Echo's N MelanKholyia

[industrial gothcore fused post-darkwave suicidecore glitchcore, voidcore, creepy, apocalyptic, nazi-holocaust, death march vibe:80 bpm intro crawl-slow funeral dragging flesh ripping   wwii reel flicker pitched low gas chamber whispers-then snap 110 bpm march verse snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs breathing monotone rap-growl verse lyrics calm counting pills numb detachment dread building glitch drops chorus chrome wire hair scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep wail choking intensity raw release bridge 60 bpm heartbeat stutter child whispers reversed looping memory static disorientation reliving horror outro fade dripping click linger 2 beats extended slow fade-out reverse sighs ashes wind static eternal loop lingering unease unresolved nightmare spooky dystopian apocalypse violent Shattering Glass against steal, scary vibes alien otherworldly alternative rock deep distorted androgynous male vocals haunting whispers dramatic screams 3d audio dark am.

Numb Abyss

Dissociative Identity Hidden Alive (Trapped N MelanKholya MIX)

[Verse 1]
The winter was as cold as the embedded despair that danced with the promise of death,
The light of the morning there was a sick craving felt,
A pack of vile heaven I was saving still,
When I started dripping sweat with heavy breathing,
The sickness disgusted me,
To the point of panicking,
Heart beating out of my chest,
Dope sick insanity.
[Chorus]
I grabbed my silent screams and swallowed them in regret,
I just want this to end,
Heroin is the gun I defended,
The weapon I sing sweet lullabies to every time I play victim,
Daring to take my life away.
[Verse 2]
Communication came in the night,
A message from a relative,
Death had come to my father,
Suicide was the cause.
Sick all day,
I can't stand the pain,
Dripping nose like the vomit leaks,
From the intoxication of a purge with the onset of the rush of an opiate.
[Bridge]
Cold to the bone shaking like jackals laughing when they're hunting,
Sweat leaking out of my skin like snake oil salesmen corrupt and sell,
Glazed like the morning dew mist in the flames of hell,
Flowing out like the exhale of carbon dioxide filth,
This suicide, the cause and effect,
The taste of no regrets was a disgusting reality,
Coming to a tragedy in the throes of a loss,
When addiction with suffering played the role.
[Verse 3]
To sing a sonnet,
A symphony from the demons below,
The church of misery holds the ceremony of lost souls,
To finally let go,
The death of one will create another dead soul,
The powder of the sedative,
The dirt of a flower,
With the god of sleep and the mouth of the devil's breath to infuse gave it,
Its power of my final hour.
[Chorus]
The sands of time the intoxicant encased with the liquid of life,
Boiling from the flames beneath a spoon in the dead of night,
Drawing up its contents,
The elixir of pleasure of death together cries,
Wrapping rope and knots to close off the flow of life's gift.
[Bridge 2]
I poured all I could into the tool,
For a poison that would predict its ending,
Pressure added to the pulse of life,
Like a stealth weapon,
I let the hymn of god off my lips roll out,
Euphoria to nothingness in a life's second,
The world went black as my life left with the barrel still inside its target limb.
[Outro]
The void,
There was peace,
Then agony and echoing,
As life was given back to me,
When you survived the tragedy,
Saved by oxygen.

Dope Sick Void  [ Exiled N Euphoria]

Intro (0:00-0:20 - Dark Ambient: Whispered Vocals over Ethereal Synths and Sub-Bass Pulsing like Heartbeats):
(The creeping despair it lingers near... glitched echo)
(Shattered self... hidden alive... reversed whisper)
Verse 1 (0:20-0:50 - Post-Rock Goth: Moody Guitars, Haunting Melody, Layered Synths with Glitch Textures):
The creeping despair it lingers near
Through childhood shadows to adult fear
I’ve been at war with your fractured mind
But the scars run deep they’re hard to find
Pre-Chorus (0:50-1:00 - Building Intensity: Glitchy Synths, Hypnotic Beats Emerging):
When the stress breaks in waves too strong
I take the wheel where you don’t belong
Chorus (1:00-1:30 - Gothcore Nu-Metal: Intense Riffs, Chaotic Drums, Powerful Drops with Screamed Vocals):
I’m the host I wear your pain
I speak the words you can’t explain
I’m the voice you try to hide
But I keep you breathing I keep you alive
Verse 2 (1:30-2:00 - Electronic Rock: Glitchy Synths, Building Tension with Otherworldly Echoes):
There are three alters they twist and turn
Each born from a trauma each lesson learned
They crawl through my mind they sleep or scream
A shattered self stitched into a dream
Pre-Chorus (2:00-2:10 - Intensified: Spooky Waves, Psychotic Layers with 3D Panning):
I know you know I’m here inside
The truth you bury the truths denied
Chorus (2:10-2:40 - Apocalyptic Post-Metal: Extreme Riffs, Glitches, Haunting Screams Building to Collapse):
I’m the host I wear your pain
I speak the words you can’t explain
I’m the voice you try to hide
But I keep you breathing I keep you alive
Bridge (2:40-3:00 - Dark Wave Breakdown: Eerie Waves, Psychotic Whispers, Stuttering Beats with Chaos):
(60 BPM stutter: child whispers reversed, looping "shattered self... three alters... hidden alive" in fragments)
Outro (3:00-3:30 - Grunge Fade: Grinding Guitars Dissolving into Ambience, Echoing Wails Fading to Silence with Glitch Hum):
So dead, born like this... (fading to dripping click lingering 2 beats too long, echoed "hidden alive")

Dissociative Identity Hidden Alive

[Verse]
Drowning in my echoes
The screams I repress deep inside
Kings who once wore chains
Now see the world through humble eyes

[Prechorus]
Suffering
The steepest toll
For wisdom carved into the soul

[Chorus]
Raising my hands high
I touch my lips
Hate mixed with sadness
Breathing in the fear
Screaming’s a work of art
A madness
When the bells of my heart
Ring my mind to sleep
In the dead of night
The echoes run deep

[Verse 2]
Shadows on my skin
They whisper truths I cannot flee
A labyrinth within
Where every turn is memory

[Prechorus]
Fear becomes the silent guide
Through the corridors I hide

[Chorus]
Raising my hands high
I touch my lips
Hate mixed with sadness
Breathing in the fear
Screaming’s a work of art
A madness
When the bells of my heart
Ring my mind to sleep
In the dead of night
The echoes run deep




Echoes of My Mind

Looking in your eyes when
Walking through the door
Looking at me you said
Are you doing ok my husband 
Holding back inside frozen in dread 
I must confess there's nothing wrong dear
I hope you will understand 
That I love you no matter what might be said
Looking in your eyes
Are the nights I want to die
I feel so fucking dead
When the nights I want to die are constantly devouring me alive 
I hope you understand
These thoughts just creep inside my head 
I don't remember the last time I've felt safe looking ahead 
Everytime
I lie 
I die inside
So I don't have to see you cry every night 
Worrying if I'll be alive in the morning light
When bleeding through the window 
Ready for the next mornings fight to survive 
I can't stand my mind 
I don't lash out 
Hiding in the decay 
Holding my
Self hate
Fucking shame
Memories of all the people that walked away
The deaths of friend who I talked to everyday 
Rotting next to the bone 
I hide behind a smile 
But inside I'm at the mouth foaming blood 
Just to say I'm fine 
I just want to lay with you tonight
Everytime I lie 
I die inside
So I don't have to see you cry every night 
Worrying if I'll be alive in the morning light
When bleeding through the window 
Ready for the next mornings fight to survive
This is why I lie to you every time we go to sleep at night
Every time I lie 
Looking in your eyes
Are the nights I want to die
I feel dead
When the nights I want to die
Creep inside my head 
Everytime I lie I die inside
So I don't have to see you crying at night worrying 
If I'll be alive in the morning light
When you see I've lost hope 
To even keep trying there's nothing to hold me up
Life's just cut short
When life feels like there's nothing left work towards 
I can't do this anymore 
I just can't lie to you my love
Sensing
my soul
Shaking
Shattering
Look at me dead in my eyes
I see your eyes start to look the color of blood
I see tears building in your eyes
As you pull me close and hold me tight 
I'm so sorry
I love you so much but I'm a mess I hide every waking sight
Emotionally wrecked
I'm fucking dead inside
So spent
The endless dull
Walking dead man just trying to survive
Hitting the wall I don't think there's anymore time 
I'm ready to leave this life I have no energy to keep up the fight
I lost all the light from my eyes
But I don't want to leave your side
At least not tonight
Everything's just alright
How are you doing 
Everything's fine
You look beautiful 
When the last time you smiled 
I don't remember 
Because I've been watching you for months now
You just don't have the same light I tied in the union light
Don't give up this fight 
You got me by your side
Please just stay alive 
I just can't live this life without you by my side
Tracing every line 
From the years that we cried
When I just wanted to let go 
I wish I could fly where the wind might blow
I wish I could tell you everything is alright
I wish I could tell you that instead 
I wish I didn't feel so embarrassed to tell you 
When life is misery entrenched 
I tried so hard held on by your light
You make me feel inside 
I'm so petrified 
Every time I lie 
Looking in your eyes
Are the nights I want to die
When I'm so petrified 
I wish I could just believe 

Everytime I Lie

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Echos or Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.