it's thursday, january 12th and this is the last time i'll talk about drowning

outro

good morning answering machine baby

there are reasons that i can't stay 
i counted them all myself 
but i will always keep awake 
searching for how it felt 
because all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if it'll ever come 
as easy as us giving up 

if this could stop 
i don't think i'd want it to 
i built my life around watching everything you do 
it still feels like you can hear me when i talk to you 
you just don't respond 

and all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if you're having fun 
i wonder if you're having fun 

all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if you're having fun 
in that empty space where we used to talk

you wanted to look for help, i wanted to sit and wait to be rescued

we would make an EP but i think we're both too impatient for that so!! :p

lyrics:
You expect more of me than I could ever meet
Everything I do is never quite complete
I know I disappoint you but I'm trying as hard as I can
You'll never care and I'll never understand
Please just give it a rest and don't expect the best
For I know you'll expect too much and I'll just let you down
I'll just let you down

I want to tell you that I need you to be proud of me
I know it's annoying and I'm sorry please don't hate me
I'm sorry
Without support, this is so hard, it's so hard
Will you believe in my vision
I need to stop wishing
It's so hard

it's so hard

Taylor wrote this awesome guitar riff that we made into a song. This is us practicing it for the first time and I'm so glad it sounds this way with all the instruments. 
Listen to the finished recording of this song here!
https://open.spotify.com/track/6LyA6defawzVyvPdL3LqIK

Space Again (Demo)

well if it seems stupid
you know that you’re on your way
to something much better
forgetting the moments that i’d say
i need you, i can feel it in my heart
and i know that i hate change
but lately its me doing the changing
if i could get back to where i was
i’d show you how strong my mother raised me
and how deep her words embraced me
and how brave the time has made me
and the things we thought were scary 
were just different

you grow out your hair the strength of rapunzel 
sometime in march i’m becoming an uncle
these are the times that i felt so blind to what i’ve done
so now i’m trying to live every day
without the fear that i create 
remember me just as i came
and not the boy who went away

i’m feeling your hands, they’re cold as the ocean
i’ve let myself down more than i’ve noticed
these are the times that i felt so blind to what i’ve done
just know that i’m trying, i’m trying, i’m trying
every single day

but if this has to be goodbye
let it be goodbye.

if this has to be goodbye

affirmations/sleepinstead (w/ stellanna music)

Clara Rockmores Ghost

catnaps in an abandoned parking lot

Scruffpuppie - carelessness (demo)

i record songs and write poems and i really hope you're having a good day.

if this has to be goodbye

flatsound