produced by hiraeth


I caught you using what was left of me 
and my god its dumb what you mean to me
And you just can’t see what you did to me
No heart no soul 
Nothing left of me
And my god its embarrassing  
no thoughts just lay til im out of it
Now there’s snow where I used to be
Can’t you see you’ve taken every single part of me

Don’t go now im so scared 
I’ve waited for 2 years and now ur not there
My bones never harvest  call me an artist 
we where done when we started

Don’t go now im so scared
 I’ve waited for 2 years and now ur not there
My bones never harvest  call me an artist
 we where done when we started

Do you really believe that ? 
you love but its so bad 
And I should’ve seen that
 all i want is is a call back 
but i couldnt show that
now talking is so sad

i miss what we both had
but nothing in love lasts
and i should have known that  

AND MY GOD MY GOD ITS EMBARRASSING

Don’t go now im so scared 
I’ve waited for 2 years and now ur not there
My bones never harvest  call me an artist
 we where done when we started

Don’t go now im so scared 
I’ve waited for 2 years and now ur not there
My bones never harvest  call me an artist 
we where done when we started

alaska

cyclone (prod. brody + boyband + justjake)

Basketcase - Softheart

Vocals by @autumndropsdead
Produced by @solofttt
Mixed by @autumndropsdead
Mastered by @autumndropsdead
Cover art by @autumndropsdead
Curated by safehaven.

Lyrics:
maybe if i take my time, someone will take mine
that's something that i can do
only in my mind do our eyes collide
letting go of that fictional handle
like fuck, i wake up to the room still spinning
my head still hurting
my heart still beating
my thoughts still lurking
so i dumb me down with some drink and chase
have my thoughts erased, now i'm out of place yeah

i just wanna feel like you
i've grown so far from my youth
still searching for truth
underwhelming doom
who are you (3x)

fragile love never lasts
i'm too detached
i besought you of that
now i sit and wait, and recap the day
as i loop the night and let death permeate

now with their souls sown into air
(it doesn't matter now)
(oh, i'm wearing thin)
there's not much left to spare
that's always how it's been

where are we going
where are we going now
(where are we going now)
putting on a front 'till you notice
nothing but the sound of locomotives
i block out the commotion
i sought how you floated
and if the mountains stay as clouds,
i might stick around
'cause i've been seeing silhouettes of subtle texts
strewn all around about;
it's always the likes of:
former glory, forgotten stories,
violent break-ins, or quiet mornings
it's never bright, or the light is dim
i wonder when i'll feel whole again

i still haven't ran into anyone else
who knows me quite that well
at the end of the day, do i wanna be saved
from my, eyes

autumndropsdead - propel (soloft)

(prodbylxcid)

i don't need two hands 
driving in this whip without you still feels lonely
i wanna make 100 grand 
i wanna get you Cartier rings and rollie
your a bad b i'll do it for you 
and i swear that im all my grind just for you 
i only got one life 
so i booked this table for two

your the diamond on my earth yh
your the pearl of my sea 
lets climb all these mountains with you by my side 
im been driving in Calvin's all day that's vibe 

you got my back and i got your back too 
rolls Royce Cullinan stars in the roof 
green eyes i swear i fell in love with them 
your not a 9 girl, your a straight 10 

you call me up and ill be there in 5 
look at my watch and i'm stood there on time 
you looking gorgeous you looking all mine 
Cartier rings and rollie 
i need the Benz need to ball like im Kobe
cut all my friends off
no movement they're frozen 
im in the lead like im cheating im doping 
i need to look back and saver the moment 

your the diamond on my earth yh
your the pearl of my sea 
lets climb all these mountains with you by my side 
I'm been driving in Calvin's all day that's vibe 

i don't need two hands 
driving in this whip without you still feels lonely
i wanna make 100 grand 
i wanna get you Cartier rings and rollie
your a bad b i'll do it for you 
and i swear that im all my grind just for you 
i only got one life 
so i booked this table for two

i push the beta shit up of my chest 
ive been grinding week days week ends and the next
grinding for the cash 
cause i just want bad 
wanna buy you a diamond ring and a Prada bag

driving in this whip without you still feels lonely

prod me
guitar by Morgan Cheadle

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could
never even amount to the way we used to be no  

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but
ill do it for you i dont care about me still

its like i never even mattered
put my fist into a mirror just to watch it shatter
every day i eat my life away im only getting fatter
and the soul i left behind is begging me "do somethin about it"
i dont know how  
i dont even know where to start
its like the weight upon my shoulders keeps me off of the charts
its gettin sickening
try to do the things that i love but deep down
theyre only pulling strings away from my heart

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could (let me go)
never even amount to the way we used to be no
(this place reminds me of what we once called home)

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but (walkin this empty road)
ill do it for you i dont care about me still
(the path before mes left me nowhere to go)

chapter II: a reminder of home

lyrics

said id be good on my own
lately my world has been feeling so empty
trying to see it half full,
the devil been trying to tempt me
but id rather cry in a bently
than worry abt u and ur bestie
cuz it dosent rly effect me 

always too mad at myself
sick of the feeling
im stuck in a hell
not one for asking for help
know that your leaving 
i said id be better oh well
but it hurt when you grow apart
and u dont burn from the same soark
doibled down on the weong cards
g-got scrapped knee and a broke heart
gave u my all im not someone u wanted
and each time u call i hust feel like a puppet
supplying ur needs 
but im bleeding im gutted 
how come we always took the wrong turn
told you im sorry i dont want nobody else
breaking my body
im hoping somebody help
no one will find me
confind where we used to go
lay me to rest
in my room or the studio

thats the worst part
im stuck in my head 
i been stuck in my mental
never did go far
less that i think the more i feel pressure
got in my car and i drove
each mik im furthur frok home
ur helping me see
my music my peace
its holding me down
while ur watching me bleed


i promise i wanted to change
but evrrytime too stuck in my ways
run from my problems i tend to just fade
and now u gone start telling lies to my face
again
we were kids i know,
tryna get by in a world so cold
breaking me down they can pray on my downfall
end of the day this is what i was meant for.

grow apart [boyfifty]

lyrics ⬇️

Cover ur eyes dont look at me if you see me without you
no big surprise i gave you a thousand hours in the rearview
i wasted my time
really thought everything you said was so true
but i wasnt right
ur breaking my spine

they all see me smile still
from the outside it seems like im fine
but right now when i close my eyes
i find out That i crossed the line

im pushing 95 on the backroads
passing street signs i dont see those
got scratched eyes and a runny nose
some feline made me overdose

had one try now im over those
Still some nights 
on the summer roads
see the sunrise
i can see home
but thats not even where i wanna go

(evergarden)

bags under my eyes
i dont think i care enough
too bad i cant fall asleep 
knowing u try to gaslight me 
cross my mind
putting myself first for once
oh its unlike me i think
oh it weighs on me i sink 

she said my songs alright but it sounds unlike me
its just me being honest and its getting too much

i can see home w/ evergarden (yunnygoldz)

lyrics⬇️
crushing the thoughts that been breaking me down
how could i write so much and you never liked my sound
voluntarily always around
but now ur making me feel a way so i gotta get out

lie on the cold ground
duplicate that feeling that you thought you found
maybe this my chance maybe right now
yea or I’ll suffocate in advance if i dont fight it out
even lookin at these plants i i feel like i dont amount 
to all the beauty that they hold cuz i cant even count all the times that i would fold at the fault of my mouth
even when i promised everyone it wouldn’t go south

late gigs knowing that you wont be there

paint a pictire for me knowing that i will not fear

yea cuz i wont breathe ur judgy person air
for once it might be nice to be all the way out your hair

ill push back i dont like it when it feel like that

no crash pad when im falling i fall down hard flat
i dont even have the energy to feel bad
i dont see anyone who wanted a rematch
i been pushin in my memories like way back
Yea u dont want anything like this you want a price tag
money dont mean anything if you cant even buy that 
promise youd be runnin from me if you knew what i had

i live i laugh
but i dont wanna use the stuff that hurts the people most
wait until the night pass
then ill stay low
cuz thats the way that itll last

(Weepings)

We've been on and off like every other week I fucking swear
Girl you got me crashing out; You got me growing out my hair
I'm doing all these drugs to pretend like I don't care ...
But I do too much
Girl I know you fucked him I feel nauseous but I still miss your touch 
Smoking on some potent pop some oxy till my brain turn dust
I'm bleeding out my back I'm just your toy and my heart soft like plush
A puppet on your string an I will wait for you to treat me such
~
Cuz if the pain I feel is cause by your hands I don't mind
I showed you my darkest parts and you left me behind
Who knew that my love for you would leave me feeling blind
Girl no matter where I go you're still stuck in my mind
~
And flashback to the moment that I met you
Even then I knew I cannot forget you
I remember how you looked at me the night I loved you
But now I fear I'm falling short
Back and forth, every time we speak it feels like we in court
God it hurts, Knowing that the girl I love left me in dirt
What am I holding onto still, like bro ... that hoe left me first
I could never trust another soul, like I trusted you
I still got love for you
I wish you loved me too
Girl honestly I can't see my future with another fucking person in this life

voluntarily w/ Weepings (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

Mesmo escrevendo em linhas tortas, elas traçaram o caminho feito um costureiro.

Nunca foi suposto ser perfeito, aqui vão encontrar inseguranças, senso de confiança, medos e muito mais, em forma de arte. É a única maneira que consigo encontrar para me expressar a 100%. 
Não é suposto guardar isto, não faz sentido. 
Faixas de 2018 até 2024.

Agradecimento Especial ao meu irmão Ricardo Barbosa, fizeste-me lembrar o que é sentir Nostalgia de verdade. Chorei de emoção ao postar este projeto.

Até breve.

És Realmente Tu ou Apenas a Tua Máscara?

talvez o amor não seja pra mim [interlúdio]

Talvez O Amor Não Seja Pra Mim [interlúdio] (ft. Laurinda Sofia)

main guitar loop by Sorrow Bringer! @sorrow_bringer

Nosedive 2

formerly safeatlast
https://x.com/glaive_news/status/1735176364393673187
manzeron forever

chapter II: a reminder of home

etchmygrave

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