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Best Selflove hits 3

The Upload

8/12/22

if u feel alone listen this.

@evertheghost

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half 

You try to invite him over 
Got 3 screenshots from last October 
Don’t lie to my face 

you know you ain’t right
You know you ain’t right

I exercise my full right 
To keep on dying inside 

Please take your stupid thoughts
And shove them right up your ass 

Your always so full of shit 
I tried my best to make things right 

You fill my head with harmful thoughts 
And act so innocent in the dark 

I’m so tired of falling 
I’m so damn exhausted 

I cry so damn often 
My life keeps on falling 

(Ever The Ghost)
no peace
no remorse
only a flame to devour a forest
no remnants of life
captivate me on a fast decline
opening portals
unlocking powers
restless souls
all figure out after hours
lost and searching for my soul as it roams
got me backed in a corner
I just want to be alone

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half

Captivate [+ sogimura]

I Hate The Internet (prod. Living Puff)

This song is about the world being your canvas, meaning a true artist never limits themselves.

-- lyrics --
Canvas

I sacrificed my life and gave it everything I got…

I sacrificed my life
gave it everything I got
Now I got a fuckin bag
And I got a big ass spot
So I throw it in the bag
I fuckin love to shop
But I don’t 6-9
I don’t fuckin talk to cops

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

The world is my canvas
Cuz I’m a true artist
The picture I paint it
I go in the hardest 
give a fuck what you say
Imma do me regardless
It‘s more than my ex girl
That’s left me so heartless

And I don’t even fucking want her back
I just wanna keep on making stacks 
I just wanna keep on spitting facts
What’s your problem that’s no way to react

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

I copped a goyard bag 
to put my heart in
I don’t beg for shit
So Fuck your pardon
I earned every lick
Life got me hardened
I don’t ever quit
I hunt like I’m starvin

I sacrificed my life
gave it everything I got
Now I got a fuckin bag
And I got a big ass spot
So I throw it in the bag
I fuckin love to shop
But I don’t 6-9
I don’t fuckin talk to cops

Got damn it
I just got becky from a Janet
I Been fightin anxiety and panic
Why I always feel I’m being underhanded
I don’t understand it
I always had the cash when you was empty handed 
So you stab me in the back and say it’s just semantics 
I don’t fuck wit that and my private jet just landed
I been makin out like bandit 
at the top gettin top from a Candice
the world is my canvas

Canvas

Canvas (Prod. STARINTHESKY)

One of many

mixed/mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat
[Verse 1]
You reminded me that I'm still human
I can't expect everything to always be perfect
We all make mistakes and learn from them
It's the only way to be a better person
I wish someone had told me all this when I was young
I wouldn't have ever considered pulling the plug
Sometimes all we need is just a simple hug
I used to think that opening up wouldn't be enough
[Verse 2]
I used to hate looking at myself
I was insecure if you couldn't tell
You showed me how to have confidence
The cold shoulder was all I ever felt
The only person you can really change is yourself
You can't force your agenda on someone else
Trust me, I had to learn the hard way
If I never reflected I wouldn't be here still
[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat

you made me realize (prod. 2001)

Lyrics:

you cant match my flow if you wanted to
labels hit my phone on the low im not in the booth
sippin on patron all alone while im on the move
gettin to the bag on my own like i oughta do

but yall dont even know so its lonely
do it by myself on my own G
fuck everyone else im a lone G
always try to drown but it wont leave

like fuck it ill just live with this sickness
like fuck it it aint none of your business
i swear that i get pushed to my limit
i hate it but i dont wanna give in

if only sorrow could build a staircase
or tears could show the way (shoutout BMTH)
you know id take it all right back
so we could see some better days
i know its really not worth leaving
they say goodbye anyway
i know that life can get real fucked
but im just hoping that you stay

Sickness

sickness

Kbackwood$ - Feathers ft. Kennedyxoxo (prod. akira)

glass +guardin (noahmadethiss)

My Shitty Love Songs On Her Playlist (jean parker & aidan han)

IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT (5head X Flower)

(intro)
i feel so stuck
won’t you let me go..

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

(verse)
now i’m shaking 
and i can’t fucking stop it 
my world is breaking 
apart and u were on it
when all i wanted was for u to be honest
i’ll close my eyes as i beg for u to stop it

(bridge)
my bones have decayed with the winter
but still i feel her

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

i know u have to go (hero)

(music video)
https://youtu.be/oAQF2xB8nGg

ring arnd the rosey ft. kennedyxoxo *king theta*

Feat @cavasoul
Prod. @boyfifty
Art by @fairenofficial

Don't Cry (Feat. Cavasoul)(Prod. Boyfifty)

produced, engineered, mixed and mastered by noah thomas

did i do it to myself again

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

sk8miles

lyrics ♡

let's swim
in an ocean, full of sharks
full of sharks
let's swim
in an ocean, full of sharks
we got hella shards, breaking hella shards
let's swim
let's swim

chorus
tell me again
tell me again
ha, still not over me
still not over me
so ill tell you again
ill tell you again
you'll never find anybody
better than me
better than me
better than me
ain't no such thing as better than me
ain't nobody get you wetter than me
i see you for what you're pretending to be
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

post chorus
in your room

verse
ha, i hope that
when you're w him, you're screaming my name
ha, i hope that he knows
that you liked when i fucked on your face
ha, those were the better days
those were the better days
take me back to those better days (no they weren't lolll)
when i was w you, damn i made it a wetter day
and now im chilling watching anime
fucked a new bitch, it's like any day
but anyway, ive been gaining
like hella weight
cuz of raising canes, so
working it off
balling so hard, like im in the nba 
im the one like an ace of spades
but fuck it imma leave you anyway

chorus
tell me again
tell me again
ha, still not over me
still not over me
so ill tell you again
ill tell you again
you'll never find anybody
better than me
better than me
better than me
ain't no such thing as better than me
ain't nobody get you wetter than me
i see you for what you're pretending to be
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

outro
it's okay, i know you fantasize
about me in your room

let's swim in an ocean full of sharks

prod hiraeth


u gotta stop getting invested
lash out swing my fist where his neck is
swear you wish that i was somebody impressive
chase him cause hes not intrested

no one knows what i been going thru
live or die its getting hard to choose
fucked up, fucked up
fix ur attitude
no love, just sex
he got it outta you

just let me know love 
i’m leaving home 
don’t pretend you know me 
you simply don’t 

i’m so far away from what we built 
i lost composure 
i lost my will 

i always try to be the bigger man
when it’s all in my head and i’m 
tryna be the best i can 
please don’t say a word 
you wouldn’t know what to say 
we’re both on separate roads
waiting for our love to fade 

waiting for our love to fade
nobody said it'd be easy
i hope im on my way
to what im searching for

push me outta line
im sick of feeling helpless
i tried to reason
why tf you being selfish
please let go of me
remove the scars from my neck
swear its blasphemy
shes fucking done it again
i dont know if you care now
are you proud, i cut my hair down
fucked up fucked up fix ur attitude
no love just sex
he got it outta you

hard to feel like i was needed in the first place 
please dont look at me i swear im such a disgrace
im tired of my own face
(hira)
JUST LEAVE ME HERE TO DIE 
(I CANT SAVE MY STATE OF MIND)
IM RUNNING OUT OF TIME 
(NO CONSCIENCE LEFT TO FIND)
ILL GO AND WASTE MY LIFE 
(ANOTHER ENDLESS NIGHT)
IM JUST TOO SCARED TO TRY 
HEAVEN AINT TOO FAR AWAY

disgrace ft. sinxi

a song i wrote in 2019 and released in 2020. it's a song about struggling with addiction, and trying to love not only yourself, but another person. a failing relationship between two people because of addiction. the 2nd and new verse, is a letter to 14 year old me. and a memory for the older one. this song is a personal battle, the death and the aftermath of what's to come. thank you for listening.

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
klonopin, ativan is what i need girl
need a xan, need a bowl, just watch me breathe girl
she never come around, when i'm on drugs
idk what to quit. is it drugs or love?
i feel like it's too much to ask
i'd say i love you, but i'll never take it back
would you take it back, if you said so?
i feel like i can ask, but i'd rather not know
on the road
run away from you
scared of love i don't know what to
do
idk what to do

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

verse 2
it's been years since i met you
and i've been trying to forget you
it's been years since i met you
and all i wanna do
is forget you
i gave it up for you, gave it up for you
i got sober for you, damn i got sober for me too
huh, i guess that's just the both of us
i guess we're growing up
go back to them days, poppin xans
i'll take another one
getting high with you, getting high with you
thought i'd OD, might just end up dyin with you
sobriety is something i could never do
i hope you're proud of me, the same way that i'm proud of you
i'm just tryna stay clean for my family
if i die young, then i'm dying happily
i don't wanna be here, not anymore
6 pills, now i'm falling to the floor

chorus
i'm stuck in her eyes, and she's stuck in mine
turn off the lights
and i'll make her say
oh
yeah she wanna stay the night but i think that's bad
i don't wanna be attached unless you feel like that
oh

limbo (2022)

prod. blvnkface
decided to make a full on pop punk screamo song. I haven’t made one of these in a while. I hope u like 🖤

my heart , my soul

run from you feat kii. (malloy x max flynn)

u can watch from the sideline now BITCH

prod. @smilecrayola
cover art by digital yams

✨Polar ✨
💎 @polar333 💎
💎 instagram.com/ihatepolar/ 💎
💎 twitter.com/ihatepolar/ 💎

✨Kevin Kazi ✨
💎 @yvngnamek 💎
💎 instagram.com/kevinkazi/ 💎
💎 twitter.com/kevinkazi 💎

lyrics:
Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline
Ya

I just made a rack flipping packs time to upscale
Bitch I'm independent making money off of resale
I don't fuck with fakes ya I buy that shit for retail
My teeth filled with ice hit the blunt then I exhale
Your new shorty pretty nice ima steal that
Look into my eyes, heart of ice, but don't feel bad
I stay up at night playing games while you still sad
Never trust a hoe cause you'll never get your soul back

Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline

Pulled up on your hoe with Versace on my eye sight
She just fell in love with me, I think that shorty my type
Ride up in my phantom got me feeling like a poltergeist 
Porsche Panamera ima skirt off, they like Jesus Christ
Bitch I'm sipping potions, by the ocean
Shorty she approaching, give her slow dick
If you wanna be my lover, treat me right
Molly got me seeing colors, flashing lights

Flashing lights, count money, it's a cash cow
You was talking shit, but I'm getting to my bag
Lots of vices in my head that I can't even count now
And I've been popping xans, but I still can't seem to slow down
Now she hit my phone I decline, I don't lose time
It's by no surprise, got my bro on the FaceTime
Called because I glowed, and she wanna see my wrist shine
I fly coast to coast, while you sitting on the sideline

May not really like me, but you will never meet me
This shit has a price, house of lies, it ain't easy
And how I never know they're a snake till they leave me
Then they come back when I blow say they need me

stream ❄️

sideline w/ kevin kazi (prod. smilecrayola)

I'm Trying (Prod. Westt the great)

Climb aboard Andrew Spacey's train of thought and hitch a ride into the darker corners of the young artist's psyche on his new track and visual, "Everlasting". Detailing the reoccurring subconscious thoughts that often weigh him down, Spacey battles the loss of emotional connection that comes with maturity to things and experiences he once found intriguing. The Fantasy Trap visionary's atmospheric vocals and otherworldly lyrics glide over Shrimp and Glasear's deeply melodic, dark production leaving the listener longing for a place that does not exist. Additionally, CRXHN's arcade oriented visual illuminates Spacey's longing for adventure through obscure scenes and one of a kind edits that allow the viewer to step out of blatant reality and step into a realm consumed by the unknown.

Everlasting (Prod. Glasear x Shrimp)

Listen on other platforms:
https://songwhip.com/song/tanto/idntwnnafallaprt

Tanto 
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/37VShweFmWxn33vCPFydOr?si=5_HRCy51Tc6bhJ8h3Mj8zQ 
Twitter: https://twitter.com/whostanto
IG: https://www.instagram.com/whostanto/

Yvng Swim
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5wBLBtzkrT4O1HwayX0L9L?si=U6oRNPDKQx-bYU5jBsaQCw 
Twitter: https://twitter.com/yvngswim
IG: https://www.instagram.com/hashsmokingthrasher/

i know u have to go (hero)

epitomeoffailure