there are reasons that i can't stay 
i counted them all myself 
but i will always keep awake 
searching for how it felt 
because all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if it'll ever come 
as easy as us giving up 

if this could stop 
i don't think i'd want it to 
i built my life around watching everything you do 
it still feels like you can hear me when i talk to you 
you just don't respond 

and all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if you're having fun 
i wonder if you're having fun 

all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if you're having fun 
in that empty space where we used to talk

you wanted to look for help, i wanted to sit and wait to be rescued

i record songs and write poems and i really hope you're having a good day.

Everyone says that I don't care
But I care the most
And it hurts me that everyone perceives me in that way
Because I try my hardest to be there
For everyone and myself
When I want to die every time I wake up
I want to die every time I wake up
I want to die every time I wake up.


-Xójira 

𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐱𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐫𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐳𝐢𝐤𝐞r
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Hopefully sometime soon I’ll start uploading my original work

you wanted to look for help, i wanted to sit and wait to be rescued

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