Deathbed (prod. deadhill)

its not personal, its strictly business
prod. @jolst @irby314

im drunk again
i miss your face
just wish that i 
could replace 
the memories 
that are haunting me 
i miss the simple pleasantries
like sitting with you
staring at the sea 
this sullen panic
slowly surrounds me 

you dont know
you dont know
wat you're doing to me
you dont know 
you dont know 

you never loved me and it shows
it hurts me more than u could ever know
that im not the one you chose...

i wake up, 4 am
staring at the clock
wishing that i was him 
u dont know what your doing to me
baby
thought you were the best
rip my heart 
out of my chest 
i know that you 
would do it all again

i know that youd do it all again
but lets be real 
you're proabably better off with him
you're probably better off with him

you're probably better off...

im drunk again
miss your face
just wish that i
was what you wanted...

Spotify

better off [+irby & jolst]

Hyperpop Heartbreak (johnnyfriend)solo version

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

produced by cxrter & tahtx

lyrics:
(notahero)
heavy snow is pouring outside the window
u know exactly what u want in life
but i don’t know
but i’ll carry on
and i’ll love u if you're here or you're gone
i’ll find u thru the crowd
she don’t know i’m hurting cuz i barely make a sound
this hole i’ve dug so deep
i can’t see through out the ground
u can find me in the lost and found
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

(backyard beetle)
yeah
as the candle burns real low
the light begins to show
you may be gone but your presence still glows
feasting on fragments and memories of old
i live in a wasteland i ain't never seen the snow 
even then I can't help but feel it's so cold
cause all of my warmth came from you
what am i supposed to do 
when my systems shut down

(notahero)
christmas was never this cold
christmas was never this cold

christmas was never this cold (cxrter x tahtx)

day 3

lyrics

you come out when i sleep
and walk all over my dreams
you tore me to the bed and I couldnt breathe
i've held my eyes shut all week

i'm holding down the wildfires
with picture perfect nightskies
if you call I might cry
for now i'll lay a light sigh

wait for the sunrise
no patience you're out of your mind
I loved you one time in my life
and I could for more than eternity
yeah tha is what I said
hold me firm, ill grip you to the end 
know its hard but something better left
left alone when inside it is dead

no sound of a breathe when you're waking 
went cold yeah he just couldn't make it
it's all smoke when you live for the payment 
tears turn to shards and you'll start to get anxious

no waiting, no saving 
too late in this mist i'm fading 
rung smoke, I got blunts piling up like pages
bong rips, see the sky go from clear to anxious

i'm so jaded, think I'm hated
I'm not drunk enough, i'm caving
dark surrounds my soul
I dug deep to get out of this hole
but there's more to this than you could ever know
throw wood fire in the pile just to watch it grow
sparks being sent to where my energy went
I'm just trying to find home

hold heart there's no remedy
just get lost in the seven seas
don't lose sleep on where you're meant to be
but lose breath on the memories

we hid in the shadows and got stuck in the pages
and now we know that this is one for the ages
casting the spells like your blood is of mages
I've got a viking heart, I'm courages

it might be all they're offering 
but I fought for this 
burning the land in return for the conquering
couldn't stand for this had to drift with the ocean
drift with the wind while enchanting my potions

rant my emotions
is it open i'm hoping
this undertone comes with a gift and a notice
the smoke in the distance the quickest erosion 
can't lie to myself do I live with this knowing

wildfire

wildfire (jacob vallen)

GOD-FEARING NYMPHO

Don’t you lie to me

@scottysplash

i thought the worst of it had already happened again
so im back on my bullshit
posted up in the ruins of my city
been fed up with the life ive been livin
til i get fucked up and hang with the homies
livin it up while were all goin down
i fuckin hate this town but i can deal while ur around

"u know u only make things worse
when u bring it up again it only makes me hurt"
well im glad to know
u can start to imagine how i felt
ur locked inside my heart
found ur way there like a shelter
but u cant run from ur fuckin shadow
dont u know?

give me ur worst when i gave u my best

i thought the worst of it had already happen again
so im back on my bullshit
posted up in the ruins of my city
been fed up with the life ive been livin
til i get fucked up and hang with the homies
livin it up while were all goin down
i fuckin hate this town but i can deal while ur around

Follow me <3

ruins (prod. scotty splash)

* Can you tell me what the fuck is going on? *
* Can you tell me what the fuck is even wrong? *

Shooting star, you're my sunshine.
Remember nights where I'd cry alone..
Told me move on, and it's okay; I hate you now.
I pretended like it'd work out.
Now I'm overreacting x4

Am I overreacting, told myself that I'd be fine. Thanks for asking.
No one was asking, no one was asking.
Gave you the world, in return I am dying.

Yah,

Shooting star you're my sunshine,
remember nights where I'd cry alone. x2

Shooting star, you're my sunshine.
Remember nights where I'd cry alone..
Told me move on, and it's okay; I hate you now.
I pretended like it'd work out.
Now I'm overreacting x4
(Running away from me girl, now you're running away from me girl.)

*I can't even tell if you want me or my bands now.*
*I can't even tell if you want me for my bands now.*

Pop at your party,
Im off the molly,
say that she want me,
I do not want you,
Say that she want me,
she did not fuck with me when I had no one,
I was outside of the crib and it's snowing,
momma I made it im makin that money,
momma I made it im makin that money,
momma I made it im makin that money now.

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

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