@nevrfall
i love @heylog so much, he's an amazing person c:
lyrics:
(casperrr)
moving away as my body collapse
half a day and i already smoked half a pack
i smell the chemicals burning in my hand
i need to change this i need to take a stand
all of the promises u made they didn't worth nothing
while u ran ur mouth ur actions didn't prove anything
u still wanna tell me that i am lying
do u really wanna tell me that i am lying

AND THIS IS FUNNY CAUSE THE PROMISES ARE STUCK IN THE WALLS
U TREAT ME WRONG AND I STILL PICK U UP EVERYTIME U FALL
I GET DEPRESSED AND I SHUT MYSELF FROM WINTER TO FALL
I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT SEE WHATS REAL I JUST SEE fog
FOGGY MEMORIES IN MY BRAIN HELP ME REMEMBER
WHAT WAS THE THING THAT TRAUMATIZED ME LAST DECEMBER
CUZ I TOOK IT OUT OF MY HEAD
I KNOW I WISHED EVERYDAY FOR DEATH
I WAS GETTING SO MAD
I WAS GETTING SO FED UP

(heylog)
u made me mad, i called but u won't answer
don't speak to me like that where are your manners
it's hard when life just sucks, is it supposed to?
deteriorate non stop what am i s'posed to do
u hate on me now when i didn't do a thing
u love causing ruckus and it's concerning
but i kill the vibe is that why u hate me
i won't give u shit or anything

is it safe to say that i miss u
forgot what it's like to kiss u
i'm sorry u had to tell me what u been through
if u need me i'll be here for u
forgot what ur face looks like, it's been a day
leaving ur house but i can't drive away
arriving home and it don't feel the same
without u here, it feels so plain

promises w/heylog (nevrfall)

prodme
w my deeerfrend @autumndropsdead

she locked herself in her bathroom all alone
did you get my message when i said i felt alone
at the end of the night we all need to go home
promise that ill be fine as long as im gone
when u find another guy can u not let me know
dont waste ur time on someone u dont know

u were half of mine but i still dont know
were u ever mine i dont think so
just pretend u care dont want u to go
might just cut my hair

autie
cos i hate the way i look
could you call me back?
i'm gonna get a heart attack
I'm what you call an insomniac
made the choice no going back
don't forget, just descend
it'll do no good being over your head
i feel out of body, all i can say is sorry :(

stop it, breathe, out of reach
this sensation...
there's nothing left to me
to me (3x)
hide your chest, then release...

when u find another guy can u not let me know
dont waste ur time for someone u dont know

stop crying and start dying
looking for an answer i dont wanna get hurt
looking for ananswer i dont wanna get hurt
star signs ur a cancer!
my hearts getting blacker,
my brains getting sadder,

cancer w/autumndropsdead

confusion w/ hiraeth (switch)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

cover of fav https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt song
original guitar by https://soundcloud.com/remghost , I jus replayed the gtar and added sub lol

original song: https://soundcloud.com/bitekivibes/skele-about-your-love-prod

lyrics:
I dont wanna wake up
laying alone, always dreaming about your touch
i'm getting used to isolation, i don't feel nah
reminicing about your love

i see you standing there, you're with someone else
you see me glancing but your acting like you couldn't tell
yeah, i feel like the weather getting colder,
yeah, i hope i forget you when im older, yeah
i've been drawing pretty pictures on my wrist with a razor
i don't need to call yeah i know that you wont answer me
just tell me what i don't see

about your love (skele)

prod. caves x hero

Lyrics:

[hero]

ah
and i cannot lose what we've got
i'm clinging to threads weaning off
my body and mind start to rot
guess i'll claw out the ground through the rocks
9 years i don't know what we are
i just know i liked what we were
i'm racing you there to the top
in search of all reason there was

[NAVYXOWER]

i cried
while leaving
and now 
im leaking 
my blood out the needle that you left
im so tired of lying to myself and my friends
floating on a cloud
it felt like i was dying when you walked out the house
i made it my mission to keep you 
but i lost it
my anxiety is running like a faucet

hold
my hand
as we walk 
through the open end
of the world
i hope to see you again
when its over ill dream of you my friend
cutting it close
really dont know what to think about it
my body and heart
were going out i feel it happening
what is it worth
continuing life
without you here next to me
ill meet you there 
in the end of it all i cant believe this is happening

[hero]

ah
and i cannot lose what we've got
i'm clinging to threads weaning off
my body and mind start to rot
guess i'll claw out the ground through the rocks
9 years i don't know what we are
i just know i liked what we were
i'm racing you there to the top
in search of all reason there was

and maybe i never will find it
and maybe i never should want to
maybe i miss all the writing
but maybe i'm just missing you

~

AND I CANNOT LOSE WHAT WE'VE GOT
I'M CLINGING TO THREADS WEANING OFF
MY BODY AND MIND START TO ROT
IN SEARCH OF ALL THE REASON THERE WAS

irreplaceable (ft. navyxower)

Pass me, I don’t where I’m going
Should of asked me before, now I can’t show it

It’s half three at night
It can’t be morning yet
Go to sleep my dear
It’s not like I could yet
Pull me out of here
I’m in a hole of regret
Don’t highlight my fear
I’m not over it yet

There’s cracks in the pavement, I’ve been walking on 
Hold me up, outside 
I’ve been waiting for so long

Don’t get annoyed when this morning was fine 
Keep your hold on me, leech to me tight
The person that I am is no worse than the one I was
Somewhere in the winter I lay
Hibernate way too long 
A part of me died
I’m hosting funerals
It’s partly in spite 
So you can watch my body decay
Rot infront of your face
And I’m sat checking my list
Just to remember your name
Though it’s partly in spite 
It’s mostly in vain

It’s half three at night
It can’t be morning yet
Go to sleep my dear
It’s not like I could yet
Pull me out of here
I’m in a hole of regret
Don’t highlight my fear
I’m not over it yet

3:30

corbin cover
cover of "mask it to the casket" :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/16u5jqodaQ5oWqhoTxhJhe?si=CeaWjF9zSFumLTxvtCpsbg

I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like a scumbag, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on a string
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
I get too frustrated when I'm not sedated
Threw away all my passion, baby I'm paying for my actions
Why you gotta celebrate it? I think that the wall's 'bout to cave in
I'm a kraken, my feelings being drowned, yeah, I sank them
Pathetic, yeah, I'm so pathetic, I get it
I'm a menace, it's time for my penance
Confession, I've been known to cause infection
A weapon, lethally inject, no discretion, no
I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like scum, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on the screen
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
No emotion, I mask it to the casket
Can't control it, do you really want to see me relapse?
Overloaded, I think it's time I pack in
Any way you fold it, yeah, it's always gonna be a back then
No, no emotion, won't let them see
Nothing to show, no vanity
I think I've lost all sanity
I have become my worst enemy
My heart is breaking, it's more than what's fair (more than what's fair)
I'm non-existent, it's like I'm not here (like I'm not here)
Don't wanna sink again, I don't, I'm scared (I don't, I'm scared)
I'm getting tired of this

mask it (corbin)

all synthesizers and piano done by ilygrxg & pray4solo
nonprofit//

thank you for listening,
take as much care as you can;
thank you for being here.
x


i lay awake and i
see ephemeral lights upon my eyes
something's not right
something's not right

"you're never safe"
i say, as i've sunken
bare is the face of restraint that i'm stuck in
avoidance keeps me out
i don't wanna talk right now

alluring now
nobody's there
yet i reach out
dissonant glares

stride in a daze
far from the outing
must be displaced
though i don't mind drowning;
caught in a thought of distain
of the ways that i'm living
should i be okay to continue forgiving?
staggered in place,
rid the parts that are sick
steady awake through the night in a blitz

once, it was okay
once, it was all good
stripping the old aches,
just like i should
it'll be okay
it'll be all good
it'll be okay
it'll be-
out
let me out
yeah

this horrible stasis;
why do i keep my patience?
stay around
you're all i want to know about

blitz

lyrics
wake up from a dream
i wish i was still inside of
and you act mean to me
i think thats what im so afraid of
nobody told me the end of the world would look so dull
cotton mouth and a microphone
i need a rope cause my heads so far gone
and ive just given up

its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
i woke up inside of purgatory without you
my hands are covered in mud and all these faces look blurry
and i dont got no trust for anybody else but you

my head is moving faster than my body
and im not listening to anything that you tell me
a promise, a whisper
just tell me that you love me
wish i was a kid again
you can find me somewhere over the valley
petrified in amber
dont know why youre still angry
if i could remember then id tell you im sorry
im just going through it
and i wish i was a kid again

its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
its funny cause youre all i see
a part of me
stay here for tonight
then leave
youre all i need
i woke up inside of purgatory without you
my hands are covered in mud and all these faces look blurry

mask it (corbin)

evergarden