prod. flesh

lyrics: 
your words on repeat inside my head
why can't i leave the world i left
i waste a week alone in bed and 
i curse all of the things i left unsaid
all of those lies that i regret
i flew too high in my defense

yeah i'm sure you'd let me bleed out on the fence
was breaking strings out of the tension i could do without the pressure
i worked myself to death i think i need a new obsession

face it, face it, too complacent, this a mirage
wasted, wasted, take my wake up, see the face of god
ace of spades it, kill my ego, just dry me out
wait up, wait up, can't shake this fear of missing out 
x2

just get the jump on it, jump out the mattress and go reach the summit, fuck it
how many times will you numb it? say i won't lie but i've already done it, love it
smothered myself with the numbers i watch as they they plummet, all of this so sudden
killing what's left of me, pushing and tugging, i don't got energy, not doing nothing

i check on my phone, no texts, how coincidental
lost my innocence i can't win this battle
yeah i miss my friends, no i still can't let go
only 21 but still i whip the rental
tryna grip my center, hell no
miss the days when i was gung-ho
steaming kettle, need to breathe a little
heart is so brittle, feel it get old, whoa

whoa, need to let it go, gotta protect my soul
gotta set the tone, how'd i get so cold?
whoa, need to let it go, gotta protect my soul
gotta set the tone, how'd i get so cold?
whoa, need to let it go, gotta protect my soul
gotta set the tone, how'd i make it here?
how do i say what's real? oh, what do i do to heal more?
what has got into me? not sure

face it, face it, too complacent, this a mirage
wasted, wasted, take my wake up, see the face of god
ace of spades it, kill my ego, just dry me out
wait up, wait up, can't shake this fear of missing out
x2

FOMO

Crushing

why you sayin that you dont love me no more no
that shit turnin my heart so cold
sayin you dont want me no more no
but you dont know how to let go
oh i i dont know what to do
cuz i cant stop thinkin bout you

cant forget bout all the time that we spent
dont know how that you could act like all of this really meant nothing to you
one look in your eyes i know it aint true
keep tellin them lies i know the real you
but i dont know know know
why youre so cold to me

dont gotta run away from me
just want you to talk to me
and let me know what you need
im lettin you know that you dont have to be so cold
you dont have to be so cold to me

(scene from love drugs and other things)

why you sayin that you dont love me no more no
that shit turnin my heart so cold
sayin you dont want me no more no
but you dont know how to let go
oh i i dont know what to do
cuz i cant stop thinkin bout you

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Cold (Jayysoul x Judge)

prod. flesh x chris6lair x taurs

lyrics:
i don't like to stand out
i don't understand how
i keep moving on
running circles in the madhouse
treading when it's shallow
scared of my shadow
roam into the fog
no i don't know where 

i've been going
and i know i get lost a lot
but i'm on my way home
if it all goes wrong
would you wanna be safe from harm?
would you lock up
give it all up?

i know i'm not what you thought i'd
be at this point i've become
more myself than i had ever dreamed
so why don't you fuck off
i remember everything you said
i've been screaming at myself to give it up and let it rest
i've been at it so long
when i redirect it won't last long
i reflect what i couldn't get
what i'll pass on

so much on my plate
gotta finish what i started up
throw it all away
if what i made ain't what i wanted to
think i need a break
then i'm lying wide awake
i don't wait, i won't hesitate
i can't pull the brakes

yea i'm stuck
i'm in go mode
i do not know what to do
should i slow down?
not my tempo, let go
but i hold on when it's ice cold
i can't wait to warm up
what a nice goal

Crushing

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