★but i dont wanna believe you..★

[featuring]
@fijimar

[producer]
@sleepsx

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr/i-wish-that-i-was-better-than-this-w-fijimar-prod-xysoftshade-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]

hook:
i dont wanna another fight
not today
i just wanna feel like im alright
that im okay

say that im just fine but i know
it wont stay
i dont want nothing else then for you
to just stay

verse:
i dont wanna know
what its like without you
i know its hard though

i dont wanna be
afraid of my own bed
tripping over words
i wish i said

i know that you wanna leave
but i dont wanna believe you

and it gets harder to breathe
when thinking of you and me
k i s s i n g
in this life what do you see

girl you're the reason i bleed
you cut so deep like the sea
in this life what do you see
k i s s i n g

repeat hook:
i dont wanna another fight
not today
i just wanna feel like im alright
that im okay

say that im just fine but i know
it wont stay
i dont want nothing else then for you
to just stay

ending:
i wish that i was better than this
i wish that i was better than this
i wish that i was better than this
i wish that i was better than this

ill pack my bags and run
far away from here
i can never face myself
and i hurt the ones i love the most

i wish i wasnt like this
i wish i wasnt like this
i wish i wasnt like this
i wish i wasnt like this

★streaming★

★i wish that i was better than this★ w/ fijimar (prod. xysoftshade)

@greavesinfinity

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

[zoltar]

i churn all my anger into pretty synths and harsh bass
cut out all the feedback and you're nothing more than bad taste
you call yourself an artist but what the fuck do you stand for?
i’m brutally honest so what you expectin' praise for?

you think that i'mma flex 
but you don't know nothin 'bout me
won’t fuck up a check
'cause i’m broke, i love the honesty
regardless, i’m up next
but i keep that under lock and key
fucked up in the head,
but i won’t sit in complacency

i swear to god man, you’re all the same
you lie and you pester, you all act in vain
obsessed with your image, you all look the same
you wonder why no one even knows your name

irrelevance follows you ‘round like the plague
your cowardice haunts you like deep-seated shame
think i give a fuck about what you’ve obtained?
your gold and your silver corrodes all the same


if you truly 'bout it then you really oughta watch your mouth
don’t fuck with the drama, i stay planted in the dirty south
i stick to my guns and i stay in my own lane
all these posers want a feat, but they’re late to the game

me and greaves, we study this, treat it like it’s our fate
lungs are feelin sticky 'cause i’m chiefin' on propane
i’m not even sorry for being fuckin insane
i love what i am, i don’t need anybody’s taste

fuck me, i’m at it again
six feet, i’m sinking in
cross me, i’m takin' teeth
laughing all while you bleed

smoke screens cover your heart
pause please, i need to restart
i need the pain to make art
hurt me while i fight the dark

[GREAVES]

i can't give in 
i've faced all my sins
i'm laced up on ecstasy 
took on a whim 
make me repent 
i crashed out my 'vette 
you're taking a photo to save you the blame 

i iced out my chain 
i ripped out my veins 
i duck under cover to save your embrace 
just get out my face 
i think you're insane 
you left me in mourning 'cause we’re not the same 

you better close all your windows, monsters come out at dark 
i'll have you know i'm complacent, stuck in my villain arc 
live alone in oasis, but you're still in my yard 
because you have no regard

james 5:3

james 5:3 (ft. GREAVES)

prod uhoh and guccig0th
lyrics:

i feel so weak i think i’m done i wanna wanna fall apart
cant even speak i feel so dumb i’m gonna shut my mouth
i won’t make it out 
don’t wanna let you down
stuck underneath a frozen lake 
i think i’m gonna drown

it’s getting harder to breathe when i’m around you 
it’s coming apart at the seams we’ve sown through 
it’s easy loving don’t have to tell me nothing
and if you want it you better go and get it

don’t make a sound 
(i could never really hear you)
we’ll figure this out
(wrote a letter hope you get it)
the rains falling down 
(i’m drowning in the water)
as your tears hit the ground
(better not forget it)

i hear the thunder 
i see the tunnel
ahead
i lost the feeling
pick up the pieces 
you left
i couldn’t reach you
i went to see you instead
i tried to tell you 
i don’t know how to confess

it must be something that i did it wasn’t what i said
i’ll burn it down until it’s ash until there’s nothing left 
i feel defeated 
i think it’s meaningless 
it’s been deleted 
and now there’s nothing left 

don’t make a sound 
(i could never really hear you)
we’ll figure this out
(wrote a letter hope you get it)
the rains falling down 
(i’m drowning in the water)
as your tears hit the ground
(better not forget it)

i’ve been waiting my whole life just wasting away 
i’m sick of chasing these feelings so i can feel okay

light sleepr + sleep talk - rainfall

performed by: @decayinganyways @iissaa-hi @777evil @ily_turo @nokerbforever @soliooooo
produced by: fantom
https://open.spotify.com/track/1on5vNyrc3oZz6rqcn95BJ?si=2ce8894f71e64fe6
lyrics:
(Decay&iissaa)
800 miles per hour but we’re barley at the start line 
Cause i've been in the sky, feel alive on the airline
And damn we got a feeling that we gonna hit it big time 
And you can say what u want about mine
And we know in film roll , we will have an archive of good times 
And tell me what you want but i'm doing fine
I'm wishing you well, but if you couldn't tell

(Lxve Turo)
You can be, anything that you wanna be and its okay.
and try to be, somebody better but it wont last forever but if you're clever

(Decay & Miku)
We will never die young, going supersonic till it’s all done 
Hitting outer space a supernova
Oh no one ever wants to be a no one 
No one

and i don’t wanna waste my time today 
i don’t ever wanna throw my heart away i just wanna be someone today

(Lxve Turo)
I'm tryna be the very best me 
they say I'm out my mind 
I'm tryna be the real me 
and now were running outta time 
I'm tryna fix thing 
but I don't know if I can do it 
forever but I'm tryna be better 
than me

(Nokerb)
Feeling fu*ked up, i don't want you anymore
Saw you walk right out that door
And i could just swear u've sworen
Feels like i've been waiting for this all my life long
Told you now it's time to score
Blue lock, we make the board

(Solio)
I tried so hard to humble myself but every other night we grow in the distance, I had to manifest the world for myself

(Decay & Miku)
We will never die young, going supersonic till it’s all done 
Hitting outer space a supernova
Oh no one ever wants to be a no one 
No one

and i don’t wanna waste my time today 
i don’t ever wanna throw my heart away i just wanna be someone today..

STARTLINE

STARTLINE - DECAYINGANYWAYS, IISSAA, LXVE TURO, EVILMIKU, NOKERB, SOLIO

Featuring @cpt_sad
Produced by IOF
Mixing, additional vocals & guitar by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

LYRICS
I can’t afford to live
Like my parents did
For every generation before me
I’m suffering the consequences

Why die young and alone
When we could die young together instead
Underneath the mushroom clouds
Standing hand in hand

We were born too late
So what do you say
Would you take a chance on me
Only minutes left
It’s meaningless
Unless we believe
That there’s nothing left to lose
But everything to gain
We were born too late to fall in love the long way

(yesterday)
Yeah you fell in my lap when you tripped on the cracked pavement
And those potholes have been on this road my whole life
They wanna keep us six feet down
So we can't make a sound
But I can fight all night
If you stay by my side
I've always spoke too loud
It never came out right
Instead of tape on my mouth
You went and got me a mic

Listen on Spotify!

Born Too Late w/ yesterday (Prod. IOF)

https://open.spotify.com/track/2fOKenTYbA4h0s9mQQO40t?si=RYH60238TiOgzBDjjYutug

prod moneo
mix/master myself
ft @evergardens
<3 
lyrics:
if i could speak to you
what would i say
probably something thats stupid
or something thats useless
would you say the same
would you listen 
or would you just leave
i cant convince myself
that its meant to be

there has to be more
there has to be more
it cant just end here
why does it end here

evergarden:

if i re weave my words
in an honest regret
what would i hear
floating aimless

together:

there has to be more
there has to be more
it cant just end here
why does it end here

there has to be more (w/ evergarden)

prod. acey心 x kill breanna
i really just appreciate yall still supporting me after so long and after so many stabs in the dark with music cus for the longest time i havent even known what ive wanted to do and i dont think i could ever say i truly know who i wanna be or what i wanna make in music but i love you guys so fuckin much and ive never enjoyed music more and its cus u guys make me realize i can be whatever i want in the end anyway. <3

im just tryna learn
what comes first in worth
no way, no way, ill get the time to see what you do
i have to keep my eyes on the road,
i havent felt carefree in so long.

no-o-oh way, that i could ever be exact.
mmh..mmh..
so-o-oh safe, and far away from decency,
i guess im safe, i know my place..
i guess im safe, i know my place..

im just tryna learn,
what comes first in worth:(
no way, no way... no! 
i have to keep my eyes on the road,
i havent felt carefree in so long.

;(
so long
so long
mh..mh..
huh.. oh..
mh..mh..
huh.. oh..
mh..mh..
uh.. woah.. !
uh.. woah..
uh.. woah..
uh.. woah..
so-o-oh safe, and far away from decency..

carefree

Another Day, Another Disaster (Prod. BOBHAX)

d*ck on her mind prod. T1mi

Pleading

produced by @remghost
mixed and mastered by @polearm
and @eunhae

running out of time for myself
running out of time to get help
i'm starting to get sick and it's all my fault
wish i could make it up to you, i don't wanna be another downfall

it hurts so bad and i'm sick of it
i can't believe i thought i'd be used to this
every morning i wake up i feel sick
i die in my dreams then wake up to my reality

tell me that it's all my fault
tell me you don't have to call
i'll talk the blame, i know now
everything you do, ends up my fault

if i never met you
i'd never feel this pain
so why don't i kick you out?
for you i'd feel it again

and i wish i didn't want to
but everything i do is for you

tell me that it's all my fault
tell me you don't have to call
i'll take the blame, i know now
everything you do ends up my fault

it hurts so bad and i'm sick of it
i can't believe i thought i'd be used to this
every morning i wake up i feel sick
i die in my dreams then wake up to my reality

blame ! prod. remghost

eunhae