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lyrics:

it feels like
everybody fuckin hates me
and they're always so quick to replace me
ion even blame them..
im a fuck up and all i do is cause pain...
pain....
pain...

and i hate my life if im really being honest
im just a monster chillin in a closet
wish i could get myself together
nothin' ever changes but the weather
and i cant take a look at myself cuz i hate em
that reflection staring back man i fuckin hate him...
and i swear to god that im not overreacting 
falling apart all the time is very taxing on my head
i cant ever get ahead
cuz life fuckin hates me...especially lately...

nobody out there could ever save me
i been screaming at the top of my lungs
cant somebody out there make me feel alive?
alive? 

and i hate my life if im really being honest...

cuz life fuckin hates me
especially lately...

life. [+irby & jolst]

@x1fern
@navyxower
@northshoremusic
@kuriositylol
@emptychest

War w/ 1fern, NAVYXOWER, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

what you'd do

prod. pekarot and jolst 



i gotta go it alone
i need the space to heal 
from the pain thats been caused
and  thoughts that i conceal
just give me a second to breathe 
wish i could fall asleep
two rips from the pipe, ill feel alright
why do i feel the need to apologize?
pretty fucked up, im not gonna lie
it happens every time
i go back to the moment
i dont regret it, i own it
the weight of the world has me feeling like im dope sick 
house set up in flames
so i forced a window to open 
i need to find out just why im so fucked in the head
i bet it’d make more sense if you found me dead
cause thats what you want anyway
my minds got something to say about it all the time
why
why the fuck do i even try? 
it seems that no remedy can suffice
my guilt is starving, watch it eat me alive
so i guess just let me know ill never get it right

i tell u, i do not know! (prod. pekarot x jolst)

prod branwenteeayemadeit!

breathing on sorbet
bitch i am gormet
i dig first class flights 
and i dont pay no 
i dont pay no entry price
that bitch is spice
that girl is nice 
yh i wanna fight

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt making sense/cents at all
i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt missing rent to ball
for my moms sake, i wish i could say
i dont miss smoking every night and every day

theres only so much i can say inside a letter cause its pricey as fuck and it wont make u feel better

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

look out my window like who da fuck is dat
i dunno im the queen of the maw
im the queen of the hive
im the queen of this life
baby life is like a combine
shoot that boy between his eyes

sorbettt

teeayemadeit

whts the prblem if im dead asl
everybody tries to be me i js wish em well
everybody knows i fell so deep inside this wishing well
if you lived with what i lived with youd wish you was in hell
yeah im on my chronyc shit im smoking on my toxic shit
its hard as fuck to gts cus im paranoid
sleep on my baretta cus i mean business
dont sleep on my bayonetta i mean business  
huh i cant even love rn im on another planet
sry if im rough i really didnt plan it
its really fuckin hard to not get up and 
get up
stop settling
and, "oh yeah, i owe you"
yeah u fuckin do
last week u stole my kid like wht the fuck it do?
thought u were my bro
thought were my brother
thought u were my blood
thought u were my one 
to hold onto when everything is fucking shit
when it goes dark when the lights turn out and i cannot see the spark
when i cant lie no more
when i cant breathe no more
when i cant stand more
when i pass out and im damn near dead but i really couldnt care no more
ive given up my body's laying on your floor
do whatever you want to me cause i just cant fight no more
i feel like i should feel bad but i dont know why or how yeah
and i cant get turned on, cus..


hey, dork
posted with a toy
you be shootin bbs 
i be smoking real joints
ion even see u as a person rn
i see u as a monster and its freaking me out
ay
the voices in my 
the demons in my
like to talk, i hear tapping n scratching on the wall
i shouldnt say that
ill drive a maybach.

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Featuring @sideviewdriveca, @neondion & @decksmusic
Produced by @pekarot_161
Mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli
Art by BunillaBunz

LYRICS
(Carlby)
Ain't got a dollar to my name but I'm so wealthy
And when I feel out of place my friends tell me
That I'm right where I'm supposed to be
But I'm afraid to open up
Don't get too close to me

No doubt
Wouldn't be here without you
Shout out to the homies
It's about you
I'm slowly finding my way
I'm hoping you do the same
Because we've got a lot to celebrate

Listen on Spotify!

Wealthy Pt. 2 w/ Sideview Drive, Neon Dion & decks (Prod. Pekarot)

scrap from learning to lose
+ alternate art i did not end up using
prod. @wisssery
much love, enjoy <3

i wrote the lyrics in a notebook so i will not be putting them here my bad guys hope u can understand