Another banger from the homie love ya bro <3

damn i've missed that shit how could I it's so awesome

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
i press pause & rewind
it all feels like a movie
maybe thats how i kill time
i swear its amusing
i make a victim of myself
& im crying to no one
its a cycle of nature,
and i live in darkness,
no moon & no sun 

i hope this reads like a letter
whenever you hear it
nothing would make me feel better
than knowing u feel it too
this island it paints me blue
sincerely, it’s cause of u
the way the leaves they hold me
it almost feels like u got to know me 

[evan]
wave after wave 
and i’ve been drowning in a sea of my own thoughts
a clear image of everything i’m not 
hold on and hope it’s not a lot

i know this too well 
here reading the same old story 
i’m stuck in this cycle 
all i can do is wonder if 

are you coming to save me 
i’m empty 
pull me out of the shit that’s preventing me
is it too late to get out of this 
draw my name in the sand are you coming to save me 

are you coming to save me 
am i coming to save me
i put it all line 
draw my name in the sand 
are you coming to save me

stream everywhere!

VIII. sincerely (ft. evan carr) [jolst x pekarot]

@navyxower
@strivemusicau
@northshoremusic
@torvamia
@shizukesaaa

h3art_3at3r w/ NAVYXOWER, strivesad, The North Shore, torvamia & shizukesa. [+ sogimura]

mixed by me
mastered by Ally Holloway
produced by metlast
artwork by my gf <3

constantly looking towards the sky
and wondering why i’m even alive
i can never begin to fathom
why i was even put here on this earth
was it just suffer?
beyond what i could imagine?..
i’ll let gravity, grab me by the feet
to pull me 6ft deep

(oh underneath 
their decaying bodies still haunt me)

dragging me under the ground
slowly suffocating so i can’t make a sound
it seems i’ve found a new home
with the ghost around im less alone
hoping i could find a better way
to rid the world of my lunacy
looking for any opportunity
to fade away and ameliorate this world…

of me
so cold
and empty

so i solidified the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that were telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you said to me
6ft deep is where i fended up being
so as the light from the tunnel grew darker and darker 
my mind grew further and further away
you should’ve stayed stayed with me 
but you left my body alone to decay

(you left me alone
traversing the unknown)

ameliorate this world (metlast)

all i want/hold me tight (smokerose)

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
mixed/mastered by me
quote from spice and wolf <3

Lyrics:

oh, i been feelin lately, the hole you left in my cardiac
i guess you could say it, but i really want the privilege
every conversation we're having always feels frivolous
oh yea you think her tongues sharp, just wait until the knife comes
i really hope he loves you, in the same way that i did
cause i gave half my life in pursuit of what you said
blood been pumpin faster, she a heart attacker
these chains around my ventricles shackle me to the chapel

don't wanna break it down but i got words for you baby
this sonnet i'm singing, oh it don't do it justice
oh, im so full of rage uhh, all i feel is hate now
every syllable from your mouth feels fuckin disgustin
i can't shed now, my tears have burned away
oh my passionate admiration for ya, has only turned to disdain

[bridge]

my heart's been disfigured by the shadow of a sinner
every time you text me oh my sanity runnin thinner
we were meant to be but baby we can never be
cause i see right through you and every lie ya said to me
you thought of yourself as knowledgeable and worldly
but honestly you're as immature as it gets
and with every nerve ending in my body
i wanna be loved in the same way i love another

clearly you dont see me
heart's green with bleeding envy
i see right through you chest untempered glass
even the holy blessed temple won't offer sanctuary to your ass
everything you wrought, was of your own accord
and honestly i think you left cause you were bored
and that might just be fine if i could get you out my mind
striving for that point where i don't love you anymore

cardiac_arrest (secre x heyrick)

prod. tracyxo x joshbae

see me blowing rainbows
i dont care bout you hoes
im on my ten toes
ran around this dome
(if we're talking bout it,)

i dont give no shit about a ciggarette pack
i dont care about frozen time
uh huh?
i dont care about golden why?'s
uh huh
this shit bothers me
i dont wanna deal with the shit in my head
i just wanna smoke white runtz till im dead
thoughts come up from the bottom of my mind
aye, i gotta climb back up, i gotta wake up
i dont wanna be late!
i dont know what to say :(
i dont wanna be anyone i try and replicate
5:00 am, waste of time, oh my god..
6:00 am, and im tired as fuck

it still wont wake me up
thc in my gut
faded or nothing bruh
this preroll is all for us
we're living like we're still dumb
who am i kidding?
no one does it better than you.
no one will bother me anymore
dont lie
dont try
dont cry to me anymore
i painted the walls exactly like i wanted to
the stripes i made were pink and blue for you
will you be okay..?

(you were only a momment away)

dont, even bother
coming back.
im sorry,
but im not.
I'M TIRED OF THIS COLD WAR!
I'M TRYNA HELP MYSELF AGAIN!
I'M TRYNA BE ANYONE

up,
i gotta wake up ')
DONT WANNA BE LATE
I DONT WANNA BE ANYONE I TRY TO REPLICATE
FIVE AM WASTE OF TIME OH MY GOD
SIX AM AND IM TIRED AS FUCK
AND DONT WANNA WAKE UP.
ah...
ah...
can you run that by me once again :(?
ah..
ah
i dont know, how else i will-
(find some comfort in my home again)
THIS ROCKING CHAIR DONT FEEL THE SAME
THE PORTRAIT FELL AND SOMETHINGS CHANGED

the portrait fell, & something changed

In my head looking for a friend who looks like heaven sent 
Terrified of losing them 
But can’t go on with keeping them fit

Toxins, that I know are basically ruing your life 
Said that you would stop a couple hundred times 

You’re Dope sick, you ain’t worth it 
I can see it your eyes 
Wasn’t meant to make you cry 

Might dig you a grave I’m being honest 
Went to your parents for help, I’m uninvited 

Toxins fill your head I'm tired 
Recently I been uninspired 

These days the streets fill with violence 
Terrified but so inviting 

Smoke in the air 
I got thoughts in my head about what’s truly there 
Am I supposed to be here??

In my head looking for a friend who looks like heaven sent 
Terrified of losing them 
But can’t go on with keeping them fit

Toxins, that I know are basically ruing your life 
Said that you would stop a couple hundred times 

You’re Dope sick, you ain’t worth it 
I can see it your eyes 
Wasn’t meant to make you cry 

Might dig you a grave I’m being honest 
Went to your parents for help, I’m uninvited 

Toxins fill your head I'm tired 
Recently I been uninspired 

These days the streets fill with violence 
Terrified but so inviting

Dope Sick [+ Cimor x splashgvng]

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up daisies hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (w/ notahero) (malloy x jkei)

Sh3 Richhh

Produced by Jolst
Fanlink: fanlink.to/lovelessgroup

Lyrics: 
Svnam @sideviewdriveca
I know it's hard, but I'm getting used to it
Spending nights alone

I took our picture frames all down off the wall
There's no memories of us here
Just a ghost dancing down the hall
& I know it's hard to admit
& I'm getting used to it
Spending nights up all alone
Still waiting by the phone

I can't look at you the same
Still hear your name
In the back of my head
Ringing in my ears like
I can't sleep the same
I toss & turn 'til day comes
Sunrises don't look the same
I can't sleep at all, no
Without you by my side
Can't sleep at night
Don't feel right
It's not alright

+++++

@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup
@lovelessgroup

++++

ameliorate this world (metlast)

epitomeoffailure (hiatus)

Recent comments

paperthinwalls

キーハートから離れて

kardia26

The North Shore

Related tracks