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nevermadeithome:

tell me where u been tonight 
i dont trust u 
why do smell like candles then 
oh you dont wanna play me right? 
ohh well that didnt last long 

have you ever lied to? 
of course you have 
you've been down bad 
thinking bout him 

he never really liked you 
like he said in a message 
but you dont get it 

i know u like sipping on white wine 
even though its quarter to 9 
u think ur cute cuz u bought urself a fiat 
but ur not cute cause ur trying hard to be it 

i wont lie and you will 
and your struggling to deal with him 
hes the lion ur the kill 
and u still will agree with him 

have you ever lied to? 
of course you have 
you've been down bad 
thinking bout him 

he never really liked you 
like he said in a message 
but you dont get it

sendflowrs:


i hear you bought yourself a new whip
that’s cool
except we’re not in school and i still dont like you
heard you been buying louis shoes since last fall
babe they’re so last year 
you don’t care cus
u bought yourself a fiat 
but where the rs3 at
shit never ends
always want what you can’t see and 
i’ma chef that pussy cus my ocd fiending 
i said fuck a vc leave the whole scene bleeding

cus i’m making music with my best friend u jealous
this shit come so easy elite i’m a zealot 
u sending out opens 
we link and we shell it 
fuck the whole scene
slthyerin on my sweater 

nevermadeithome:

have you ever lied to? 
of course you have 
you've been down bad 
thinking bout him 

he never really liked you 
like he said in a message 
but you dont get it

fiat w/ nevermadeithome (thislandis x taurs)

produced by hiraeth


how could my skin touch urs so comfortably
its not fair to say my bones would break
u said the world was waiting its too late
im in a war with nothing i could shake

body ache
wash away
any pain
nothing left

skin

produced by Furyl@EVOMUSIC

mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking
☆
i was always better under her control
i was tryna learn how to be alright
be alright..
☆
yeah..
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me
i know how to see right thru all of the screens
i taught myself how to back up when i need to
i taught myself how to love again cause i need to
to be alright
☆
mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking
☆
thanks for asking, i guess
but i dont wanna digest
the food heals my stomach
but the music heals my soul
ill just keep it quiet 
cause i dont want them to know
be alright..
☆
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me
i know how to see right thru all of the screens
i taught myself how to back up when i need to
i taught myself how to love again cause i need to
(i need to!)
(i need to..)
(i need to, yeah)
(i need to </3)
☆
mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking

i was always better under her control
i was tryna learn how to be alright
be alright..

how to love again

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

all instrumental rights belong to @idealismus
(completely non-profit)


legs shaking
sitting down's not enough, still vacant
just erase me
head down when i walk, they gazing
why talk when you know not a word getting through now
i don't wanna
but still gotta
be not a brain rotter

souls may tie
turn cries to weeps
don't try to be so kind to me
be my relief, so kill me now

make it my fault
just enough for the guilt to be wiped off
don't really care what they lied for

three down, feeling tipsed, no staging
falling used to feel amazing
my voice stay shaking
i'm sorry for the drinking

by the morning i mourn some more
throat burnt, puke all on the floor
i swore i used to be more than this
borderless, now i'm losing time
no love could be enough
but you said, "don't close in
you were meant for me, stay open."
thought clouds clear up real nice
but it's only for the night (3x)

respite [prod. idealism]

lyrics ⬇️

options yea I don’t got a lot of em
cautious cuz I don’t wanna fall for em
nauseous these women got me sick
what did I do to deserve part of this
did nothin but they always feel a way
Think I can’t function 
well lemme say something

i been doing better than I had ever did 
I’m so used to running from anything I’m ever scared of but
but brother turn 21
so I gotta sober up tell em what’s real love 
gotta brand new appartment 
but nobody here to tell me what to start with

we shoulda restarted cuz maybe if we did we coulda been something 

broke down to nothin
you don’t tell the truth you always be sussin
well lemme say something
i got the proof to show all ur assumptions 

like what’s more to lose
i got no time off barley buy shoes
i liked to drown myself in booze
but nowdays I’m better of without the juice

let me say something w/ halfhearted & greenwood (sorrowbringer)

Black and blue bags
hang up under his low eyes while stained red
Up for 3 nights 
nothing but drugs inside of his system inside of his head 
Take me this pill 
I’m doing anything but sleeping inside of this bed 
All the shit I’m abusing 
sooner than later this shit gon leave me dead 

I’m starting to come down, I’m starting to sweat, yeah I’m starting to quiver 
Taking these pills while drowning in alcohol baby im fucking my liver 
Life kills you anyway so I’m doing it my way and I’m just doing it quicker 
Taking these substances until I wake up in the morning in the bathroom looking even sicker

how to love again

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