shpwrt

emptychest archive

8/12/22

lyrics vvv

i never learned to be sad
i learn on my own
i never learned to leave home
i learned to go on
and now my chest just burns
and i cannot learn
im uncomfortable 
and nothing will change that
im just tryna be healthy
but i cannot learn
from anything that i see
anything will change in a matter of seconds
your whole life will go away if you let it
and your damn brain will fucking hurt if you let it
oh..
meet me in michigan..
its all over summer
its all over my heart
all over winter
and every month we already lost

i never learned to be sad
i learn on my own
i never learned to leave home
i learned to go on
and now my chest just burns
and i cannot learn
im uncomfortable 
and nothing will change that
im just tryna be healthy
but i cannot learn
from anything that i see
anything will change in a matter of seconds
your whole life will go away if you let it
and your damn brain will fucking hurt if you let it
oh..
meet me in michigan..
its all over summer
its all over my heart
all over winter
and every month we already lost

michigan (splashgvng)

lately

im scared.. </3
...
theres some things that i cant learn
and loving me is one of them
i aint afraid
i cant change at all
but do i even want to? 
thats the question
im still tryna learn my lesson
oh..
i back up when i really shouldnt
when the going gets hard
i get scared
im scared
they learned how to love me
so i loved em back
i didnt think i would
but i learned from that
but im hot
im cold
and i dont know who i am
im just tryna learn to love who i am
im a pretty girl trapped in someones body
i was tryna be someone and im sorry
this cold weather always overwhelms my body
its really hard to get a meal in my body

the storm (2001 x sor)

produced by wisssery & jolst.
lyrics vvv

they ask me
if i know anything,
it depends on whos asking
whos asking?
whos tryna fuck up my life again?
whos asking?
whos asking?
it depends
yeah it depends on whos asking
whos asking?
whos tryna fuck up my life again?
whos asking?
whos asking?
it depends
yuh
yuh

movin at light speed
i do not have time for that
i remember days when i was livin out my backpack
ive never been more uncertain
but ive never been happier for the future i see
grey cities 
toxic skies
black smoke
bad guys
battery
gas prices
no one really has what they need

and thats really the kind of disaster i see
(thats really the kind of disaster i see)
you can look at me dead,
but i love those sappy memories. :(
(those memories)
(ill let this go..)

mmh.
ooh
yuh ahh
yeah x5
and tell me
if i ever do,
it wrong..
and thats really the kind of disaster i see..
thats really the kind of disaster i see)
you can look at me dead,
but i love those sappy memories.

dead to me,
yeah ur dead to me
you aint ever motherfuckin been
there for me
hard
i know u dont have no guidance
u dont have a heart
i know u been trapped 
and u been lost inside the-
dark,
dark.

hey ask me
if i know anything,
it depends on whos asking
whos asking?
whos tryna fuck up my life again?
whos asking?
whos asking?
it depends
yeah it depends on whos asking
whos asking?
whos tryna fuck up my life again?
whos asking?
whos asking?
it depends
yuh
yuh

(livin out my backpack..)
(livin out my backpack...)

backpack.

produced by Furyl@EVOMUSIC

mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking
☆
i was always better under her control
i was tryna learn how to be alright
be alright..
☆
yeah..
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me
i know how to see right thru all of the screens
i taught myself how to back up when i need to
i taught myself how to love again cause i need to
to be alright
☆
mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking
☆
thanks for asking, i guess
but i dont wanna digest
the food heals my stomach
but the music heals my soul
ill just keep it quiet 
cause i dont want them to know
be alright..
☆
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me
i know how to see right thru all of the screens
i taught myself how to back up when i need to
i taught myself how to love again cause i need to
(i need to!)
(i need to..)
(i need to, yeah)
(i need to </3)
☆
mh
mh
i gotta put in work
i dont know what i did
to make you even hurt
mh 
mh
i know im sorry
i was just tryna party
but i guess its overdue
its over
guess its overdue
i wish i knew you
is this the new you?
and yeah, im over you
thanks for asking boo
thanks for asking
thanks for asking

i was always better under her control
i was tryna learn how to be alright
be alright..

how to love again

produced by nevrfall, artwork by @punimonnn on instagram

ive been grinding too long and im tired of waiting
on me
its all about who you know, and nothing else
i dont wanna spend the time to see where im headed
imma quit this shit because i dont like the setting
"you got a new fan", thats what they said, i appreciate it, but,
i..
ill never see the better side
this is a goodbye letter
it was fun, but i gotta get better
and you should know that i cant get it like this
so imma get it somehow else, i swear
its not what i wanted to do, but i have to
lifes pale like blue
youre someone i knew.

a goodbye letter.

My Shitty Love Songs On Her Playlist (jean parker & aidan han)

IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT (5head X Flower)

sk8miles

lyrics ♡

let's swim
in an ocean, full of sharks
full of sharks
let's swim
in an ocean, full of sharks
we got hella shards, breaking hella shards
let's swim
let's swim

chorus
tell me again
tell me again
ha, still not over me
still not over me
so ill tell you again
ill tell you again
you'll never find anybody
better than me
better than me
better than me
ain't no such thing as better than me
ain't nobody get you wetter than me
i see you for what you're pretending to be
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

post chorus
in your room

verse
ha, i hope that
when you're w him, you're screaming my name
ha, i hope that he knows
that you liked when i fucked on your face
ha, those were the better days
those were the better days
take me back to those better days (no they weren't lolll)
when i was w you, damn i made it a wetter day
and now im chilling watching anime
fucked a new bitch, it's like any day
but anyway, ive been gaining
like hella weight
cuz of raising canes, so
working it off
balling so hard, like im in the nba 
im the one like an ace of spades
but fuck it imma leave you anyway

chorus
tell me again
tell me again
ha, still not over me
still not over me
so ill tell you again
ill tell you again
you'll never find anybody
better than me
better than me
better than me
ain't no such thing as better than me
ain't nobody get you wetter than me
i see you for what you're pretending to be
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

outro
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

let's swim in an ocean full of sharks

a song i wrote in 2019 and released in 2020. it's a song about struggling with addiction, and trying to love not only yourself, but another person. a failing relationship between two people because of addiction. the 2nd and new verse, is a letter to 14 year old me. and a memory for the older one. this song is a personal battle, the death and the aftermath of what's to come. thank you for listening.

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
she never come around, when i'm on drugs
idk what to quit. is it drugs or love?
i feel like it's too much to ask
i'd say i love you, but i'll never take it back
would you take it back, if you said so?
i feel like i can ask, but i'd rather not know
on the road
run away from you
scared of love i don't know what to
do
idk what to do

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse 2
it's been years since i met you
and i've been trying to forget you
it's been years since i met you
and all i wanna do
is forget you
i gave it up for you, gave it up for you
i got sober for you, damn i got sober for me too
huh, i guess that's just the both of us
i guess we're growing up
go back to them days, poppin xans
i'll take another one
getting high with you, getting high with you
thought i'd OD, might just end up dyin with you
sobriety is something i could never do
i hope you're proud of me, the same way that i'm proud of you
i'm just tryna stay clean for my family
if i die young, then i'm dying happily
i don't wanna be here, not anymore
6 pills, now i'm falling to the floor

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

limbo (2022)

run from you feat kii. (malloy x max flynn)

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/bornhero for the amazing beat <3

lyrics:
where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i do not know
how to fit in
smoking me out
ripping a spliff  
everyone loves me when i go and dip
everyone loves me when i go and dip

everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
i'm stuck here 
writing simple songs
hope to take the pain away
when my eyes turn to gray
i know 
that my secrets buried deep below the bong
will release
every thought i'm feeling making me do wrong

where i belong
i will not know
every weekend i'm feeling so low
no where to go 
staying at home
staring at walls scrolling twitter alone
hit up my phone
leave you on read
people around treating me like i'm dead
feel like a ghost
no one will post
sit in my bed think about you again   

no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti
no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti

i take control of the whip in my mind
driving me places that i can't define
exploring the road, taking my time
lie to my friends when i say i'm alright
where have i gone
i do not know 
hop in the car and i'm driving alone
phone is on silent not trusting these tones
i feel the weight all the way to my bone

where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i take control of the whip 
going straight 90 i dip
exploring the vessel of me
tell me about what you see

where i belong (prod. born hero)

my first actual project, I'm aware that its rough but things will get better with time.

light

you wont miss me. (prod irby)

loml (prod jody)

at least i tried

co prod @hellahaunted

lyrics:

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

i was focused on the music
you were tryin not to lose it
i was tryin not to lose you
but the bass slaps and the queues rip

like damn nates really goin in
like damn nates really poppin off
like new fit like every week
match primitive with the polo socks (awe yea)

grape jays in my jansport
got mad stamps in my passport
gon drop sum you won’t ask for
i smoke big gas in my back porch

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

you need a song you can rock to
ill give you somethin to scream
our generation’s so fucked up
nobody knows what to think

and i been thinkin on the days when
everything was what it seems
way before i felt grown up
or even knew what that means

we all know life can be a bitch
i lost my friend that’s how it is
i lost my girl then bought a whip
i thought I’d heal i never did

i still smoke strong and cry allot
i miss my ex it’s hard to stop
i miss her touch the way she walk
i miss those early morning talks

I miss the coffee in the morning
and those bright green eyes
i gave you everything i had
well at least i tried

and i don’t ever feel myself unless you’re by my side
i gave you everything i had before you cut all ties

ALIT

joke's on you

tragedy

LYRICS:-
i would risk my heart
just to love you
i would risk it all
just to fall for you

baby don't cry,
i know that you're trying
baby don't lie,
i know that you're hurting
is it too much? is too much 
for you
maybe it's time? maybe it's time 
for you
to feel what i feel
to see what i see
to know that my love is real
i would never lie to you
you know that i'll die for you
so rest your head on me
you can put your trust in me
i can treat you like a queen
so just put your love on me