The songs and music I listen to on a daily basis. updating it depending on how I feel, what's new and, what I want to listen to and the potential hidden gems I find.

these days

prod. ryan kelly

prod. tiedforsilver 2025

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Alt:UG Sad/Emo

lately

toxic waste

carm meet

Car Meet F/401zaya (prod. Ryan Kelly)

luv yall <3 hope yall enjoy the album
out on all platforms

prod. @prodryankelly
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChtd0ihipYS2VFUfCb7lk4A

+whole album is mixed n mastered by zonex
https://www.youtube.com/c/ZonexBeats

brand new chapter [prod. ryan kelly]

heartbreak highway

believe

All out

all out

All Out

in the dark

shame

𝓈𝑜𝓂𝑒𝒷𝑜𝒹𝓎 🎀- ft. 222quiet (p. Medium x Ryan Kelly)

starbound (treez + taurs + ryan kelly)

lyrics

what if the plans we made fall thru 
what is my life outside of u
im picking skin off from under my suit
its imperative now that i hold onto u
i swear
none of this shit seems fair
none of this shit is there
when im ripping out my hair
out all my hair

break me to bits and i promise ill love you
and trust u
i dont know why u love me
im ugly
im stupid
i cant even do this right
im thru this plight
i shut the blinds
i sob
its nothing like i want
i could be wrong
i could be right
it didnt matter anyways
when u look me in my face
i know u see a waste of space
and im sorry
and im sorry

if i dont hear from u tomorrow i hope that ur well
i apologize that i cant carry what u felt
im sure it hurts
but i cant help u out

slow my head
so i stop overthinking
i need it bad
and my circle is shrinking 
again
im the worst that u met
im the worst that i know
so take me out 

break me to bits and i promise ill love you
and trust u
i dont know why u love me
im ugly
im stupid
i cant even do this right
im thru this plight
i shut the blinds
i sob
its nothing like i want
i could be wrong
i could be right
it didnt matter anyways
when u look me in my face
i know u see a waste of space
and im sorry
and im sorry

waste of space

prod: @prodcxrter @tiedforsilver
extra production / master: @vito2300

two months,
i can't write nothing at all
gave up on having someone to call
fake blood still left a stain on the wall
fake love still left a hole in my heart
stuck in the middle
i wait for it to eat me alive
it stings a little
it kills me when you treat me so nice
go grab the sickle
i'll let you cut as much as you like
(as you like, as you like)

i don't wanna be selfish
but god i hate myself
and i can't help it
you made me lose my mind
i wish you felt it
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly
keep damaging my psyche

lately i don't even give a fuck about the music
it's just enough that i do it
one day i might lose it
don't have enough to get through it
like oh, it's okay if you wanna let go
spill blood, wake up on the floor
we're done but i hate you more
he don't ever wanna wait one second
so dumb, shoulda learned my lesson
those words he said he meant it
but i'm stuck on the way he said it
so soft, so soft
and after everything i gave you
you're still gone
still gone

i don't wanna be selfish
(i don't wanna be selfish no more)
but god i hate myself
and i can't help it
(can't help it)
you made me lose my mind
i wish you felt it
(you felt it)
and i can't even cry
the things i dealt with
(i dealt with)
i dealt with
leaving you behind me,
(behind)
hope you like your side piece
i look so unsightly
that's why i'm always hiding
i don't think they like me
most times it don't surprise me
think about it nightly
keep damaging my psyche

i hate myself
like nobody else
and i hate you
much more than you do
forgive me god
no matter the cost
i can't stop
no i can't stop

unsightly (slowed and reverbed)

lyrics

hope we don't leave a disaster
i been in the lab with my black heart
i'm tied to the souls, im a snatcher
i'm leaving the scene in laughter

held me down, almost drowned but i made it
it should have been me on that fucking pavement
i'm not done with berating
things will change for ur sake
but seems like every night i'm sleeping by the grave

holding back the tears u know i wanna fight back
in seek of an example i know u would like that
wishing upon freedom but constricted by these walls
i can't hear another i'll be right back

i'll be right back 
baby i'll be right back
i can't hear another i'll be right back

right back 
baby i'll be right back
i can't hear another
i can't hear another

i can't hear another
i'll be right back
i can't lose another to the right path

or so they say i was born by the sword
it sealed my fate
i hope u can forgive me i was sworn by the plague

born in decay
swayed by a saint
i just hope that u can hear me when i pray

just look what its coming to
cracks all on the roof
maybe it meant more when u said that i was brave

i walk around with ur picture 
i hope u know that i miss u

the alchemists omen

the alchemists omen (hollowpurple x tiedforsilver)

[clip of jayce & mel from arcane]

lyrics

i jumped right in with my eyes closed
u were still there i was not, i was not i'm so sorry
from the start i was fucked up from the start
solid shell, hollow body, hollow heart

it still guides me, you'll still finds me 
with all this pain i bring
but trust me u don't want me to take the medicine 
'coz i'll swallow u whole
i had no idea how to have control

u were there for me when i was suffering 
the door closes another ones opening 
just repeat all this pain
so i'll be off again
thats the only way that i'll truly be loving it 

christmas came early
I'll just be receiving letters till I make it work better
all of the days from now I will remember them 
I hope we get to meet again soon

again soon
again soon
I hope we get to meet again soon

again soon
again soon
I hope we get to meet again

I can't get it out my head
look I was just hoping we could meet again soon
again soon
again soon
hoping we could meet again

hoping we could meet again
meet again
meet again soon
I was just hoping we could meet again soon 

meet again soon 
meet again soon 
I was just hoping we could meet again soon

meet again soon 
meet again soon 
just hoping we could meet again

again
again
again
just hoping we could meet again soon

d-day

d-day (hollowpurple x tiedforsilver)

[clip from naruto.. i think]

lyrics

i'm done with clenching fists 
sure theres tension building but i wanna give
i'll be carved in rune stones where they wanna live
i'm signing off the vision with the sign of wind
wish u the best

hold it down
you'll find the potion just
feel it now
know u wanna see me in a combat mode
you'll crack the code
for now just fire it in the sky
like ur miles from home

do u here the whispers calling
i found a way for u to slow it down
i was the wolf, i'm just the wisher stalling
--

im here to kick this dirt 'till i'm thirty 
till then i gotta change direction set this course straight
i know the ones all around my feet want to hurt me 
you'll remember me next time the earth shakes

i was pushed down a current that curved
want u to know i've ever been heard
swam the direction it came
need u not living the same 
i was supposed to keep u safe
but u wanted to play

its woven deep can't ignore
i hope its sweet when u mourn
keep it discreet with the relics
i'll be reborn when i perish
study the code for the message

runes of the fallen

runes of the fallen (tiedforsilver x flesh)

early 2025 sheet
prod, me

baby they'll be all gone, i dont wanna go run
after more bitches, i swear to you i'm so done
you're gon' be the last one, that i ever loved bro
that i ever loved bro

but i ain't bitter, i'm just broken and cautious
the way i shiver in motion, i'm nauseous
playing back our convos like tracks in the process
now i'm being ghosted, couldnt wrap mind around it
why does this feel hopeless?
keeping my face up like poker
life ain't that fair got no jokers
when you're low you go lower
keeping an eye up like mordor
still got my ring on
thought i could feel it, but no more
what should i go for now?

i got my feelings but can i trust them?
i got my heart, for you it's open
tell me why do i feel the coldness
losing track of time alone at home here
(nothing but my own time)

baby they'll be all gone, i dont wanna go run
after more bitches, i swear to you i'm so done
you're gon' be the last one, that i ever loved bro
that i ever loved bro

yeah, i been numb, but it’s safer that way
every girl feel like a rerun now, drains that smile out of my face

i decided to stay, even it kills me a little more every day
i hope you're doing okay, dont wanna see you just waste
it's beautiful that you create, i cannot let you just fade
still keep your song in my playlist

go run (demo)

intoxicated

"i can't go on like this..."
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Tired (ft. Drowzyyy)

4u (ft. Dippers)

lyrics:

Get the fuck out 
Light the truck up
This had took away faces
They refer back
Im the top guy
Im in 25 places
Light this blunt up
Drop the match stick
Blow a Hole thru that pavement
Whos the right guy
Whos the right one
No one else want the placement

Im so right now
Im so hay day
Im so I dont care what who say 
Fuck it pour the next deuce
Im counting lines up on a Tuesday
If I text a bitch its link time
All im getting backs a true say
Fuck it never mind the mood change
Im too busy for a mood swing
So Tell me baby u think who changed
I been always on the same thing
This what never going broke bring 
Lotta problems when the phone ring

Light this blunt up
Drop the match stick
Blow a Hole thru that pavement
Whos the right guy
Whos the right one
No one else want the placement

Im in the mix baby im me again
Sorry as fuck
U deep in that drink calling me again im not home
Took me a second to get in this mode
Even my skin tryna turn into to stone
Too many numbers thats not in my phone
Half of the industry hearing my tone
And Baby im back in the city again
Sold out shows in sold out clothes
Baby im back on the grease again
I catch fire and there I go
Whatever I say is wherever they go
Thats my dog he take his bones
I just want this cash in my hand before I land
Before im home

So pick the fuck up
And throw the rest out
I been here for like ages
Its just the break down
This the last one
This when all the shit changes
Light this blunt up
Drop the match stick
Blow a Hole thru that pavement
Whos the right guy
Whos the right one
No one else want the placement

this where everything changes (eric godlow)

lyrics:

Draped in this porch light
Is a broken man 
Stained with his guilt wine red thru his hands
These Words that we know
Halt the truth relayed to him
When everything is lost he picks up to start again

Based on his blood sports
I cannot defend
He just picks the brick back up as he stands
Ive been getting out more
Hell be sure to state
But Fuck if I could tell his rage paved thru his wake
When Every single second counts double on this day
Plan ahead for proper use to minimize ur waste
I cant even feel the copper splatter on my face
Id be none the wiser without profile of this taste
In his bruised hand he holds my back teeth
before the dirts layed he stashes more flesh
On this Wednesday im pushing daises
But On this Thursday im pushing roses 

Draped in this porch light
Is a broken man 
Stained with his guilt wine red thru his hands
These Words that we know
Halt the truth relayed to him
When everything is lost he picks up and goes again

Wait and Watch as his mask drops and his face shows
Its just like a mirror of looking at my own
I swear to god its like the last night I was out alone
Just Listen to my insight and stay the fuck at home
Its Big guns on the green line and a tired soul
U could get marked just like anyone u know
Leave his face on him side ways with a black hole
He just blew his brains out the back his fucking skull
Flayed on the stop sign sits his beating heart
Its like the human body get help break and fall apart
So Back into his hiding hole inside the long dark
He Rests until the year is done and halloween starts

Hlwn25 (eric godlow)

spotify version:
https://open.spotify.com/track/6UZk8amMQGkHHd9mtfwwZr

lyrics:
@mis4ortune
it's been 20 days since you left
i've been try to find you out, but you're not there
try my best to hold you close like before
find these memories' are locked in the upstairs
i can't help myself for now
i'm hiding myself in the crowd
kllin myself for you now
my heartbeat so low and it can kill me
i finally can set me free.

@victxrw
and every single day its not enough
for you
so tell me what the fuck do you want
or do
anything that makes it all fine
i think im losing my mind again
i think im wasting my time again
can we make it up maybe we can be friends
just tell me that its over, tell me its the end
is it the end?

(face of an angel i cant explain
shes got the devil inside of her brain
so its do or die
heaven or hell)

@mis4ortune
it's been 20 days since you left
i've been try to find you out, but you're not there
try my best to hold you close like before
find these memories' are locked in the upstairs
i can't help myself for now
i'm hiding myself in the crowd
kllin myself for you now
my heartbeat so low and it can kill me
i finally can set me free.

@victxrw (w/ @mis4ortune vocal)
wow im finding myself in the ground
digging a grave for myself
i tried to scream but nobody helped
im trynna find anything.

SPOTIFY

kyozaku & cli - twenty days (ft. mis4ortune & victxrw)

lyrics:

Somewhere inside the Hudson
Ive sat for a decade in Ice cold
Way back in port town suburbs
My scent still sticks to my old clothes
Ive lost all but my worst habits
You’ll be who I look for on my walk home
Rolled up in this bleach burn magic
Does this hit of numb ever get old

Another story of a boy who never grew old
How’d that truck taste
That shit was aiming for him
He said in the worst way
I will see you on road
Tell that fuck face
That im waiting for him
Play the tape back
Look at me im love struck 
I just want that back
Look what we had
Waves touch gaff
Just look at me im sea sick
I dont have sea legs
I cant swim back
Just look at my hands
The ropes burned holes in
The legs of my pants
With the force of cannon
I am no man
I was tucked down
In the bowels of the ship
In a selfish abandoned
As the weights laid
I will stay back
Sure my worst fate remains in my head
For Next birthday
I will eat cake
Sure my ship mates ive hurt are all dead
I cant believe my luck
If u could call it that but really ur just war shy
Next time I sober up
Ill face a battle that gets harder every next time

Somewhere inside the Hudson
Ive sat for a decade in Ice cold
Way back in port town suburbs
My scent still sticks to my old clothes
Ive lost all but my worst habits
You’ll be who I look for on my walk home
Rolled up in this bleach burn magic
Does this hit of numb ever get old

hudson bay floater (xlhc x fantasy camp)

lyrics:

White dust All over my outsides
Im fucked up Dancing on this cork tide
Loose lips They’ll Tighten by the court side
Bruised hips From Slow dancing with tough guys
June 5th Thats the night my heart died
Unzipped Wet Flesh on the road side
So crisp Just Wait until the bloods dried
Two fifths In me by the sunrise

Under the streetlights she becomes a dancer
You and this new guy in somebodies camper
What does he taste like and how does he stack up
I didnt ask you but I know you’ll answer
A Dark room brain hung with polaroid scars
Film reel legs and some SLR arms
I got banks full of pain and a lens full of tar
These Megaphone veins feed my Radio heart
If This is what its come to Im leaving I promise
Snow hugging prints to the ground where its calmest
Ive lived a life full of colons and commas
Im Graced with a peace to know this periods upon us
No one Theres no one
To carry all this extra weight Here after all
Just once Well just once
Id like to have somebody here That I could call
No one Theres no one
To carry all this extra weight Here after all
Just once Well just once
Id like to have somebody here That I could call

White dust All over my outsides
Im fucked up Dancing on this cork tide
Loose lips They’ll Tighten by the court side
Bruised hips From Slow dancing with tough guys
June 5th Thats the night my heart died
Unzipped Wet Flesh on the road side
So crisp Just Wait until the bloods dried
Two fifths In me by the sunrise

idk what to call this (ryan kelly x tiedforsilver)

epitomeoffailure (@eof404)