my room
I asked her when she's leaving She said she's leaving real soon
I said I don't believe it Became a ghost like by noon

I don't need you like you don't need me, too
I don't believe the truth I can't find out the mood

I DON'T NEED YOU (prod.maxchris)

it was all the same (prod. KAYVXN)

Love Fucking Sucks.
Vocals by Shiloh Dynasty.
Members Only.

prxz

love wounds

empty hearts

i'm shy, i'm anxious

produced by classixs beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCkNqXC7nc4gtHQ8cKU48iow

lyrics:

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

hit me with a feature boy just know this is art
come at me with garbage and ill rip it apart
honestly i been about it prior to you
and i dont need a fucking friend i need a drink and a dart

i dont even smoke but i think i should start
take a couple years and give em back to the dark
eliviate the pain and fucking take out my heart
eliviate the pain and give me back to the dark

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off

they want a love song
but i havent felt love in a minute
its been so long
truthfully im not sure if i was ever in it
but now its all gone
the people and the visions we both thought of as vivid
thought of as lucid
fuck all the bullshit
strangle and beat up and fucking spit on the cupid
im so gone
scotch and a spliffy had got me saying some shit 
i never dreamt of
sertraline pills im not an artist im a motherfucking
pill box
right now fuck the flashing lights i think id rather see a 
red dot
headshot
maybe its time that i met god

4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

i cant finish project
or put it in motion
everythings sounds shitty
by the damn second verse
got some real friends
sending me some warm texts

but its a shame that my phone dont work

i got debt on debt
u like my shit oh bet
i might not make it for a while
cause im fucked in the head
find me sleepin in bed
i got a 12 hour rest
imma wake up for an hour then go do it again
i needa wean off

give a fuck if im dependent on the meds
as long as i get up and think enough to make a track
its weird to have a thousand people screaming what i said
im good at working under pressure when im sad i write the best
smoke alot of weed but im addicted like its crack
i been rippin blunts until i feel it in my back
when you adopt the music you adopt it till u dead
your brain'll change and you can fire thoughts like your a gat

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

wean off (prod. classixs beats)

Ｉ＇ＬＬ　ＲＵＮ　ＳＯ　ＦＡＲ　ＦＲＯＭ　
ＴＨＥＳＥ　ＳＨＡＤＯＷＳ

//私の心の断片//

lyrics
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i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

sorry (hbeatz)

Lemon Boy

Fool

joke's on you

highschool (feat. convolk) (remix)

rip me apart

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

Too Tired To Breathe w/brecken (prod. poppy ozu)

Dysphoric