I thought I was beat down

Screaming with no sound

Buried dead underground

Ripping off my skin

I shed

I fed the god head 



Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



Skills burn deep within the in between

Life's just a joke 

Until you focus

dig your heels endlessly down 

Where you can be seen

Or bothered 

Outside of the pressures of society



Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



I know I'm not normal

Who The fuck is

How many times do I have to remove all these daggers 

Infecting my ability to sleep 

I foam thrash and beg god get these intrusive thoughts under control 

I don't want to lose everything while the world sleep

When I am Awake barley breathing 



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



from all this  synchronicity stabbing me in the halo

That bleeds through out my being under the broken ceiling

Screaming feeling something haunting me  

In the apartment I hide going through recovery





black ink oozes behind closed doors

Sliding the needles across the skin



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Beat Down pay for pain

Bashing my head against the fucking walls again

Brains running down the walls

Teeth chipped broken dead rat bleeds motherfucker shouldn't have bit 

me 

Smashed it's fucking body it's brains all over walls right after I slit my wrists with a smile numb cold winter midnight blood lust horror suicide show send me to the hospital please never forgive me 

First before the fucking day before Christmas 13 aged what did you all think O he didn't know any better I knew exactly what I was doing emptying your  hatred that lay rotted decayed  dead rattled flesh the inside

Before

Dipped

I mean fucking dropped in anger deep into scolding bathtub water the images broken blurs scared with psychical pain  

The inside of my lungs

 on silts throats fingers wrap around each time 

I have the impulse 

To slit my wrists 

Every time I Say I hate you 

After you say fuck you

You

Bitch it was never a phase and 

Whore your never going to win

This bustard son born as the devil I'm his son An anti social freak a fucking mental disease a personality disorder that rots me to the core 
I'm split in 8 

 modes I let my minds unwind around both of your spines hidden behind these eyes

are blind the mindless madness blistered with agony screaming suffering crying waiting nothing but to end all these nightmare feasting on all these frozen over suspended in animation  locked trapped in time fogged over worm eating images I wish I thought I knew bleeding all over the gore the horror the sex the blood this horrible world

 this deepening endless void trapped in anti gravity 

I hope one day to be whole one day I hope and pray that day will come

no 

I don't 

Think it ever will




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In the shadowed corners of  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
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Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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