mother of god why am i just now realizing how good this song is

featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

[+] look at my face girl just know that im trying
*produced by *

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LYRICS:

[chorus:]
Why can't you just, love me?
Why can't you just, hold me?
I don't think you, know me
I said that I'm, sorry (2x)

[verse:]
You think that you know me,
You don't know a thing
I just popped a pill, that help my suffering
Cuz I just lay in bed and I can't help but think
I just miss the days you were my everything
I aint even OD but it feel like I'm already dying
Look at my face girl just know that I'm trying
I see your pain I ain't going silent
Pop a xan and it feel like I'm flying
I want a Benz for my mom to drive it
I want it all but I don't wanna ball without you
I wanna call, but I don't wanna bother you

why can't you just love me

INTRO:
promise you won’t forget me
i’ve been feeling so empty
is this the end of tonight
am i saying goodbye 
for the very last time
i don’t want to rewind
i can’t go on living this lie

CHORUS:
oh where did the time go?
you said you’d be back tomorrow
i took your lead i followed (followed)
straight back to my sorrows (sorrows)
so i’ll ask you again where did the time go (where did it go)

POST CHORUS:
you left me here defenseless
i’ve never 
been so fuckin helpless
whatever
you gotta be so desperate 
to even turn to me for pleasure

SENDFLOWRS VERSE:
for pleasure i can’t lie i’m fucked 
droolin from my mouth like everytime we talk
you always told me i can look but i can’t touch
wait that’s the weed man i think i’m finally done
erase my name from your phone
you better
tell him straight and never come home
i’m gonna
tear his flesh from the bone
and i might 
catch a case you made me so cold (so cold)
you fake bitches
i’m a sinner
i stay sinning 
i dream of you but i’m not the one you’re kissing
like baby come over here lemme show you what you missing

OUTRO:
see my head spin
round and round
i just wanna get out of this town
look at my face and you’ll see a frown
but don’t be surprised 
when you see my wounds are open wide
don’t cry tonight
with your ocean blue eyes

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where did the time go ft. sendflowrs (wisssery x jolst)

i see the moon shining on this dark night
that wont damp my mood babe im alright
it use to but now im really different
all for the better
i wouldnt change it at all
no fucking chance
ive spent alot of nights in this room
and ill spend alot fucking more
ask me "how many more?"
and ill just say; "until im on the billboard"
so i asked what that bitch have
and he couldn't answer me
cause he hated me
and i dont know why
in the midst of these dark cold nights
nights add up and i see him
in my future i really wanna be with him
i can see now
am i finally see thru?

drk, cld, nghts. (kuboi)

luv yall <3
prod. ztope

lyrics
-----------------
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

all already alone
so it shouldnt make any difference
but why cant u pick up the phone
n why is everyone distant
i speak and its hurt in the tone
i just wanted u to listen
this blunt really got me in thoughts
inside of my mind is a prison

long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

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nites

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

every song
that u get
is a piece
of my health
puppet strings control me
so for them make something else
she could kill me yet again
and this corpse would only sputter
this hope turns to
waiting for the waves to pull me under

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

i simply need someone's affection
but we could have phone sex
she says without idling
we store
idealized versions of eachother
in our heads
in our heads

i simply need someone's affection
but we could have phone sex
she says without idling
we store
idealized versions of eachother
in our heads
in our heads

treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live
treading water got too difficult
i don't click with residuals
from straight out of their cubicles
there's something strangely beautiful
bout living here in this filth
after all the imitators are done and dusted
he still maybe might live

residuals (afterlife x jolst)

track 3 
n i’ve never felt as low as this
when u told me that u hate me
i died a bit 
now the sun feels so cold on my skin 
and nothing tastes the same, again, you win

 
yea and i cry every night when i go to sleep
i don’t wanna fight anymore please just bury me 
you’re the one i like
despite what u said to me 
i’m high as a kite 
off this mud
keep on tellin me 
that i should get help 
but u never been a friend 
so please don’t sit and cry
fake tears on my bed 
u the one that tried to help me til the end
why the fuck i need a therapist when i got u instead?

*inhale*
*exhale*
it’s as easy as that
*inhale*
*exhale*

just breathe it’s as easy at that 
as easy as that 
so i just breathe when this bitch get me mad
grayfox the king i be here til i’m dead 
had a slow year think my shit about to fall off
but i’m still here with this blood on my hands
shoutout to tropic, as easy as that
shoutout to loveless, as easy as that 
run thru the street when i’m off of my meds
but i’ll still be right here while these boys follow trends
3 playlists 1 week i’m scheming again 
people can hate but ain’t bled what i bled 
i’ve seen the fall when ur stood on the edge cus i’ve seen my own mum in a hospital bed
i’m way too high so go argue with them
got my whole life in the palm of my hands
make a no hook and then go right to bed
and u can sendflowrs when im laid to rest

just breathe, it’s as easy as that (mackk)

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

<33 luv yall w/ all my heart :) tysm for 30K on nites !!!

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

cold
blowing im smoking on thrax n been stuck in my home
2 days a week i been barely breathing, im sleeping in smoke
i been outside n still been stuck on the road
oh~
baby i am not making it home

(bad bitch like maleficent
im smoking this evergreen, its heavensent
im sipping on heavenly
this everclear shit no good 4 me and i'll throw it up by like 2 or 3
honestly know u dead 2 me but still fill u up like its calories)

live life in a hurry
my baby so worried
pushing in a benz, we cruisin 90 in a 30
uh, double cup i fill it up like shit was dirty
I COULDN'T THINK OF A LINE HERE LMFAOOOOO

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head
pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

dead (heyylotus & warheart)

just call me on my phone, if you text back,
I swear on everything I never meant that,
and I don't think I ever wanna go back,
to the days you said you loved me, never meant that,

Close your tired eyes,
and I don't know if I can make it through tonight,
cus you've been fuckin wit my head again,
and you've been out with him,
I know you know that I wanna die,
every second that I'm not with you,
like you're so beautiful,
and do you know it girl?
cus I would never wanna hurt you,
again.. again..

art cred: skvlpell (IG)

You never cared enough to hurt w/ skele (prod. irby)

mixed by @polearm
featuring @sewerperson
produced by @splashgvng and @irby314

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

i think ill be late to the grave at my own damn funeral
say what you say i know i act quite unusual
fake homies fake like they dont know that im on to them
its okay whatever bro cuz 
i was never fond of them
i just copped and popped out to LA
shot the shit and kicked it with my bae
told my brothers theres another way
now we been grinding time to fill the days
we been on the sun in outerspace
stress was melted
felt it drip away
i been on a hella different wave
i been on a hella different wave

sewerperson:
moonlight thru opening in the sun roof
it feel like one of these times where i just have to tell u i
love u
and i dont wait till the morning
and i dont wanna wait anymore like
tell me
how many of these nights u been alone u really happy
everything im feeling come back round to overlap me
i guess i just wanted u to know ion know what id do without ya
i guess i just wanted u to know i still been
selfish
sorry
i cant help it
promise
blacked out
i cant feel if im honest
can u tell me bout ur face cause i forgot it
since i pushed most those memories into my closet

tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral
tell that im selfish
i dont care ive heard it all before
unhealthy
i dont care whatever slam the door
cant help it
never seem to get my story straight
ill be late to the grave
at my own damn funeral

drk, cld, nghts. (kuboi)

emptychest (kill breanna)

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