The Upload 52

Old ass song lmao hope u enjoy

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Stream:

Prod Sorrow Bringer


lyrics:

holding on
never felt so damn hard
there's snow on my car
don't think i'll get that far

could you drive me home
i don't know where to go
lemme tell you a tale
bout a man i used to know
he looked just like me with a smile on his face
and he looked me in the eyes and said it'd be okay
imma grit my teeth 
take a punch to my face
could you knock me out cold 
really need to learn my place
i'm awake all night really waste my time
no point in living when i hate this life

oh 
sorry i gotta go
really gotta get back home
just tore my favorite coat
what a joke
no 
i won't be here for the sun
i've lived my life enough
got a bullet in this gun
better run

holding on
never felt so damn hard
there's snow on my car
don't think i'll get that far

i been flying real low
i been driving real slow
lately you been so cold
only see you when it snow
oh

holding on
never felt so damn hard
there's snow on my car
don't think i'll get that far

holding on (sorrow bringer)

prod. THERSX

I just want some friends 
I just want some money 
I just want a big gold tooth looking gummy 
You won’t see me in a benz or a Maserati 
I just wanna whip a white sprinter trueno lookin fucking snobby
I don’t need your bitch I can call her honey 
I don’t need your lip I know how to be funny
I don’t need this dick I like feeling something 
Now you’re sick cause you regret being scummy

You looking at two ways with two faces 
Like there’s two different things you’re perceiving 
Memory in my brain you’ve depleted
Keep on with mind games yeah you’re beating me
Cause you’re good at lying and cheating 
I don’t know what to say when you’re leaving 
Die alone in this bed with no reason
Everything we had it’s just leaking 

I just want some friends 
I just want some money 
I just want a big gold tooth looking gummy 
You won’t see me in a benz or a Maserati 
I just wanna whip a white sprinter trueno lookin fucking snobby
I don’t need your bitch I can call her honey 
I don’t need your lip I know how to be funny
I don’t need this dick I like feeling something 
Now you’re sick cause you regret being scummy

You looking at two ways with two faces 
Like there’s two different things you’re perceiving 
Memory in my brain you’ve depleted
Keep on with mind games yeah you’re beating me
Cause you’re good at lying and cheating 
I don’t know what to say when you’re leaving 
Die alone in this bed with no reason
Everything we had it’s just leaking

two ways

two ways (prod. THERSX)

all plats

nothing's working w/ ninewaters [prod. zupehr]

im too fucked
im too tired
i dont care
but i care..
too far gone to even show no signs
thinking of you keeps me up all night
x2
i need somebody to depend on
i cant do this shit all alone
im tryna find love online
i dont got shit to do tonight
so call me up tonight
spend some time together
get to know eachother
right..?
cus ion got time to waste 
cus ive felt
all the sadness that i wanna feel
its been too long
fighting w myself
every other night is dealin w somebody else
every other night is fuckin w somebody else
i just need somebody just to mend my broken heart,
like.

I care. (despairintoashes)

i feel like lately in life
nobody can understand 
i hide my pain in my music 
that’s what we do when we men

i do not show how i feel 
i fake it you’d think i was fine 
honestly it’s getting hard
finding my way in this life 

my girl left in the past week and it kills me not to see her 
my heart breaks cause the damn shame when it’s my fault and i need her 
i loved you
and i told you 
you believe me 
but you still leave 
now i’m tryna stay but it’s so hard i’m holding on so i don’t bleed  

i’m writing songs till i feel alright 
and i’m 10 in but i’m not okay  
i’m looking back on them old days 
that i spent w you 
for you ran away 
for you go and change 
leave me all alone 
i don’t know to feel  
how am i to cope 
when the pills are gone  
and you not at home 
when i wanna die where am i to go
Tryna look forward in life 
But it’s hard since you left I been feelin alone
It’s you that’s been stuck on my mind 
Do shit out of spite 
It’s hard doin shit on my own 
Reluctant to listen to those who help 
But looking back now Shit I wish I had known 
Blinded by thoughts of the future I never saw all of the colors of you that was shown 

A smile is only a mask
Just Trying to cover my past 
Did you ever feel wrong for your lies
If you wanted to leave shoulda asked 

Shit at least did you ever regret
All those misleading things that you said
When you claimed you’d be better off dead
Overthinking just fucked up my head 

Bitch you never tried 
Can’t run from these problems there’s nowhere to hide
I’d Swallow a pill for I swallow my pride 
These Demons they talk in the back of mind 
I keep reaching out while you leave me behind 
Drown in my thoughts I don’t care to survive 
I rememeber you’re gone when I look to my side yea
Yea 
I know that you’re gone am I still on your mind

Waiting (feat. Maiza)

Lil soundcloud exclusive cause I realized the beat wasn't available for purchase after I made the song so enjoy this one on sc only

timeloop (Prod. Matthew May)

BEAUTIFUL DISASTER 💖

https://soundcloud.com/secre_swallowtail?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

This is a cry for help

Lyrics

Im a zombie on the drugs isn’t it obvious
These days i swear even just breathing feels laborious
Overdosing on my sorrow, 
sprinkling angel dust
Take a couple more 
Ill feel my body slowly rust
Wont be long till my depression is victorious
post my final goodbye on my insta story huh
whats the point if all my happiness vicarious
thinking bout the future can be kinda scary huh

but “just stay positive”, is worthless when my feelings numb
“Just hang in there”, from my ceiling in a minute huh?
I make a point to never rely on somebody else
Cos When I’m suffering i try to keep it to myself

put my feelings to the side to try maintain my health
But its eating me from inside please somebody help
I think nobody heard my cries im on my own in hell
lying on my side i swear i can hear heavens bells

I spent the last few days just tryna figure out myself
i struggle doing basic shit without somebodies help
i struggle functioning without the pills on top my shelf
Maybe one day i will feel better about myself

Im a zombie on the drugs isn’t it obvious
These days i swear even just breathing feels laborious
Overdosing on my sorrow, 
sprinkling angel dust
Take a couple more 
Ill feel my body slowly rust
Wont be long till my depression is victorious
post my final goodbye on my Insta story huh
whats the point if all my happiness vicarious
thinking bout the future can be kinda scary huh

zombie (secre x just rt productions)

[+ sogimura]
@emptychest
@x1fern
@northshoremusic
@user-214421742

Lost My Life w/ The North Shore, emptychest, 1fern & cash nasty

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artist: Aiden Hilton
Produced by: shxdy808
Mixing: lil XipZ x Aiden Hilton
Mastering: lil XipZ
Cover art: lil XipZ
-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-×-
@xipz_sad.am 
@shxdy808
@aidenhiltonlovesyou
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LYRICS
[Chorus: lil XipZ]
she just liked my ig post, baby thats too digital
chasing big bands, all my money physical
gonna get to the check, shooting for a mill or 2
if you trynna steal a kiss, baby im not into u

[Chorus: Aiden Hilton☆]
baby im not into you and you not into me
i be off the shrooms, percocets and lean
if you call my phone imma let it ring
like shawty i dont want to talk please dont message me

[Verse: lil XipZ]
yeah my phone on dnd 
dont hit me up cuz baby imma let it ring
know u want me cuz the money and cuz of how i sing
stop going around telling people that you with me

you not with me baby, we are not a thing
you can keep on chasing, i tell you how it is
dont need a bitch that acts just like a bitch
need a bitch thats down no matter what it is

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
she just liked my ig post, baby thats too digital
chasing big bands, all my money physical
gonna get to the check, shooting for a mill or 2
if you trynna steal a kiss, baby im not into u

[Chorus: Aiden Hilton☆]
baby im not into you and you not into me
i be off the shrooms, percocets and lean
if you call my phone imma let it ring
like shawty i dont want to talk please dont message me

Digital (w/ Aiden Hilton☆) [Prod. Shxdy808]

new single off my new album 'for better or worse' coming March 24th!!

production by the amazing @kingtheta

Lyrics:
(verse)
taking my time 
stuck in decline 
i been told to smell the roses 
but i can’t find them 
and i’m still hopin 
for all of this to get better in time 
if i turn a leaf would it change my mind?
cuz i’m feelin hopeless staring at the progress 

(pre-chorus)
i don’t want this but i still need this 

(hook)
like to think that it’s coming along but 
my feelings change and i’m so damn wrong (hey)
wanna say that i’ll fix my ways 
but if i do what will i be? 
this life is exhausting 
my problems they haunt me 
ill
give it another day 
drowning in all this weight
if you still wanna change 
make sure it’s steadily 

(verse)
shouldn’t this be easy?
but i’ve got a pocket full of reasons not to be free 
and it takes its toll 
trying to take my mind off of all the things 
that i can’t control 

(pre-chorus)
i’ve been faking my progress 
in hopes i can stop it 
i thought it’d be simple 
the truth is it’s not 
(yet i still)

(hook)
like to think that it’s coming along but 
my feelings change and i’m so damn wrong (hey)
wanna say that i’ll fix my ways 
but if i do what will i be? 
this life is exhausting 
my problems they haunt me 
ill
give it another day 
drowning in all this weight
if you still wanna change 
make sure it’s steadily 

make sure its steadily

steadily [prod. King Theta]

beat prod by: wisssery 
written and performed by: popularreject x lil XipZ x safeatlast

scratches + lil XipZ x safeatlast (p. wisssery)

Track 9 on my album 'for better or worse'!

produced by @livingpuffy 

Lyrics:
grey skies through bloodshot eyes 
i still can’t feel a thing but at least i’m trying 
take me there to a place i’m not terrified 
can you see in my face all the black and blue i hide 
it takes a toll when you walk in circles 
working miracles just to find a new low 

when you found me 
i had nowhere to hide 
broken felt dead inside 
transparence amplified
took the long way 
to find a reason why
needing to rectify 
strung out from taking my time 
ill call it bad but youll call it luck 
meet in the middle shake off this rut 
that i’ll kick when i find my place 
when you found me 
you caught me in my fall 
had nothing left to give 
so i gave you my all 

start to think that maybe i’m colorblind 
pull the shades feel the light as i try to remind myself through the fear and doubt
what it’s like to be strong when the lights go out
but maybe i’m wrong and maybe you’re right 
that we’re not all gone to win a desperate fight
and i know that 
it’s beginning
if you’re with me
then i’m winning

when you found me [prod. LIVING PUFF]

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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artists: teddyboi x Crizzy White x Danny's Adventures x GetBetter x JadedLoner
Produced by: lil XipZ x Crizzy White
Mixed by: lil XipZ x teddyboi x Crizzy White x Danny's Adventures x GetBetter x JadedLoner
Mastered by: teddyboi
Cover Art by: lil XipZ
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LYRICS:

[Intro: teddyboi]
yeah idk what i did but i really seem to fuck up
everythings to loud can you please stfu
you dont get it like me
pray that someone else kill me im like please
said i got a pyramid on top of my head
lots of percocet and codein all over my nightstand
best friends with Vyvanse and best friends with nicans
it over yet i cant im sorry but i cant

[Verse 1: lil XipZ]
i want you to kill me
just end it all quickly
im tired of feeling the worst

im lost inside the haze
im lost inside a maze
babe come look at my face
im the worst

[Verse 2: Crizzy White]
I know I'm the worst
Babe
I know that it's thirst
Babe
It's always the same things
Getting up in my way
Anxious tendencies
ADHD 
On the worst days
When it was our first date
Loved you from the first date 
I'm the punchline of a joke
At the end of my rope
Dead end of the road
Broken boy that you don't know
You only know me in the flow
You only know me when I grow
You'll never know me like for real
You only know what imma show

[Bridge: Danny's Adventures]
break me down, break me down now
hear me out, hear me out now
can not forget, still have no regret
anywhere you wanted to go i would take you there
oh yeah anywhere i go i cant leave you there
youll leave the rest behind

[Verse 3: lil XipZ]
thought that i could move on
i guess that i was wrong
dont know what im feeling
id say im feeling numb

you loved to see me at my worst
id say it isnt true, but it is and it hurts
feeling like my hearts gonna burst
next time you see me itll be in a hurst 


[Verse 4: GetBetter]
idk his lyrics

[Verse 5: JadedLoner]
She got me down on the floor
Damn near begging for more
I cannot stand this whore
Rather feel the blade soar
Over my wrist again
Now she’s calling my friends 
No I’m not feeling great more like I need a break 
And I’m 

Feeling the worst 
Even calling you first 
Catch me slip on that verse
Name dropped that lil bird
I’m the one that she stuck on 
I am hurt
If everyone wasn’t dying 
Probably pop me a perc 

[Outro: Crizzy White]
Suffering
Im mutilated
Spill my guts 
I'm recreated
Only live a lie
That's why I'm so dead inside 
I took the bottle to my brain
I said I'm ready for the ride
It's full throttle in the rain
Clip the bridge and fucking die
I'm a psychopath 
Insomniac
A broken boy
A fucking act
A filtered noise
Through broken glass
Of screaming thoughts 
I shouldn't laugh
But everything I hear 
I fear I'll feel it the morning 
I hold it way too dear
And near the tape is now recording

I care. (despairintoashes)

emptychest (kill breanna)

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