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💫 Turquoise Sky 💫 
An original poem whispered by the enchanted soul — a journey through body and cosmos, where rhythm becomes revelation.
Set to AI-generated music that shimmers between earth and sky, this piece unfolds like a sacred trance: the trembling of the human heart meeting the vast serenity of the heavens.

From the turquoise stillness of the firmament to the dragon’s retreat within, it’s a dance between two souls — a pulse shared, a cosmic breath.
A sonic meditation on unity, rhythm, and transcendence — the moment when two souls vibrate as one.


💫 Turquoise Sky 💫 
(original poem)

Turquoise sky,
deep like an ocean.
No clouds disturbing
the perfect blue.
Blooming fractals
doing their dance
high on the firmament.

I lay there,
collapsed, 
yet so alive.
Shaken by last
quivers of bliss,
last coilings of my dragon
before retreating to his cave.

You stay serene,
unshaken,
beside me trembling
from all my fibers,
keeping with your drum
the pulse of us, twins.

Whose rhythm
is this?
The drum echoing
my shaking?
My twisting fibers
following the drum?

The sky is calling,
The earth is calling…
The pulse of us
chooses the stars.
I burst upwards.

I return.
No memories,
no words,
but the precious gem
of our cosmic journey.

A
S

Down tempo | relax | mindfulness | chill | flow | soothing | dreamy | soulful | experimental | groovy | eternal love


The Pulse of Us - ambient

your backyard

@luvrrboi
ty mysticfox4 for the beautiful color work on my drawing<3

Lyrics:
singing SleepyHead but I’m still woke
head down on the kick like a pillow
face down on a brick, ayo
Yung Luv aka Lumo
catch me gliding on the breeze like a frisbee
she’s shaking at her knees when she with me
cuz I’m cool
but ill give her my jacket too

but if i give that girl my jacket
will i get back?
if i give that girl my heart
will she make my heart attack?

If i give her all my love
will i get any back?
Yung Luv’s not just my name
that’s how i want to act
I wanna misbehave
i wanna just relax
I wanna waste my days
on love that won’t last   

at least love that i don’t expect to
cuz ive expected in the past and its been regretful
you know who you are, i still don’t forgive you 
i  can’t forget you

partly cuz you took my jacket and I know that you meant to
now i watch my closet close every time a new girl steps into my bedroom

It’s hard to share anything with anyone,
but I do
cuz I’m cool
and I’ll give her my jacket too

but if i give that girl my jacket
will i get back?
if i give that girl my heart
will she make my heart attack?

If i give her all my love
will i get any back?
Yung Luv’s not just my name
that’s how i want to act
I wanna misbehave
i wanna just relax
I wanna waste my days
on love that won’t last

Heart Attack/Give Me Back My Jacket

HEARTATTACK/GIVEMEBACKMYJACKET

i cant help it (feat. guccihighwaters)

skull design by https://www.instagram.com/thehailing/
prod. @notmorgn

they say you gotta make a change
if you wanna feel better
now i’m pushing weight
bursting out my favorite sweater
fuck the opposition
imma smoke em in a second
yeah I kill time that’s the way
that I spend it
and i don’t wanna die but my brain think different
wanna feel fine but i act so distant
and i don’t wanna doubt but my dreams fictitious
not enough energy to break out the system
wake up with the same mindset
my plate got to much to digest
inspiration too rare to even find it
so i fight my way through the violence
had the dream again
the one you’re screaming in
the one i wake up
still feelings deep within
i’m so sorry
i had to do that
i broke everything
the pieces wouldn’t glue back

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

i’m just here filling up the space
i’m just here filling up the space

my vision 20/20
but my problems aren’t clear to me
im seeking opportunities but 
fuck them up so frequently like
i can’t stop it
i make myself nauseous
i turn a good girl to
a bitch that is toxic
i don’t wanna always do that
just wanna make you happy
if your moods bad
not feeling too good
about the truth myself
but i gotta dust off
what’s on my shelf

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

filling up the space

fiveofive (prod. excedi)

fiveofive

tout le monde frappe un fond

@prodreaper
@marten4str

every day i wanna fall
every day i wanna blow
brain matter on the wall
i just wanna end it all

every night i wanna change
every night i wanna write
lyrics down and smoke a pipe
i don't wanna see the light

how could i be such a mess
how could i be feeling stressed

i know every single person hits a low
i just turn the tv on it and let it go
play guitar until its late and fall asleep
prolly wake up brush my teeth and then repeat naw

i can't even breathe some time 
and i know you wanna see me shine
i think everything might be alright
at least i hope i swear to god i wanna die (x2)

i can't, escape
these haunted days,
i'm lost
i'm stuck
inside my brain

a cycle of energy 
i know whats best for me
slay all my enemies
hope that they rest in peace
hope that they rest in peace (x2)

i can't even breathe some time 
and i know you wanna see me shine
i think everything might be alright
at least i hope i swear to god i wanna die (x2)

cortisol (p. reaper & martensite)

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

produced by loopy

can we start over? [prod. loopy]

remember that life always works out in the end <3

suicidal thoughts shouldn't be normal, but they are (prod. Dazel)

Lyrics:
I need a breather, I need a breather
Got a love needle, it was so lethal
Now watch me bleed bleed bleed, now watch me bleed out
I wanna leave leave leave but i cant leave her
I need a breather, I need a breather
Got a love needle, it was so lethal
Now watch me bleed, bleed bleed, now watch me bleed out
I wanna leave leave leave, but i cant leave her

I Make songs all day (Yeah - yeah)
Saying imma go away (Disappear)
You never loved, me (never loved me)
But I dont listen, Ignoring all of your warnings
And Im sorry to myself  (But I doont listen)
Me getting hurt was a choice, I'm always so Hard headed

Its an own fault of mine, I caused it
Its an own fault of mine, I caused it
Its an own fault of mine, I caused it
Its an own fault of mine, I caused it

I need a breather, I need a breather
Got a love needle, it was so lethal
Now watch me bleed bleed bleed, now watch me bleed out
I wanna leave leave leave, but i cant leave her

I need a breather, I need a breather
Got a love needle, it was so lethal
Now watch me bleed bleed bleed, now watch me bleed out
I wanna leave leave leave, but i cant leave her

I needa leave, I need to leave her yeah
way that it seems, she got amnesia
she cannot think, that imma believe her
lie through her teeth, show me your fangs
Killing the pain, im off a the meds
your love is a drug, im nearly dead
I coulda left for sumady else
I saw your tears n picked you instead
but thats how it is

Breather - Single

Breather

Breather (Prod. 1998)

rip me open w/ shinigami & 93FEETOFSMOKE

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

self doubt again
cant get the fuck out my head
this might be the end
i think this might be the end

i cant trust this bitch i know she digging for gold
i dont know if i could ever trust a soul
got my hand on the blade if u want smoke we could go
i been screaming at the sky cus i been searching for some hope tonight

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

go fuck yourself i
dont care what you say
hope this storm will pass
drowning in my pain

nicotine [prod. 93feetofsmoke]

Produced by ryini

Lyrics

A lot of times I don't feel I got no one to talk to
And all the drugs I take I promise that I try and not to
But people just avoid me so I smoke and pour a shot too
I'm walking to my grave cause tryna live is what I not do

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I don't wanna stay here no more, I don't wanna love I'm so sore
I don't see the point of what it's all for, all I wanna see is her on all four

I'm not that guy I used to be
People are of no use to me
Seems like everyone got used to me
I'm falling back to what I used to be

I'm not alive, I'd rather die
Than to keep up hating my life
Girl goodbye, you're not mine
I'm not yours leave me alone (x2)

I'll fade away with the wind
Everyday's a day I hate being in
Or maybe I just hate my own skin
Is it really even that more different?

Cause the world is bitch that's why I say fuck it
Every morning is shit but I don't think nothing of it
Cause it's always been that way for me
God why'd you give so much hate to me?

I can't take it
How'd I make it?
This far I don't know
Cause I keep losing my hope (x2)

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I don't wanna stay here no more, I don't wanna love I'm so sore
I don't see the point of what it's all for, all I wanna see is her on all four

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning

spotify.

i lost her.

i'm getting so cold
i think i'm turning blue

синий

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

I never felt as powerless as i did in the hospital room
every second and hour spent saying how much i love you
and I’m so sorry that I fucking lied
said I’ll protect you but I couldn’t this time
it doesn’t matter how hard I tried
how the hell do I say goodbye
i wanna be the way we were
but it just keeps getting worse
keep screaming at the nurse I’m sorry
watch them take away your body

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me
scream until you comeback
I need you please don’t go yet
give me one more day
why would they take you away from me
I’m staring at the sky 
and wonder if you’re behind with
a thousand eyes on you
sitting inside the blue it still doesn’t feel real yet
kneeling next to your bed and seeing you so damn cold
just tell me its all a fucking lie

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

keep screaming (prod. neek)

mitchell
booking/contact: badghostinternet@gmail.com

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