feat. @ih8archie & @decksmusic

prod. @killedmyself

lyrics:

[chorus]
i just really want you love me
i just really want you right here
i just really want you to tell me
cause that all i wanna hear
cause every time you’re around me
baby i barely know
so girl what you wanna do
you just gotta let me know

[verse]
girl what you wanna do today
that’s all that you gotta say
we can run around any way
i’ll make it alright today
to be honest i been holding on
i just let it out in all my songs 
just stay with me all night long
and sing with me all day long 

[pre-chorus]
i wanna be your boy so badly
just say the word and i’ll take you with me
i promise you that i’ll treat you gently
so tell me if you wanna come with me x2

[verse - ih8archie]
i know it’s been rough before
but i promise it’ll be okay
i know there’s been cloudy weather
but it’s followed by brighter days
baby just take my hand
me and you gon make it through this
if you feel like going under
i’ll make sure you keep moving
just stay here in this moment
and i’ll freeze time for us
cause i know you’re gonna have your days but
i’ll pick you right back up
like you’ve done for me so many
so many times before
you’re always gonna have my shoulder
if you ever need to cry some more

[verse - decks]
if you ever need to cry i’ll be here for you
anything you want or need imma bring to you
baby you’re a shooting star i believe in you
more than anything i just wanna be here for you
and you know that know that
i won’t fall back fall back
relax relax yeah
i can tell that tell that
you’ve been feeling so bad
so tell me if you wanna come with me

[pre-chorus]
i wanna be your boy so badly
just say the word and i’ll take you with me
i promise you that i’ll treat you gently
so tell me if you wanna come with me

[chorus]
i just really want you love me
i just really want you right here
i just really want you to tell me
cause that all i wanna hear
cause every time you’re around me
baby i barely know
so girl what you wanna do
you just gotta let me know

what you wanna do today pt. 2 (feat. ih8archie & decks) [prod. killedmyself]

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/cypression

produced by: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

no one to hold me w/cypression (pekarot)

empty_l1fe w/ fridvy (kubsy)

INTRO
(epitome)
cryin in the backseat 
i don’t know what’s happening
face down on the concrete 
not feelin very complete
it’s hard to know where the story will go
i just hope i don’t end up alone
it’s getting hard to breath
with this anxiety
feelings trapped in my chest beneath
i think that i should go
for a person like me i don’t have a home

(paperthinwalls)
all alone yeah i’m all alone
run back to you it’s all over 
and i think that i’m growing father
pick me up i’m falling over
another song i cannot sing
two weeks i guess we’ll see
why is it so hard to breath
NOW IM FALLING BACK TO SLEEP

CHORUS
(epitome)
don’t let me go
i don’t wanna be alone
just hold on
you’re the only one i’ve ever known
please just say something 
it’s getting hard to breathe

(paperthinwalls)
and it’s hard to
feel the same way as you
you know it kills me the way i hurt you
i take it back you know i didn’t mean to

VERSE
(paperthinwalls)
i didn’t mean to call you that night
i always meant to say goodbye
now i’m going i’m always going 
what is wrong with my head 
and i feel like i can’t think
and my mind is always empty 
what is goin on with me 
it’s always something that i can’t see 
(my head falls apart i know that i have fallen arms i know that i can’t see you now fall apart i’m on the ground)

(epitome)
your eyes seem lost
you’re fading away from me
what’s the cause (what’s the cause)
i’m holding to your memory for what seems to be an eternity (you’re not with me now)
every moment i spent with you 
was like a dream to me that came true
now i don’t know what i’m gonna do
when you say to me find someone new

CHORUS 
(epitome)
don’t let me go
i don’t wanna be alone
just hold on
you’re the only one i’ve ever known
please just say something 
it’s getting hard to breathe

(paperthinwalls)
and it’s hard to
feel the same way as you
you know it kills me the way i hurt you
i take it back you know i didn’t mean to

dont let me go w/ paperthinwalls (2001)

originally performed by sewerperson and killedmyself

mastered by cherryrizla who killed it as always

lyrics

isolated, take me out back for some fresh air
contemplated, she could never kill me but she'd contemplate it, fun
baby im just tryna have a little fun, run
she squeeze out my breath until my throat go numb
come into my house I'm in the underground 
I'm close too mother earth my lover look around
how I'm sposed to feel when u burn it to a mound
she get way too mad u should mediate it

girl it's just a party and I'd rather not be here
these r ur friends I got noone I wanna see here
cold, it's so cold
I can't walk thru this alone
take me home
I know I'm horrible

I wish u could see it thru my bloodshot eyes
cuz baby girl we're rlly not that different u nd I
everything ur feeling is the usual
but everything ur feeling I just hide
I gave her my heart do u got one I could borrow 
u don't gotta give it back I'm already hollow
broken bodies buried in a grotto
let me see the face that look like someone that I used to know
every time we sin we sin again in don't wanna
I don't wanna go I just gotta 
dark pelt coat in octobers like a sauna
I live in a forest off the fauna 

isolated - sewerperson (betweentheveinsandi x jolst cover)

@yoimn3ver
@northshoremusic
@caspywaspy
@emptychest
@kuriositylol

(teddyboi)

demons after me I'm in a crisis all white gucci suit, yeah

I've been feeling righteous can't breathe, feel like I got bronchitis

I ruin everything that i touch like my name is Midas

yeah spread, spread like a virus, yeah demons chasing after me it's a crisis,

yeah, all white gucci suit,

I feel righteous tired of fist fightin demons, think I'm bout to shoot them

wanna know the truth?

baby I'm a little ruthless ill stab you in the back make you feel like Julius

(TNS)

Holding onto everything

Words in my head

Can’t catch a break

Slow it down and speed it up

Places to go don’t give a damn

Worry about myself and don’t give in

bullet in my brain just to feel the pain

Worry about the things I can’t control

I’m gonna fill my body with bullet holes tonight

(casperrr)

3am throwing up all the shit I ate

now I'm on the bathroom and my body ache

I think I smoked more than I could take

I don't fuck with anyone, everybody's fake

trade me, replace me I know u fucking hate me

the way u try to make me feel the way u try to break me

go away and leave u make me feel sick with all the shit u say with all the things u do

(emptychest)

im fine till i cope

try to breath air but i choke

pretty purple lights glow inside my room tonight im always hot like cryoscope

wrote a note in envelope sent it out to the seas

on a boat and hope it makes it there yet

i live there nothing could ever be fine but i wont ever care im wishing for the best

and im staring life right in the eyes saying, "test me." saying "test me."

(kuriosity)

should’ve known that she was a hoe

said i blow me a k

gotta get me some more gotta louie bet on the floor said i walk in the room

and her belt on the floor im too busy stackin my dough

i cant worry bout u i cant stress onna hoe

i feel like ive been here before feel like i’ve been here before

and ive been searchin through my own past tryna figure out who the fuck i am

and i’ve been getting in my own bag

i cant focus on u gotta focus on bands

good deeds cant cover up my bads

i did what i did i am who i am

the shit u said hurt so bad but u wouldn’t get it u wont understand

Crisis w/ casperrr, teddyboi, The North Shore, kuriosity & emptychest [+ sogimura]

produced by killedmyself

a completely non profit project

lyrics

there comes a time 
when we know we must die
so we try to say goodbye
but i could never tell
who was in the right
who was tryna fight
i watched our scars collide

the first neck of the woods intro (killedmyself)

ask_me.m4a

upeppino - hell (prod. by onice)

lyrics
imma muthafuckin reject,
run around witcho bitch in a pheonix
imma muthafuckin deject,
a heart from a girl that i like to call my ex. x2

she says im well.

i cant save myself.

my mental health.

is goin to hell.

help me out, imma drown now,
imma go dark, till i pass out,
who's who now, am i dead wow,
can i come back? i can't see, od'd out.

imma muthafuckin reject,
run around witcho bitch in a pheonix
imma muthafuckin deject,
a heart from a girl that i like to call my ex. x2

kais

reject (prod.dead spyro)

thank you to @lilskeleskrrt and @lilduckk

[forever untitled]
I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this
I've been daunted and shaken
Can't handle this
I can't handle this

I won't be alright
I'm trapped inside my mind
Fallen time to time and never get it right
I just run my life away
Never want to fight
I look right in back of me
The monster's right behind
Oh yeah, it's right behind me (right behind me)

I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this
I've been daunted and shaken
Can't handle this
I can't handle this

Do you really wanna know my life?
Do you really wanna see inside?
Do you really wanna look through my eyes?
All the suffering that happens at night

[lil skele]
I don't wanna take up your time
Think of what you said
You've been in my head taking up my mind
I've been looking out for what I think is best
But there's something in my head that makes my heart break through my chest so I know that I am more than this

[forever untitled]
I've been wanting and chasing something more than this
Something more than this

dont let me go w/ paperthinwalls (2001)

epitomeoffailure