hey
made this in 3 hours last night
produced by @wisssery & @user-757072975
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
far away
and gone again
i ride thru city streets
and sleep
was never an option

so take my soul
return to
days of old
and see whats better

the weather reminds me that i’m better off
driving on highways has taken enough
time is an essence that i can live without
im better now

i move on
yet it sits with me
i live enough
but never peacefully
cuz when i gain one back
its always knocked back down
i see the light sometimes
and catch an L right back around

where the fuck have my friends gone
maybe they moved on
i got me some new ones but
the old never prove wrong
im losing my sanity
in an apartment i don’t own

and my girl, she got some bright brown eyes
and i cant help but notice when she sits beside me
i feel like michael but i’m in disguise
cuz theres no way he’d ever be this happy

so take my soul
return to
days of old
and see whats better

the weather reminds me that i’m better off
taking my life and fucking it up 
tell me about my life u know so well
im better now

better [wisssery x lavendertxwn]

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https://soundcloud.com/plslovejai

prod. remghost & jolst

lyrics:
she started to drink and drive
and i stopped going out at night
trying not to smoke no more
and all my friends act so surprised
please dont fall in love with nobody else
oh i know everything about you they dont know
and you where always by me when i called for help
yeah i know that we both f*cked up but this time im too selfish
i dont think you mean a single word
you only hate when i leave
i saw my ex last night and we had sex in the parking lot
hard to find a single thing that we can sit down and talk about
losing people that i love the most guess im on a different route
i cant let nobody close not even small or big amounts
waking up with bl**dy nose let it drip inside my mouth
all these feelings come and go keep trying to shut em out
but i dont think that i shut em out
no i dont think that i shut em out ooo
she started to drink and drive
and i stopped going out at night
trying not to smoke no more
and all my friends act so surprised
please dont fall in love with nobody else
oh i know everything about you they dont know
and you where always by me when i called for help
yeah i know that we both f*cked up but this time im too selfish
but this time im too
but this time im too
but this time im too selfish

PUNCHING BAG

DRINK AND DRIVE

MORE PLATFORMS

LOVE JAI - DRINK AND DRIVE (REMGHOST & JOLST)

hi swaine

i cannot speak or make a sound
my time is up ive been found out
he holds the key and the highground
and i couldnt save the casualties
youre getting numb while i feel your pain
i medicate to calm down my brain
something is up with the walls im insane
now youve caught me hands up and im feeling so lame

thank you for listening<3

found out

prod. Shiki XO
mastered: nate2timez
mix: me
art: my lovely girlfriend :)
lyrics: 

i was walking alone on a road
when i didn’t have anywhere to go
my heart always feels so god damn cold
cause i’m always on my own
i can see the clouds gather in my heart
they shroud the person that i was
and tear my my mind apart

now, there is nothing left for me here 
   (there ain’t nothing left for me here)
so how do run away and disappear?
   (how do i run away and disappear?)

no one could tell me the answers i needed
even if i yelled, begged, and pleaded
all i could think of is the way i was treated
so egregious, every day just repeated
i was stuck in the same cycle over and over
but you didn’t fucking care
you just sat there hungover
   (didn’t fucking care about me)
you sink even lower
you’ve lost your composure 
your breath is fucking foul
i can tell your not sober

(ohh i can tell your not sober)
ohh

now, there is nothing left for me here 
   (there ain’t nothing left for me here)
so how do run away and disappear?
   (how do i run away and disappear?)
the lines are blurred between you and i
so now i don’t know if i should go or die
so how do run away and disappear?
   (how do i run away and disappear?)

how do i disappear? (Shiki XO)

[+ sogimura]

@killbreanna
goodbye, (goodbye)
to everything i know,
i can see you getting close,
and im feeling kinda cold,
its not that it got old
i just found my way back home
i cannot believe this shit
you been the nicest since i been hit

its my castle and you dont belong here
cause theres no consent here
try living in fear, dear
no one compares to you, just do whatever you wanna do
ouu-
skip rocks,
and get by,
say goodbye to the sunrise!

imma keep my mind in a paradise,
its FUCK those hoes, cause we ride or die!
FUCK everything that isnt making you happy,
if it isnt fuckin' worth it, then it wont happen!
dont ask me what im doin!
get out of my bizz, get off of my dick, yh..
walking around the issue..

@safeatlast
ts a tragedy
i really miss my family
theyve always been right there for me
when i was in my misery 

ill make my way to missouri
cuz everyones been missin me
i miss yall too
and i been real blue
without the ones that care for me

so let me go
real slowly
losin hopeful
memories
i still want to
end me
i wont see my
thirties

so let me go
real slowly
losin hopeful
memories 

@northshoremusic
Throw me in the headlights
And Wash away my goodbyes 

The toxins hold me back
Fill my brain to the brim 

Lace my brain with your pills
And lead me close to the edge 
And pull me over the hill and tumble into the abyss

@soulfadexo
I can feel the raindrops pouring
Down in the rainbow
I can see the pressure
Falling in the night sky
I can feel the storm
Crashing on the waves
I feel the needle point
At the tip of the iceburg
As you know, i’m a letdown
Always been a sundown
Now i really wanna drown
Just to hide away the frown

I just wanna die today
I just wanna die today

Castle w/ kill breanna, safeatlast, The North Shore & soulfade

disbelief (prod. tiedforsilver)

~2300~

produced by Ezra Martin

Lyrics:

[Chorus]
Hate it
You know I can’t beat it
I don’t want you saying
That you don’t feel like staying 
Dear god, I want it to be over
I wanted you to call me back
I want it to be over
I’m always gonna get attached 
I wanted you to call me

[Verse]
You hate it
I know
Can’t go
So cold
Rather be alone at home
Blood keeps spilling out
Heart exposed
I won’t let them change me ‘
To be like you
Empathetic
Felt it all fall when you said it
Immerse myself in the lies ‘til i’m dead inside 
Might’ve been wrong but you said it
Nothing you can say gonna hurt my
Pride

[Chorus]
Hate it
You know I can’t beat it
I don’t want you saying
That you don’t feel like staying 
Dear god, I want it to be over
I wanted you to call me back
I want it to be over
I’m always gonna get attached 
I wanted you to call me

hostile

ignored every sign

prod. pekarot

ive become a carbon copy of all of the things that i used to despise
maybe ill feel much better with some conversation and the touch of your skin tonight
jump my bones
bleed me dry
take it all from me i swear its fine
i dont know who i am without our hand’s intertwined 
and the picture i keep is a symbol of time
im way more fucked up than I realized 
shot myself in the foot, i ignored every sign
i pray to god we hit every red light 
cause when moments are fleeting, the now must suffice
maybe we can fall in love again for a night
forgive and forget, I dont care who was right
He might be remembered, but we’ll never die
search for salvation in all your goodbyes

Oh what a shame we became 
Such a fragile broken thing 
Wish we could’ve stayed the same
Oh the pain that it brings
When I think of all the ways that I could’ve seen it coming 
Would’ve fucked up anyways
Still dont know what im running from , so the songs are how I deal with what we’ve become
The glow in your eyes is as bright as the sun and it stays there even when push comes to shove
you mean more to me than you realize 
Girl you color my sky
why the fuck would i lie?
your face is a mainstay inside of my mind
read the texts back in your voice like every time
give me the chance to take you on a drive 
the way that you hold me makes everything fine 
moments so perfect at every red light
and i wish i could feel it at least one more time

red light (prod. pekarot)

prod. by: @yagirlbunny
shoutout : @theraevyn <3

lyrics:

what'chu know about it
you don't even make sense
roll another blunt
just so i could deal with it
there's something in my bud
but i'll smoke another spliff
laced with fentanyl
this gon' be my last hit

what's up
got bands, bitch, i want it all
die young
bump peep at my funeral
pour a cup
you gon' need it when i leave this world
leave you all behind
except my boys
we with the reaper

(@theraevyn)

i remember after the fall
i don't see you here
i don't see you at all
i miss you, my dear
my knife cuts through it all
blood leaking onto the floor
my body drop and i'm cold

x2

when you forget my face
i'll be in heaven at the gates
on the other side where the angels sing
i hope you come back to me

before i go

~2300~

produced by @dearkerri & VITO2300

how do i disappear? (Shiki XO)

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