Whata vibe

dead inside

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Lyrics:

I pull back from a bitch if she gone act like she giving a fuck about me because it'll end badly
Could never get too close when my hopes happy
My actions could go sporadic brake glass and put hole in cabinets
The fuck you look like pitying me
I'm writing songs of how I feel and how you pretend to be
Every friend I ever had fucked me over and yeah I mean every friend you drop a name I'll give you the stats bitch
I find myself in this place common I'm kinda amazed jotting about better days I'm never found to engage with
That's why I'm locked in the basement of my mind it got me caged in and locked for the night
I'm sick of telling people how much they forever meaning to me just to let em lead me on and fuck my head up even more than before
That's why I start to ignore whenever my fucking phone buzzing I just throw it to the floor
It keep ringing

Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out

Fall in love
You gambling with your sanity
My ex was whoring out to friends of me can't compare it
See her family is fucked and they clearly just ain't a fan of me
When parenting just sucks and you can't admit it apparently
Was tryna get my mind off the bitch when it finally ended
Got dmed and started talking to someone who I was friends with
Said I mean the world to her but words do just not connect
When you be ghosting seem like I ain't been meaning much to begin with
So fuck it I'm doing me
And soon it was you and me
I told you how I was feeling you had somebody you been with
Who isn't what I expected regardless of his intentions
It's fucking dumb I accept it
You strung me along and left me with this
False hope
A smaller but strong rope and I broke it
Cutting ties ain't nothing knew just go with the motions
So what the fuck is the point
If everyone I ever loved is faking it then enjoy your life without me

Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out
Living in the past I forever been
Steady looking back at whatever is and
Whatever was was so simple that I miss it can't relive your touch now
Can somebody sit back and hear what I spit and tell me if they feel exact same as what I been through
Way too much and when the day ends I don't feel like I'ma make it up out

Credits:
Prod. by Tennis Player
Co-prod. by Andy Sorenson

fleur

Take It Slow

(prod. Tyler Creed & Andy Sorenson)  @deathncreed

Lyrics:

I spend nights thinking back to the way shit was
Way before I made a name way before when we would sit in my home
It ain't even my fault
Lil bitch like a knife to the back now I feel so dumb
That you told me that you love me that you told me how you feel but now look
And now she gone I saw it coming but it caught me off

Still I lose touch with myself can somebody bring help and show me outta the pain please
Who the fuck can I tell cuz nobody been listening to what I'm saying
You don't know myself and your posse gone follow yeah you probably hate me
But bitch you all been dead now see
You ain't ever the one I should've kept round me
Whatever you say but I could never trust you
I could feel it way before you ever knew bout him
I know all your friends love to hate me now
But it don't matter cause I couldn't give a fuck about them
I know that you family probably don't know shit of what you did
Cause you won't even say you wrong about shit
I know that he tells you that you did the right thing
How the fuck could you just take his side
Well that's fine
It cuts deeper than a blade to your skin when I was up at the crib said I was saving your life
I'm wishing I could just forgive and forget that night this time I guess that I'll never say goodbye
But what's it like to have somebody you with just fucking lie to your face like everything is alright
I split ties with many friends and forgave them nights I waste time now nobody else wasting mine

I spend nights thinking back to the way shit was
Way before I made a name way before when we would sit in my home
It ain't even my fault
Lil bitch like a knife to the back now I feel so dumb
That you told me that you love me that you told me how you feel but now look
And now she gone I saw it coming but it caught me off
I spend nights thinking back to the way shit was
Way before I made a name way before when we would sit in my home
It ain't even my fault
Lil bitch like a knife to the back now I feel so dumb
That you told me that you love me that you told me how you feel but now look
And now she gone I saw it coming but it caught me off

Like Knives

conclusion; the end of an era
produced by @idlyblare
<3

lyrics:
sing me a song and tell me everything is normal
its been months since i had felt at all, im tryna keep it formal with the
things that i say to those who don’t quite get the most of me
its harder to find out when
they’re leaving

find me a stone & write my name in tiny letters
if u throw it far enough then you and i are stuck together for the
rest of our years or just as long as you put up with me
i know that it has to end
you’re leaving

so if i go
no complaints
we’ll take it slow
until we break

i shop the windows of this breezy inner city
hoping for some inspiration, maybe i’ll find something pretty in the
regurgitation of my life in front of you
i put myself for sale, just wondering
if you still want me too

i break the habits of my past, im nothin better than a
old pair of shoes that no one wears until they gotta
but its
nothing personal
something terminal

i saw the rain
reflecting off your windowsill
i took the pain i gathered
turned it into chlorophyll
who knows the way
we’ll fall back into open arms
i tried to find it comforting
here i am with battle scars

learning to lose

chlorophyll [idly blare]

spotify & apple music!

Playing Dead

safety (secre x heyrick)

shivers w/ notahero [prod. artemys]

-DespairInToAshes-

completely non profit

Mastered by ztope


https://on.soundcloud.com/rgfJXSvvKTWbXqou7

the epilogue w/notahero

ｔｈａｗ　ｔｈｅ　ｇｕａｒｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｓｈａｄｏｗｓ　ｍｅ

produced by dash vv
https://www.youtube.com/@dash8518

love y'all so much.
thank you for listening.
thank you for being here
more to come, in hopes

realistically wasting my time, and
don't claim you understand
you'll run out of road if you're way too gassed
we'll never last this
i wanna know myself 'fore i should take my life

the other side's so inviting

why you hanging 'round the wrong peers?
2D smiles but they're full of fear
i can see through the white lies
fuck a check, i ain't switch sides
matter of fact, think i'll own mine
call it wraps, called her 5 times
colon cramps, body's prolly fine
i been worse, and burnt more ties than mountains climbed
what the fuck

i hardly get any rest
when i lay me some ground
all my dreams make me sweat
well, honestly what'd i expect, i'm a tremor
who's born to make course with a crest
and since you've got room to assume,
i'll repaint the walls to a shade you once knew
but i'll say it once to conclude
it's only to falter youth

sending it down through my face to my gut
fireworks sound while i've waited enough
i ain't care much, i been down on my love shit
after effect of it damage and lunges
kicking and punching
wonder and covet
smoke in this oven i claim to be nothing
under the covers, i wake into sunder
and panic, then start to malfunction
these eyes are so indecisive
catching the sights that are so uninvited
well, anything but ultraviolet
going outside, my anxiety heightens
so i'll stay inside and be silent
minus the music and all of the crying
don't keep a snooze 'cause i'm up when the sky dim
yet prone to mute and respond autopilot

she told me that i'm smart
"i'm better than that?"
she told me i can start to feel something
she told me i could be something greater
then she left a hole inside my chest, like a crater

no one
to lend a hand
through the sawdust
in this foreign land
is this all that you want?
forever we run, even if we're not
indefinite rot
smoldered lungs while i talk

and no it ain't from the green
from birth i've been clean
but i kinda wanna be, to escape reality
no way this life was meant for me
never will i come to be fine with low expectancies
i'm fucking selfish, can't you see?
a frozen-hearted entity
thaw the guard that shadows me
too intolerant to speak
cut my lips and break my teeth
numb my limbs, but make it brief
i've got nowhere else to be
but miss the way it used to be
did you feel the same for me?

my eyes cry with the help of high life
can't you tell i repel with a fat lie
any sort of love will numb me;
numb enough to pass life
i sense two decisions
one's to splurge my thoughts and cast rhymes

it was 8 in the morning, i'm shipped like i'm cargo
heart in my chest beating out like a bongo
swipin' a scan of myself like a bar code
way past the date by some days, not alarmed though
rotten a bit, feelin' sick, sorta rank
'lil bit of soap, it could wash out the stains
i ain't been fuckin' with none of y'all lames
a couple of plays, now you thinkin' you great
this not a game, fuck a charade
pressin the keys until i feel okay
throughout the day
'till i collapse and wake up on my face
block out the sound with a video game
or something to drink
lemon and sugar remind me of fate
it's sorta sour but sweet by the grain
sweet by the grain, ay

she told me i was smart
"i'm better than that?"
she told me i can feel something
she told me i could be something greater
then she left a hole inside my chest, like a crater

by the grain [prod. dash]

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

fight this feeling. (feat. notahero) (prod. jolst x shxde)

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up digits hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (feat. notahero)

prod. by killedmyself

Lyrics:

(Verse)
A harsh winter got me livin life in poverty,
Cuz jobs never pick it up and now the cars empty,
But watch summer come around I hope that all of my problems get solved now it came around and shit is all the same,
My thoughts written could begin to take it all away,
I march deep into the heart of nature callin me,
It's part of me,
And people on this rock we be,
I'm gettin tired of this anxiety thats haunting me

(Chorus)
Its just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes

(Verse 2)
Some days when I wake up,
I get a sense of bliss that escapes me when the things I run away from reappear,
Which just makes me wanna stay in bed wasting the day,
Its my life homie I could go and waste it away,
I'm afraid to admit that some days I get to thinkin that maybe I wasn't made for this place that I live,
Cuz I can't seem to fit,
And the days seem to end really quick,
I'm fuckin done I can't take this again

(Chorus)
Its just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes

the way it goes (prod. killedmyself)

Lyrics:

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

Verse 1:
Tell me is it all worth it or not,
I put everything I got into this I rehearse what I jot,
Going broke just to make it fuckin work to be honest,
I been getting impatient with the whole fucking process,
Music is my outlet to express myself,
So fuck it I ain't holding back I'm who's next to hell with who you bumping cuz a motha fucka rhymes are weak,
I stay humble but I gotta speak what I believe,
It's like I wanna blow up but I don't,
Cuz I'm tired of being alone broke stuck in my home,
I just wanna do shows tour the whole fucking globe,
But these fucking labels call me and they ghosting my phone,
Fuck it I don't need em,
Or your idols feature,
I came up in this shit alone and still nobody speak the real shit that I been speaking,
Make a fuckin image and a fake persona,
So the checks stay coming in until their banks are fuller,
Fuck

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing,
But I got love for anyone of you we one and the same,
I find the jealousy you harbor is whats causing you pain,
All of these people they look up to me and others they hate,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

Verse 2:
Back when I was younger I knew I just wanna rap,
Nowadays talent doesn't even matter only stats do,
That's why the best artists always in the back and the other motha fuckas songs simpler to rap to,
I been through too much,
And if I give it up I invested too much,
So it wouldn't be worth it not at all,
Made a promise that it all would come together to my mom and she believed in me when I was writing lyrics in the halls,
Now that falls approaching,
My anxiety been creeping while I'm tryna focus,
People constantly DM me saying I'ma blow up anyday,
So I'm grateful where I came from and that I'm saving lives everyday,
If you cry to this just know I felt the same,
The last few days been so fucking stressful on my brain,
But my message is as plain as thank you all who show support,
And I'm glad I could do the same through the songs that I record

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing,
But I got love for anyone of you we one and the same,
I find the jealousy you harbor is whats causing you pain,
All of these people they look up to me and others they hate,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

rabbit hole (prod. KAMAARA)

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

useless

follow boyfifty

useless (feat. trechor boy + suisai)

prod. vaegud x sketchmyname

kissin on ur face
kissin on ur thighs
keepin up the pace
baby look me in the eyes
is it real? (x4)
i dont know if its real anymore
i dont know if its real at all
i dont know if its real

momentary pleasure
temporary relief
ur company lasts an hour
but loneliness never leaves
the moans disguise the words i wanna say
while ur touch wears off like nova-cane
the warm embrace of a blades
been keepin me company for days
is it too much to ask
if you could stay w me

stay w me
stay w me
for the night
for tonight
actin like we care 
(x2)

kissin on ur face
kissin on ur thighs
keepin up the pace
baby look me in the eyes
is it real? (x2)
i dont know if its real anymore
i dont know if its real at all
i dont know if its real

kisses

[+] i just wanna die slow.. see me from the blunt glow
* featuring @nicoteenninyo * prod by @metlast *

MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/gxxBsbHSbkU

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro: seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
see me from the blunt glow
with my blinds closed
burning up the sky oh oh ya

[hook: nicoteen ninyo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

[verse: seejayxo]
try and get me now ya
fucked up off the sound oh
i smoke like a pound ya
so high off the ground oh
you cannot touch me you basic
i roll a blunt then i face it
wonder why they always hatin
i know you know i'ma make it
so just face it,
i won't say shit, i hold back,
i don't know why i'm sad, shit
i forgot my past 
ion think i'm that bad
i want a big truck and a benz
get fucked up wit my friends
out in LA til i'm dead, LA til i'm dead

[hook: nicoteen ninyo + seejayxo]
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, fuck up out my life hoe)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(write my death note, i just want a slit throat)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?
i just wanna die slow
with your hands wrapped
around my cheeks
(i just wanna die slow, see me from the blunt glow)
choking me out
til i can't breathe
kiss with no sounds
and die peacefully  
(with my blinds closed, burning up the sky oh)
i just wanna die slow
can you do it for me?

die slow

+ visuals

die slow (feat. nicoteen ninyo) *MUSIC VIDEO IN DESC*

only feet apart (prod. kiraw)

SnOoZe

if u wanna go motherfucka just leave, shit
we dont gotta talk while u walk or speak bitch
lookin at my phone while u texting "i miss this"
if thats what u think why the fuck did u ditch it

why u still leavin if ur scared that u lost me
ur minds sprayin bullshit, let yo heart do the talkin
u always slam the door, but you come back knockin
u try to murder us, but cant stand the haunting 
(x2)

my heads so twisted i cant fucking think
how many words did u even mean
you say u miss me and make u feel things
that no ones brought out for u to see

ghosts from ur past and ur last just passed me
in the same night you left, you text him
so whats the truth, how do u feel
do u hate him and want me or was that never real

if u wanna go motherfucka just leave, shit
we dont gotta talk while u walk or speak bitch
lookin at my phone while u texting "i miss this"
if thats what u think why the fuck did u ditch it

why u still leavin if ur scared that u lost me
ur minds sprayin bullshit, let yo heart do the talkin
u always slam the door, but you come back knockin
u try to murder us, but cant stand the haunting 
(x2)

ditch it (overwhelmed) [prod. hxrxkiller]

Blonde

📷 Instagram: @prod5head
🐤Twitter: @prod5head
☁️soundcloud.com/prod5head

LYRICS:
every morning that i wake up, always see u in the mirror
in my eyes
in my smile
in the way that i appear
in my walk
in my dress
in every single thing i fear
ur somehow always here

every minute that i made it through u were never there
in the pain
in the screams
in the wiping of the tears
in the loss 
in the gain
when the drugs were always here 
u were somehow never there

every need i needed met never seemed to meet u
when the bumps
when the shots
held my hand instead of you
when the warmth
when the bond
in the bottle i was soothed
something i never got from u

every strangers bed that i rent, i hope where i can stay
with no love
only fucks
with our damage in the way
only broken
never healed 
w the scars we dont explain 
well somethings never change

i wake up 
close my eyes
to things ion wanna see

im too blind
i dont care
to accept reality 

every morning that i wake up, always see u in the mirror
in my eyes
in my smile
in the way that i appear
in my walk
in my dress
in every single thing i fear
ur somehow always here

every minute that i made it through u were never there
in the pain
in the screams
in the wiping of the tears
in the loss 
in the gain
when the drugs were always here 
u were somehow never there

every need i needed met never seemed to meet u
when the bumps
when the shots
held my hand instead of you
when the warmth
when the bond
in the bottle i was soothed
something i never got from u

every strangers bed that i rent, i hope where i can stay
with no love
only fucks
with our damage in the way
only broken
never healed 
w the scars we dont explain 
well somethings never change

i wake up 
close my eyes
to things ion wanna see

im too blind
i dont care
to accept reality

SPOTIFY/APPLE MUSIC

blind (prod. 5head)

#SCFIRST

WONDER

lately, i’ve been so disconnected
my feet don’t wanna touch the ground
can’t find my way through this dimension
when all these voices drown me out

i feel so far from my body
it’s hard to find a way back
everyone tells me I’m crazy,
well maybe, well maybe I am

oh i wonder
i wonder if anyone will hear this
i wonder if i’ll ever be fearless
i wonder if i’ll end up alone
don’t know where i’m goin

oh i wonder 
if what i say will matter to someone
if i’ll go broke tryin to keep on
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder

somedays, i’m like a falling feather
floating, i don’t know where to land
why are we looking for an answer
when the questions way too hard to understand

oh i wonder
i wonder if anyone will hear this
i wonder if i’ll ever be fearless
i wonder if i’ll end up alone
don’t know where i’m goin

oh i wonder 
if what i say will matter to someone
if i’ll go broke tryin to keep on
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder

oh i wonder
i wonder if anyone will hear this
i wonder if i’ll ever be fearless
i wonder if somebody will miss me
this life is a mystery

oh i wonder 
if what i say will matter to someone
if i’ll go broke tryin to keep on
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder
i wonder

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

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