mixed/mastered by me and kinshii
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feat. https://soundcloud.com/kinshii
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prod by https://soundcloud.com/hellahaunted & https://soundcloud.com/sainttomorrow
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//LYRICS//
its been a long time I swear that I do miss you its been 3 months and i swear that i am trying I'm still used to this and I'm so sick of this I'm stuck at home all alone i am sick today

in my room and I'm feeling so faded don't know what to grabbing my knife I'm gonna stab myself and you don't love me like before oh before 

its been a long time I swear that I do miss you its been 3 months and I swear that I am trying I'm still used to this and I'm so sick of this I'm stuck at home all alone i am sick today every time I wake up feeling wasted times moving really fucking fast and I don't like that why you talk to me I don't talk to you every time I wake up wanna sleep some more

(Kinshii)
now my beds the place i spend my days i can’t get up staring at a screen i do this every night and i don’t want to talk about it appreciate the thought but i’ve been trying to push away what makes me feel alive that’s growing up guess i can’t take it life used to be fun, now i live sedated don’t know why im smoking but still getting faded maybe the clouds free my brain from its cages sike no it’s not, causing a block life’s getting harder and harder than cock prosthetic leg maybe hard as rock kick to the face and it don’t ever stop and my family keeps calling me crazy probably cause i ain’t speak to them lately i been showing the signs someone save me and the reaper just said he’s done waiting truthfully not sure what im supposed do and the voice in my head, who im talking to is convincing enough, i might follow through or maybe i won’t just to stay with you

used to it w/ kinshii (prod. caspr & saint tomorrow)

lyrics

is ur life so fucking boring
that u feel the need to stalk me
and do,
u tell all of these lies
for attention? well our eyes are on u
is it weighing on ur soul?
everything that u uphold?
or are u just a psychopath?
ur feeling pretty bold
and ur eyes are looking cold
for someone that wasnt built to last

all eyes on u

and this isnt real, do u care how i feel
when the moments that we used to cherish are gone
n my skin starts to peel, so then i made a deal
with a devil of sorts that i have in my bones
n he took the hate, n he took the pain
n turned it around till theres nothing to gain
from sitting in place when i cant feel my face
when im finding some solace in drugs that i take

all eyes on u

produced by pekarot

completely non profit

lyrics

she said hold me
but i cant promise ill feel it im seeing stars 
is it haunting
that theres no pain from a blade if its sharp enough
and the gauze sits tight over covered scars
but its damp with blood and it smells of rot
sweat soaked nights in a bricked out yard
with my carved up fingers spilling fat n tar
and im barely concious but ill never yawn
as i stare straight faced at this silent dawn
and im such a sucker for a pretty face
when she looks at me i just melt n place
signals sent are so badly mixed
as my head is empty like a bedroom sit
and i write these songs when im feeling sick
cause a state of panic is how i exist

so i numb myself and try to take away the things that make me care

dont pretend u were there

my heart beats heavy hidden in my chest
n i feel the blood flow out the wound in my neck
n ive said this before but ur face drags the air from my chest 
if u laid me down id do the rest
please do not fret

honestly? im still miserable
but its not ur fault, we were both involved
and i am not but a shit-stained mark
on her polaroids of a bedroom wall

so i sit and i just drink myself to death again for one more night

ima fuck up my life 

i just hate the fact im tired all the god damn time

bell's line of road (pekarot)

Lyrics:

this shit is fuckin targeted
so ill say it as i mean it
i'm so sick of all the paragraphs
but i feel like you need them
all the years of gearing up
unsheathing swords and fighting demons
never thought i'd die to you
a pretty girl who sent me reeling

this shit is fuckin targeted
so ill say it as i mean it
i'm so sick of all the paragraphs
but i feel like you need them
all the years of gearing up
unsheathing swords and fighting demons
never thought i'd die to you
a pretty girl who sent me reeling
honestly in many ways i think i'm really missing you
i've still thought of coming back but i don't think we'd change our views
thought i knew all that i wanted i assumed that you did too
looking back i'm fucking stupid
fixing shit that wasn't strewn
so i guess it's an apology for feeling all my feelings
for looking this far into things that held no fucking meaning
but knowing you
you'd get me quick
for why i acted on a weakness
and i don't think it's what i want
so please 
i need a single reason

i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you
i just need a single reason
to come back to you

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you couldn't know what it's like.
you couldn't know what it's like
don't u dare pretend u get this
don't u dare pretend u get this.
it's a unique pain
it's a unique pain
it's a unique pain
yea somehow this shit don't feel the same.

a dragonslayer's weakness (sadtxnshi)

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & 2001
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
and I really have to do this for myself;
growing up, and facing fears, and learning i cant dissapear	
its one thing after another
study hard, and dont blow your cover
learn all the lessons you lost
cause school was tough, and inside youre soft
you loved your dad, cause he was all that you had
to pat your back on the way, and say its okay
you loved your mom, (I love you) cause she was your home
(my home) and your only friend or anything that made you feel a little bit less messed up  
cause a little means alot ;/
and now i got almost everything that i want
but im stil trying for what i- dont have,,
"dont look back" is what they told me,
so ill keep on living till the, old me dies
dies (What a-)
dies
dies
until-
until he dies.

I'm on my way

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez & Ally Holloway
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶

don't worry, you'll be fine.
don't worry, you'll be fine..

and I dont know how serious it really is
I dont know what i want

and it echoes thru these halls again
and the ghost you left still wanders around
(it still wanders)
woah

silence speaks more than sound
I've been lost and found

Lost and found

mixed, mastered, and written by Ally Holloway
produced by wissery & yago
٩(× ×)۶

it's really not meant to be,
i know..
i know..
but i get to caught up,
and i love it..
i love it,
i love it..

and yeah, he gets high,
and i know you do too.
he gets by,
and i know you dont,
and i know you dont.
(no)
seeping in, bleeding out,
do you know what i mean?
a world of pain, doesnt amount,
to what i need to learn.
yeah,
I'll do what he wants, and ill pull it back for you.
yeah,
him and her and all that fuckin bullshit,
and if i dont care, am i just a fuckin fool, man?

and yeah, he gets high,
and i know you do too.
he gets by,
and i know you dont,
and i know you dont.
(no)
seeping in, bleeding out,
do you know what i mean?
a world of pain, doesnt amount,
to what i need to learn..

Just getting by

lyrics

single off new ep all prod @secre_swallowtail
thx to @tearsonmygucci for the fire ft 
mix & mastr by @fleshgolem <3

//mæsk//
aren’t i enough
nough
push me away in to dust
picked apart as i rust
out in space time is slow but ur touch gives me a rush

just let me float now
flatline with no sound
dont give me false hope 
id rather not come down

id rather not come down
theres no life
no life in this world
oh, so id rather drift to the hole
she said dont go
u had ur chance to save me now 
now rest my soul

baby 
i jus gotta ask
will u remember me
coz i wont be coming back

//tearsonmygucci//

will you remember
sleeping in next to me love in november
eyes spilling embers
i can still feel how you touched me so tender 

spliffs at the hotel
now that your gone i just can't fucking sleep well
you seemed appalled
question if this shit was worth it at all

losing my head
eyes turning red
stains on the carpet from where my heart bled
saw in your eyes
you want me dead
silence the pain with some fucking meds

one single look made me question it all
i just wander outside and i walk till i fall
and i went past your place again just out of habit
i knew we'd lose from the moment we had it

novembrrr ft tearsonmygucci (secre)

old one i got around to finishing
rly love this one hope u do too
yr support forever means the world
new drops been goin up on the main go check those if u want
goodnight decks nation

lyrics:
say
grace
underneath ur breath
i still wonder if muttering that would be worth
the
taste
of whats holding u back
while im tethered to weights at the bottom of all these 
waves
they come crashing down
i just hope to god im making u proud
i guess that i just win some & lose some
never meant to abuse what we got but i

feel my life pass me by
something’s off, you’re not by my side
guess the roses i got were consolation
saw the hand i held in constellation
knew u best as earth precipitated
all my problems now are predating
the present, i wanna feel
like its never for the best, what i want is real
i’ve saved what is left, all behind my shield
i’ve made that left, now im right to deal alone

say grace [metlast x 5head]

spending my time on a melody
whats that, tryna stab me in the back
ur way too late, plus ur ignorance it smacks
ur bad,  what the hell happened, to that, that, that.

i dont wanna mess up
gotta chase, chase that, on my back
ur gonna latch, latch, latch, yeah ur wack
so i wont be down bad, will we last, sorry to ask

i dont wanna do wrong
I DONT WANNA WRITE A SONG
about how bad i was then
can we let it go, damn.

big choice, big mouth, oh my god
i dont wanna deal with ur shit, on my lawn
im getting tired of it all
wanna end it all
i thought we were friends
but, nah, no noo!

you were such a good guy
18 yeah you'd look me in the eye
we were tight, hanging out into the night
oh my, guess that i was blind

*NEVER HAD A GIRL THAT WAS MINE*

you made me feel like i had home inside
yeah right, its fake, why'd i try
pleased on, then said goodbye
blocked me out, well i guess it was a good try

*now i feel used and abused
like a tool, always such a fool
i never let friends go, they all move on by
guess its just the man, inside*

i dont wanna mess up
gotta chase, chase that, on my back
ur gonna latch, latch, latch, yeah ur wack
so i wont be down bad, will we last, sorry to ask

i dont wanna do wrong
I DONT WANNA WRITE A SONG
about how bad i was then
can we let it go, damn.

its clear to see that you are just the problem
everybody who u knew is gone, and ur so awful
never meant to try
now im outta line

for caring about friends
why did you pretend.

used and abused (prod. dead spyro x 2001)

prod secre and prophecy
mixed/mastered by me

Lyrics:

blood drips from my eyes
i still hate our mutual ties
heart beats fast while lines of powder
find their way inside 
i decipher lies
from the look upon your eyes
and i could find my way
but i won’t make on my own
i spill
my heart out on the line
i cry 
more when i can’t decide 
and i wish
that i made up my mind
before i went and 
carved your life from out my time

well you shouldn’t
and for that
i shouldnta stood it
you brought it up
shoulda kept that shit inside
cause how the fuck
you gon wish that i had died 
like i’m not perfect 
but i got an ounce of pride
and i still hold it in my heart
the words you swore were not a lie
but it’s still hard to decipher
i gotta dislodge the knife first 
gotta dislodge the knife first
not really much of a fighter 
and i hold my tongue back
but you jump at the spark of a lighter

Lost and found

emptychest (kill breanna)

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