wintry synth-pop

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'in medias res'

introooo

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the news dropped, and i’m blocked from the inside.
sitting in pitch black just waiting for myself to cry-
why does it feel too easy putting on a smile?
it ain’t like the movies - no sad music, just pure silence now.

it’s like i split in two and they see one of me!
how selfish i am to share the load...
gone too soon, an utmost tragedy.
it’s better if nobody knows, i’ll deal the fatal blow.
don’t let them see or i’ll weep the whole world over,
cos maybe then they’ll let me fucking breathe.

i need to see what’s wrong with me.
my hearts slow, but i’m breathing too fast
the world’s in the wrong place, feeling no type of way
can't help but keep losing my trust, and i’ll leave myself in the dust
yeah, we’ll put it all down to fate - surely i’ll see better days...

call myself an actor, they say it’s nothing to cry about.
now i seem way more mild-mannered, the smile is lost but not yet found.
it’s like i skip two steps then go back three, normal emotions aren’t my thing, you see :(
anything i’d do to get out! get me out!
it’s a fucking ghost town, the busiest around...
these thoughts that run past meeee, can’t help but let them keep me down.
 
it’s like i split in two and they see one of me!
how selfish i am to share the load...
gone too soon, an utmost tragedy.
it’s better if nobody knows, i’ll deal the fatal blow.
don’t let them see or i’ll weep the whole world over,
cos maybe then they’ll let me FUCKING BREATHE AHHHH-

dwell in the silence and it's crippling
dwell in the silence and it's crippling
dwell in the silence and it's crippling

i need to see what’s wrong with me.
my hearts slow, but i’m breathing too fast
the world’s in the wrong place, feeling no type of way
can't help but keep losing my trust, and i’ll leave myself in the dust
yeah, we’ll put it all down to fate - surely i’ll see better days...

written a while ago, but it hits harder now.

limina

silence

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created in a week for the niztopia x pharaoh vice contest
listen on all plats here: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/tell-me-what-you-want-feat-lo3rd--qliche

prod by:
https://soundcloud.com/yonklolz - 0:00 - 2:00, 3:18 - 4:12
https://soundcloud.com/lo3rd - 2:00 - 4:12

vocals by:
https://soundcloud.com/yonklolz
https://soundcloud.com/lo3rd
https://soundcloud.com/inholyful

lyrics: 

yonk:
when you know
that something's up will you care for me
i dont wanna keep on running
feel like it is all for nothing
the struggle
of giving up everything for this shitty dream
i dont know who im trusting
well we were just kids
doing shit for the thrill of it
struggling just sitting here
just whispering
i cant relapse
i cant help this feeling that its all gon be alright
just you hold on tight
circling, spiraling 
i dont know what to do
but we'll make it through

lo3rd:
i got sum reasons... to believe u want me, to believe u want me
oh ik that im in ur head
ohh just, tell, me
jus take my hand and... tell me what u want why u need me
i jus dnt kno what u wait for..

and if youre used to
playing all these games
dont lose your times cuz ill jus tell u no
and if youre used to
playing all these games
jus turn away n dont be looking back

tell me what u want why u need me (x3455)

qliche:
Tell me what U want
cause I aint wastin no time
Just tell me whats on your mind
and Im so god damn sick and tired 
I guess I got to move on
But do you want me to?

I keep doin this shit over and over 
You keep pulling the strings like a puppet now
Telling me that you dont love me now
And got someone else that will hold you down
In the end ill be okay
Unitl these feelings go away

Tell me why it hurts
whats with all the pain?
Think ive really had enough
Im giving up
Ive had it with these games you play
Its so insane, now

and I cant break FREE 
Your eyes are so decieving 
Contradicting all your lies
and I see- 
I see right through your disguise (THIS iS WHO YOU REALLY ARE)

radio bitch:
is equally...*unintelligible*

listen on all plats

tell me what you want (ft. lo3rd and qliche)

in my head ft. austyn with a y

shoutout cmwbeats as usual

1. crossroads
2. jim and mariah
3. issa good morning fr

issa good morning

fresca

prod and vocals by me.
stream here:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/the-help

the help

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max: https://soundcloud.com/maxrrss
bugs: @bugs
//Lyrics

(Scruff)
Obvious you tryna do this by yourself 
Stick up in the background keep it on the shelf
You got this sh*t passed down, i dont need your help
You dont need to back down, i could get this dealt
With
I cant be alive with the selfish
Puttin me on trial, but i felt it
All the gas wont help it
Im tryna say somethin

(Max)
So tell me, whats wrong
I dont wanna see you, too long
Be gone (gone)
(gon-gone)

(Scruff)
See your eyes you been cryin
Thats on me
You try to be biased
I cant breathe
I know my ex is proud of me
Get it out
Shoulda said sumn, but your missing out
See this out, whatchu on about
said im sorry
Thats on me
I dont need a possy
Set me free
Oh oh you dont know my pain
F*ck F*ck imma break these chains
I dont hear you, say my name
Say my name

Obvious you tryna do this by yourself 
Stick up in the background keep it on the shelf
You got this sh*t passed down, i dont need your help
You dont need to back down, i could get this dealt
With
I cant be alive with the selfish
Puttin me on trial, but i felt it
All the gas wont help it
Im tryna say somethin

(Max)
So tell me, whats wrong
I dont wanna see you, too long
Be gone(gone)
(gon-gone)

(Scruff)
You dont need to back down, i could get this dealt
With
I cant be alive with the selfish
Puttin me on trial, but i felt it
All the gas wont help it
Im tryna say somethin

(Max)
So tell me, whats wrong
I dont wanna see you, too long
Be gone (gone)
(gon-gone)

selfish w/max [p. bugs]

watch me

ily all <3
LYRICS:
there aint really places left to go
im stuck inside my home 
home alone macauly culkin
i wanna cry alone 
maybe some time alone
either way you know im a keep smokin 
i probably die alone
a cup of styrofoam
in my had you probably think im jokin
when it comes to attention 
i always need to play center
the last name noah first name joakim

in my head i toss and turn till the morning
i cant deal with these feelings they feel foreign 
goddamn it everythings feelin boring 
i look outside my window yea the rain is pouring 
i tell myself itll get better by tomorrow 
the fake promises fill me with sorrow 
too many bitches in the past took my heart 
and left it borrowed 
who the fuck is that i feel like nardo 

i keep screaming as im running forward 
i hope it takes somewhere better 
than ive ever been before 
but ive been fuckin everywhere 
damn there aint really shit left to look at man 
i dont give a fuck anymore 
i put my all into this shit like 2 or 3 times 
and i still aint get nowhere 
it aint no fair 
but i dont care 
where to go from here there aint nowhere 

can you let me out 
let me out 
let me out 
let me out 
can you let me out 
let me out 
let me out 
let me out 

honestly i let myself down
i let judgment get so cloudy with self doubt 
forgot to wash away the fears when they come around
i shouldve listened to my own advice i cant 
yea im dirtier than dan 
just a product of my city tryna be what i can
here i go putting blame on everything but myself
yea i truly need help 
but i dont never wanna get it nah nah 

the creepy crawlies coming out at night 
i cant act like im surprised 
look between my eyes
i aint in disguise 
pain keeps repeating in my head 100 times 
i hope i know the day i die
so i can thank everyone who help me stay alive 
at the same time apologize for all the ruined lives
i dont know what im doing in this life 
but i dont wanna do it anymore 

in my head i toss and turn till the morning
i cant deal with these feelings they feel foreign 
goddamn it everythings feelin boring 
i look outside my window yea the rain is pouring 
i tell myself itll get better by tomorrow 
the fake promises fill me with sorrow 
too many bitches in the past took my heart 
and left it borrowed 
who the fuck is that i feel like nardo 

i keep screaming as im running forward 
i hope it takes somewhere better 
than ive ever been before 
but ive been fuckin everywhere 
damn there aint really shit left to look at man 
i dont give a fuck anymore 
i put my all into this shit like 2 or 3 times 
and i still aint get nowhere 
it aint no fair 
but i dont care 
where to go from here there aint nowhere 

can you let me out 
let me out 
let me out 
let me out 
can you let me out 
let me out 
let me out 
let me out 

there aint really places left to go
im stuck inside my home 
home alone macauly culkin
i wanna cry alone 
maybe some time alone
either way you know im a keep smokin 
i probably die alone
a cup of styrofoam
in my had you probably think im jokin
when it comes to attention 
i always need to play center
the last name noah first name joakim (x2)

joakim*

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/bugs9/bonnieclyde-2
pic taken by mom a while ago
نظارات
1st half co prod @1sssaint
additional vocals @heyzeph
PLEASE GIVE THEM SUM LOVEEE

bonnieclyde (all plats)

coprod @31sentinel
guitar by @billsburyjoeboi


LYRICS:

Can you show a little bit of sympathy
Or something please?
I need it
I think I lost my aim, reeling, feeling defeated
I guess I'll write another song and delete it
Because it isn't all what's meant to be 
I just feel like it ain't me, staring at a screen
Falling from the mezzanine I hope it make me bleed

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm alive
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

I need a therapy release to get blessed with peace, I plead
One shot and I'm down on my knees again
Can you show a little sympathy

Exhaustion runs through my lungs 
Selfishness, it's all for fun 
All humility is gone
So I'll find a way to be fine 
Wish you'd show a little more kindness 
Cause now your animosity's blinding 
Affection doesn't always need guidance 
With two sides, you'll always be biased 
Into me, the need is flowing
Sympathy, you never show it 
It's sad enough, commitment isn't mine
It's adding up, I'm bad enough to die

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm a lie
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

Put another face on and my body in the back-seat
Hold it on my hip, so a buddy couldn't blast me 
Keep it under lid, till my sons get the best of me 
Hold my heart in a hearse like it's meant to be

And you just couldn't believe how
Couldn't believe how I got it back

And you just couldn't believe how I got it all back
I need a new life cause of overreactions, it's
All strife since the day that you left 
I said I wish I knew a way to get the cold off my breath

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm alive
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

issa good morning

(v2) 'esbee*

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